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A Heart's Desire

I need attention at home

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The apartment was so quiet as Summer came out of the bedroom. She had slept most of the day. Seth had left and she hadn't had anything to do. She'd thought of calling someone but then decided to just stay in and do nothing. But now she couldn't stay in bed anymore. She was clear awake.

It was already dark outside, Seth was probably in Japan by now. And he said that he would call her.

Summer sat down on the sofa in the living room. She was used to be alone at this point. Seth worked a lot. But it didn't seem as bad when she knew that he would come home in the evening and he wassometimefree on the weekends. The weekends were theirs; at least it used to. That was part of the reason of why she couldn't think of anything to do by herself. She was tired of drawing and the mall had probably closed.

Eventually, after sitting on the sofa thinking and looking at the surroundings, Summer decided to watch a DVD. And she figured that The Valley was the one. She hadn't watched it for a while but back in high school it had always been kind of like therapy to Summer. She could always relate to the characters. It made her reflect over things and most times it gave her a calming feeling and maybe a solution to a problem. Then again, in TV shows life wasn't realistic all the time.

Summer had no idea what had happened between her and Seth lately. Maybe she was just overreacting and making his work too big of a deal. But this wasn't the first time. He worked so much that she felt abandoned and left out. It was always something he had to do. She was happy that he liked his job and that he was doing well, she was. But, lately, things had gone a little too far. It wasn't a usual thing Seth would do to go to Japan for a week in so short notice. And he knew that they'd had plans and that she needed him more than she would ever admit. He was supposed to know that he should be with his wife at home. Couldn't they send a single or an old person instead?

They didn't have any problem with the marriage otherwise. They were having sex and they loved each other very much. They didn't stop talking like other couples would do and they were always kissing and doing fun things together. They were happy.

So why did Summer make this such a big deal? She could handle things at home for a week. He had been away before. And she did have friends.

But it was just so much more important now. She had been down more often the last couple of weeks. Maybe it was her work, that didn't go good at all, and maybe it was his. She was tired of having the house to herself while he was out there making money. She wanted that too. She wanted to have something to do; something more important than draw sketches of a new skirt. Even though she loved it and wanted to work with it so badly, she couldn't help but feel a little jealous.

Seth had an amazing job and he could do these amazing things, like going to Japan. He made lots of money on something he loved doing. And after trying so hard for so long with no result, Summer was bored and sad. Why did she have to be so stubborn and go for the highest goal? Why didn't she try something else for a while and see if she liked it? She would definitely be a lot more use then.

She figured that she just was lonely. It was a classic thing. Poor wife stays at home while handsome husband goes to work and make some money, forgetting about his girl waiting with dinner back in the house.

It wasn't like Seth was forgetting her, it really wasn't. He was being wonderful and he would quit his job for her, she knew that. He would do whatever to make her happy. And it was just that. Seth was so good to her and he was an amazing man that she loved more than anything. But he was changing. He was becoming a workaholic; a man obsessed with his work. And he didn't even realise it.

Summer couldn't ask him to quit his job or cut down his working hours. She knew that he loved what he was doing and he helped her to reach her dream. Or he tried to anyway. The fact that he took a day off from work when she was upset or made a call to someone so that she could come into a fashion show and the fact that he took her out at night after a hard day just made him the perfect husband. No one could ever support her more than he did. So she had to do the same for him. Even though it meant that she wouldn't be very happy about it.

But, still. Seth knew her better than anyone else and he should know that she felt alone and abandoned. He should know that she hated to sleep alone, eat dinner by herself and live in a huge apartment with no one there to keep her company. Part of her thought that he should know those things. Maybe she was a selfish bitch, but he knew that too. He just knew her and he was ignoring her feelings. At least she felt like he was.

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Seth had called Summer three times now. Where the hell was she?

Maybe she was angry and didn't want to pick up or she wasn't at home and had turned her cell off, or she just didn't hear the phone. He had told her that he would call and she hadn't been too upset when he left. He had been allowed to kiss her and she'd told him that she loved him. But she had been sad and distant.

He tried calling her again, waiting several signals.

"Hello," Summer finally answered in a uncertain voice, very weakly.

"Hi Summer!"

"Oh, it's you."

"Yeah, it's me. Don't be too excited." Seth said sarcastically.

"Sorry."

"Where have you been? I've called you several times."

"I have been sleeping."

"Ever since I left?"

"No, I went up and watched the Valley but I guess I fell asleep on the couch."

"Okay. You must be tired then."

"No, I'm just bored."

"I'm sorry Sum. I know that we had plans and all." Seth said, sincerely sorry.

"Yeah," Summer replied sadly.

"Can't you call Marissa or someone else? You could go visit your dad or my parents." he suggested, trying to cheer her up.

"No, I don't feel like it."

"Summer, aren't you being a little unreasonable now?" Seth said, loosing a bit of his patience.

"Unreasonable? Seth, you left me all by myself here. We had plans. I don't want to do anything else!" Summer argued, obviously not caring how she sounded because she didn't sound very nice.

"But our plans changed. Why don't you try to be positive and do something instead of staying in?"

"No," she replied stubbornly.

"What are you doing tomorrow then?" Seth said, sighing and trying to continue the conversation without fighting.

"Nothing."

"Summer. Why are you being so stubborn? Go out and do something tomorrow. Ask a friend to come with you to the mall."

"You mean instead of you?"

"Yes. Instead of me."

"I hate it when you're away." she whined, knowing that she wasn't being very nice to him at the moment.

"I know you do, but it's not for long. I'll be home soon. And it's not like I haven't been away before."

"But I never see you!"

"You do see me. Every day, at morning and at dinner."

"Wow! Two times every day. In the morning while you're all stressed and in the evening when you're tired and want to sleep." Summer fought, talking with a louder and colder voice.

"Summer! I do have time for you."

"No, you don't!"

"Summer, don't be like this. You can't honestly think that I'm not at home spending time with you!"

"That is exactly how it is! A couple of hours aren't enough for me when I am by myself all days. I want it to be like it was before. I want to eat lunch together and I want you to come home early a couple of times a week. I don't want you to leave me!" At this point Summer was almost yelling and her voice was unsteady, like she could start crying any second.

"Sum, please. I am not leaving you, baby. I am just working." Seth said, trying to calm her down.

"I don't care! All I know is that 80 percent of the time, I am alone. And you are at work!"

"Summer! I am working so that we can live in the apartment and so that you can buy things and so that you can work on your dream."

"My dream, huh? I don't care about it if it is like this Seth. I'll never succeed anyway."

"Don't say that. You'll make it if you just try hard enough and believe in yourself."

"Haven't I already tried hard enough? Do you know how hard it is to me to always get another no! There's no point in trying anymore."

"Yes it is."

"I don't want to talk anymore Seth."

"Don't hang up."

"I'm tired"

"No, you are not. Don't hang up Summer!"

"Have a great time. Bye."

"Summer…" Seth pleaded, but she was already gone. "Damnit!"

She made him feel so bad. But the things she'd said weren't entirely true.

They were still hard to hear though. And especially from a heartbroken Summer.

Maybe she just needed some time; she was upset now. But he sure couldn't figure out why she was so upset.

He hadn't even been away for a day.

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I don't really like to write about the two of them unhappy and fighting, but I feel like I have to.

They can't be happy all the time. That is what my other stories are for.

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