Chapter 5: Side Effects
What a change
I wonder what happened to me to do this
It was after a class
He left behind to clean
His two friends going for lunch
I must have been blind
I just went at him
I grabbed his shoulders
Turned him around
I wanted to yell at him
Accuse him of doing something to me
It must be a love potion
There is no other explanation
I wanted to hurt him
Just like he does
But his face was scared
And it hurts to say,
That it was me he was scared of
Oh, just how I wish I could wipe it off his freckled face
This fear
I would love to see just for once
A face that looks happy to see me
A face that says he cares for me
A knowing smile
That we would be the only ones to understand
So I just release him, sigh to my greatest fear,
And left.
Without a word I walked out
Out of this room
I walked in this long corridor, but then
I hear footsteps
And at the same time
I was hoping it was him
Catching up with me to ask me what just happened
But I was also worried
I hoped secretly in a little part in me
That it wasn't him
But than I heard his voice
Saying my name
He did not need to shout
He just said it,
In a tired voice
And I heard it clearly
As clearly as if he was next to me
Unfortunately my body responded to that voice
And stopped
I must have gone crazy, to not just walk away
Because turning back wouldn't be good for me.
But then again it was too late before
So why not going further down?
And then I could always come back up
Up to the surface
Up to the world
The real future that awaits me
So I turned back around
And met with his shiny blue eyes.