A/N: Update, next one. Only 2 more chapters, left:)

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After closing the door behind Miranda he realized his error. The beeping of the machines was his undoing. He slid down the door as the sobs wracked his body. She looked so peaceful almost like she was sleeping and would wake up at any moment but Derek knew that there was a chance that she wouldn't wake up. There was a chance that she would stay in this state for the rest of her life and it was that realization that had him inconsolable.

As his sobs slowly stopped he stood up and pulled the chair over to her bed and sat down in front of her and pulled her hand into his. As it fell limply between his hands he stifled a sob and gripped her hand tighter and exhaled deeply. "The doctors say that you came through surgery just fine Addison and our babies are doing well. Please open your eyes and come back to me, I found out something these last couple of hours, without you I'm not really a nice person. I piss people off and for some reason I seem to annoy the hell out of everyone I encounter, you were my better half for lack of a better phrase. I seem to shut down and become a monster without you by my side, it's wrong but there it is and I just want to ask your forgiveness. So please wake up."

The beeping of the machines was his only response to his emotional plea.

Derek sat forward and put his head on her hand and said, "Very well you want to play this the hard way. Addison, I need you to be here with me now. Miranda tells me that we have two healthy babies and other than them staying in the incubator for a little while we should be able to take them home soon. So please wake up and put an end to this misery that I'm living."

As the quiet sounds of the machine responded to his request he exhaled softly and sat up in the chair and said, "I don't know what me being here will do, whether it will make you wake up sooner or prolong your nap in slumber land but I'm here and I'm not going anywhere."

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Mark found her in front of the nursery window swiping away tears. He came up behind her and put his head on her shoulder and said, "So which ones are they?"

Callie leaned into his strength as she pointed out the incubators which held Baby Boy and Baby Girl Shepherd. Mark smiled softly, "They are going to be heartbreakers."

Callie nodded as she sniffled and said, "She will if Addison ever wakes up."

Mark stood up and looked at her in confusion, "I thought that the surgery was a success and that the twins were saved and everything went well."

Callie was transfixed on the sight of the babies as she spoke, "Dr. Grover told me that the twins came through surgery fine but that Addison….," her voice cracked as she continued, " Addison, they almost lost on the table three times. She said its touch and go with her right now."

Mark pulled her into his arms and said, "Honey, I'm sorry. I had no idea." Callie shook her head as she lay on his chest and snorted, "I can't believe you are the one who's comforting me, for the last couple of years you've been under the impression that you were in love with Addison Shepherd."

Mark laid his head on top of hers and said, "I was in love with the idea of being in love and Addison was an easy target. She was smart, sexy as hell and had a sense of humor. Her only downfall was that she devoted too much of herself to Derek who was an ass that didn't deserve her. She never gave herself the time to admit that he could've been wrong and that's what sent her spiraling out of control. I was a SOB that took advantage of her in one of the worst moments in her life."

Callie exhaled and nodded as she pulled away and went back to watching the babies, "They are so small. I know that Dr. Grover said that because she pulled them out when she did that they would be fine but I'm still worried. Miranda went home and she left me with the fun task of making sure that Derek goes home and gets some sleep. Anybody want to help me with that one?"

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"Derek?"

Derek didn't look up at the sound of his name being called. He ignored the voice and continued to stare at his wife longingly.

"Derek?"

Derek turned around and met the face of Mark Sloan. He rolled his eyes and turned around and back to watching Addison.

Mark cleared his throat and said, "Derek? You have to go home and get some sleep. Your not doing anybody any good staying here…The doctors will be here to watch over Addison and your babies."

Derek looked up and said, "I almost lost Addison tonight Mark. I almost lost her twice…the doctors told me, there's nothing you can say that's going to make me leave her side."

Mark put a hand on his shoulder and said, "Derek, you're not doing her any good. If she wakes up and find you looking like a werewolf with red eyes, it's going to scare her back unconscious and not to mention what she's going to say when she finds out you haven't even checked on your children."

Derek scowled at Mark's attempt at humor and said, "Fine, fine…What do I need to do so you will leave me alone?"

Mark smiled softly and said, "You will go home and shower and get some sleep. If I see you back here before 9 in the morning I'll tell Richard Webber to put you on leave."

Derek grimaced and stood up and walked over to Addison's bed. He kissed her on the forehead and said, "I'm going for a little while but I'll be back. Feel free to wake up before I return."

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Callie looked up and said, "I don't believe it." Callie watched as Mark walked Derek to the car and said, "You got him to leave?"

Mark nodded pleased and said, "I still have some skills."

Derek rolled his eyes at both of them as he started walking away and said, "Mark's an ass."

Mark looked at him in shock as Callie laughed and said, "Derek?"

Derek turned in question as Callie stared him down and said, "Mark may be an ass but he's my ass."

Callie walked away leaving Mark with a smile and Derek with a groan.

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Next Morning

Miranda walked into the ER with a mission. She had slept fitfully all last night thinking in Derek and Addison. She had to leave the hospital or she was liable to go crazy with all of the emotions that were swirling around her family and friends. She first made a stop at Richard's office to see the chief sleeping in his chair with Addison's chart as a pillow. She wanted to go in and tell him to go home as well but she stopped herself. She knew now wasn't the time to be calling the shots not when everyone was still waiting on bated breath for the wakeup of Addison.

As she opened the door to her friend's room she was shocked to see Martha Grover sitting in the chair across from her bed. Miranda walked in and shut the door behind her and turned to Martha with a smile, "I didn't expect to see you here so soon."

Martha looked up with a smile, "I couldn't sleep and I knew that it would be worthless to try. I decided to come and sit with this woman that strikes the heart of so many people whose paths she cross. You know she truly is an amazing woman, just from what you told me about her she has overcome great obstacles, and she's an admirable person."

Miranda sat down in the chair next to her bed as she looked upon her friend who besides the rise and fall of her chest gave no other reaction to the fact that she was alive. She nodded and said, " Addison is a special woman. She's the one who helped bring my son Tuck into the world."

Martha smiled and said, "I was talking to Richard Webber this morning and he was telling me about some of the amazing strides she's made in our field. She sounds like a credit to the profession; it was weird talking to Richard though."

Miranda smiled and said, "Richard, weird how?"

Martha leaned forward and said, "I must confess talking to him was like talking to a proud father and not a colleague. He constantly went on and on about her achievements and triumphs as if they were his own…it was disconcerting to say the least."

Miranda laughed and said, "Yea Richard will do that when he's talking about Addison. He was her mentor and he always had a special place in his heart for her as well as his wife Adele who looks at Addison as another daughter."

Martha stood up and walked over to the side of Addison's bed and after checking her vitals leaned down and spoke into her ear, "Addison you are a very lucky person to have so many people here who love and care about you….All they're asking for, all I'm asking for is that you open your eyes and give everyone here a chance to get some sleep."

Miranda laughed from behind her and said, "I second that motion."

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"Coffee's in the kitchen."

Derek stumbled out of his bedroom and looked at Mark who was sitting on his couch sipping on a cup of coffee and reading the morning paper.

Derek raised an eyebrow went into the kitchen poured himself a cup and then sat across from Mark and swiped his paper back, "What are you doing here?"

Mark rolled his eyes as he sipped and said, "You were supposed to come home and get some sleep…If I know you like I still know you, that meant you were going to wait until you saw my car lights drive down the street then you were going to either call a cab or get back in your car and drive to the hospital."

Derek scowled and said, "You SOB, you stole my keys I was looking…."

Mark laughed and said, "See what I mean? That was your plan all along. You needed to get some sleep. Without any sleep you are no good to your wife or your twins."

Derek put down his cup and put his face in his hands, "What am I supposed to do now Mark?"

Mark leaned forward and looked at him in confusion, "What do you mean, what are you supposed to do?"

Derek looked at him and said, "My wife is in an unconscious state at the hospital, my children are currently in the NICU and I can't function. What do I do now?"

Mark grimaced and said, "I've never been in love, did you know that? I thought I was in love with Addison but it just turned out to be great sex…."

Derek looked at him enraged and said, "How in the hell is that supposed to help me you ass?"

Mark frowned and said, "If you had let me finish….Addison was not someone I was in love with, I was in lust with her….I think I'm in love with Callie and the idea that there could be a time, a single moment where her life lay in the balance, I think I would be useless to everyone and everybody…The love that I have for her is new to me but it scares the hell out of me so to finish up, I don't know what you do Derek. I don't know how you are supposed to function because if that was Callie in there, I don't think I would function."

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Richard walked into the room of his surrogate daughter and sat at her beside. He looked at the peaceful look on her face and felt the tears come to his eyes. He pulled her hand into his and kissed it and held it there. He cleared his throat and spoke gruffly, " Addison. That's enough of this. It's been a couple of hours and per this Dr. Grover you should be awake by now. You need to be awake, Derek's walking around like the living dead, Miranda isn't giving the interns hell and they're freaked out, Callie doesn't want to set bones and Mark is acting nice to everyone. We need your balance here because it feels like we are falling apart without you to hold us together."

He paused and let go of our hand as he stood up and started pacing, "I met my grandchildren this morning. They are beautiful Addison, they are beautiful and healthy. Martha says that if they continue they should be out of the incubator in 2-3 days and you can hold them….Addison please."

Richard sat down again and said, "I never told anyone this but I'm scared. I'm scared that I won't see your face again. You may wonder what the hell I'm talking about but you were always the epitome of what I envisioned in my child, the traits I envisioned my child would have. I never knew what it was like to love another human being like I love you without them being a blood relation. I guess that's part of the reason I wanted you here in Seattle, so I could watch over you like a father should….I'm not your father Addison and I'm not here to confess that I should be but I want you to know that it doesn't stop me from loving you like a child….I'm scared Addison because you helped me become a better man you help me become better. I want to get the chance to watch you raise my grandchildren right with Derek by your side."

He stopped in his dialogue when he noticed eyes fluttering. He stood up and ran to the side of the bed and grabbed her hand and said, "Come on Addi, come on."

Addison opened her eyes and rolled her head to the side to meet his face. Richard smiled at her but then felt his smile falter when her eyes rolled back into her head and her face fell to the side unconscious.

Dude, so sorry but I needed another angst shot before I wound this one up, this should be it, I promise:)