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A Heart's Desire

Together...?

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A few days passed. Seth and Summer had talked on the phone a lot and things were better. Summer had accepted that he would be away and she knew that it wasn't Seth's fault. She couldn't be mad at him forever and even though she still wasn't happy about being alone at home, she dealt with it. For him and for her.

Today, it was Tuesday and Summer had been to a meeting. It was one of those where she went there, got asked a few questions and showed some sketches and then got a 'we'll call you'. A 'we'll call you' always meant a no, and every time Summer got sad and felt sorry for herself. She used to call Seth at work and he would come straight home and make her feel better. He always let her spill out every feeling she had inside of her and every frustration. After a while, once she started to cry again, she had nothing more to say.

Seth always made her feel better and he always told her how wonderful she was and that she should keep trying and one day she was going to get an yes and then the ones who turned her down would regret not being the ones saying that. And after that Seth would take her out or they would do something fun at home. Anything to make her feel better and, once again the things that made her sad was forgotten and life was back to normal.

This time he wasn't there though. But Summer decided to call him anyway. She couldn't just sit in the apartment and cry. It would end with her killing herself or something. The meeting had gone as it always did; good in the start but then in the end just a 'we'll call you'.

Summer wiped her eyes and nose with the sleeve of her shirt before hearing Seth's voice into her ear. "Hi Seth," she said and sat down at the couch, taking a pillow into her lap.

"Hi Summer!" Seth merrily said, probably forgetting what day it was. He probably had too much work going on in his head. Therefore Summer didn't say anything; she wanted him to remember. And after a while he seemed to do so as he spoke in an apologetically voice. "Oh, Summer. How did it go?"

"Like it always do. Like crap." Summer said sadly, not angry. "I was there for 15 minutes." she continued and could almost hear Seth nodding.

"Well, you know what I always tell you."

"Yeah, yeah. Another no in the line is getting me closer to a yes." Summer said, sighing.

"It's true. You'll be able to sell your clothes one day, baby. I'm sure of that because you are so good."

"Nobody else seems to think I am."

"I always will. It doesn't matter what random people think. They don't know you and they sure don't know how hard you have worked."

"No they don't. Because I have worked hard."

"Yes, you have."

"Really hard." Summer added, pouting.

"Why don't you take a bath and listen to some music. I'm sure that will make you think of something else." Seth suggested. It was kind of a thing he said instead of 'I'll come home right now'.

"Maybe, but I don't want to be alone." she said sadly and if Seth wasn't feeling guilty yet he definitely was now.

"Summer," he started. "You know that I would be there with you if I could."

"I know but it's not really helping."

"I know. But please try to…"

"Seth, I am trying. How much does it take for you to understand that? I am trying but apparently I'm no good at it."

"Sum, I know. I know."

"Why do you keep telling me that I'm not trying hard enough and that I'm not positive enough then?"

"I'm sorry. I know that you're doing your best."

"I am. But I just feel really lonely." The 'angry' voice disappeared and all that was left was sadness in it.

"I know you do. But it's not long until I'll come home. It's only a few days left. I'm sure you can find company in the meantime; you have lots of friends."

"I do. But it's not the same to spend time with them now. Now I have to because otherwise I'll die of loneliness but when you're here I can be with them when I feel like it."

"If you are trying to make me feel even worse for being away, it's working. Summer, don't you know that I already feel like shit for being her?" Seth told her, getting tired of always trying to make her feel better when the only thing she did was complaining.

"I am just telling you how I'm feeling."

"Maybe you should tell things in a nicer way."

"So now I'm a bitch to you?" Summer asked sounding a little hurt.

"No, that's not what I meant."

"Then what do you mean. You have to be extra clear because I can't see you. Because we're talking over the phone."

"Summer, that is exactly what I mean. I don't want you to talk like that. Here I am trying to make you feel better and suggesting things for you to do and all you're saying is that I'm over here and I have left you and that I make you miserable."

"Well, I'm only telling you what's true. And I might overreact sometimes and let my feelings take over. I might say things that I regret saying and I might say things rude. But I'm alone over here and I'm tired of you working!"

"Why is this such a big deal, Summer? It's a week and I've been gone for a week before."

"I don't know!"

"Well, then figure it out because I don't want to hear…"

"Why are you yelling at me!"

"Because the only thing you do is wining at me."

"I do not. I just want you home."

"You have to be able to handle things on your own Summer. You can't be so dependent on me!" Seth said and Summer on the other side of the line got quiet. This, she had no reply to, no comment.

After a few minutes hearing nothing Seth called her name. "I hate you!" was what he got back and then Summer hung up, throwing the phone into the wall.

She was so angry. He wasn't supposed to act like that. He never screamed at her like that and he never said such hurtful things. Was she too depending on him? Maybe she was but that was entirely his fault. He was the one who always treated her like the most precious thing in the whole world. He was the one making her that way!

Summer forcefully lay down on the sofa, her head into the pillow. She screamed as loud as she could as tears were soaking it.

Seth didn't know why she was acting like this. She was acting like a bitch and she knew it. It wasn't her though. Sure it was Summer, but she had abandoned the bitchiness a long time ago. But apparently she really was pissed, or just very emotional. Maybe she was having PMS.

But just because she was emotional and just because she missed him did not mean that she had the right to say whatever she felt like and treat him the way she did. He was working and he was doing it for her. Why couldn't she understand that?

So, Seth was mad. At her.

And Summer was mad at him.

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The next day Seth was at work as usual. He was preparing a presentation for some random guys in suits. He couldn't focus though. For the first time in a long time, he couldn't focus.

He decided to get some coffee and went down the hall to the coffee machine. Of course it wasn't for free, nothing ever was. So he pulled out his wallet and paid. The coffee was in a cheap mug and it was expensive. It didn't taste good either.

"Excuse me, Mr. Cohen?" a voice called after him. Now, a small Japanese probably wanted to talk to him about how he was liking the country. Wasn't he tired of those questions?

"Yeah?" he said in a nice tone though, turning around.

"You dropped this." the Japanese said and gave him a photograph. He smiled thankfully and she walked away. She didn't even ask how he was doing. He shrugged and made his way into his 'office'.

He sat down at his desk and sipped the coffee again. It tasted like water with mud in it. It was definitely the most disgusting coffee he'd ever drunk. As he made a grimace, his attention fell to the photograph.

It was Summer. It was the picture he always had in his wallet; it was the picture covering all the picture space. Summer looked beautiful at it.

And he missed her. He hated fighting with her. And it was stupid. Because she was right, partly anyway. He worked a lot. Maybe too much sometimes. But it was just to be able to support her and give her everything she wanted. He was doing it for her. And he still couldn't understand why she was being so upset about this but she was. Summer was upset and she was angry and she was not okay and he hated to know that it was because of him.

As he looked at her happy face, all smiling, he couldn't understand why he was sitting in a random office, drinking disgusting coffee in Japan. He spent all his time with all these people in suits; that will say when he wasn't alone. He slept in a bed with sheets feeling like paper and with pillows so flat that he could as well sleep without one. He ate strange food with strange company, heard people speaking a language he didn't understand and saw places he didn't know existed.

He did all this when he could be having dinner at his kitchen table, dinner that tasted like it should taste. He could be watching a rental movie in his couch, taking a shower in his shower. And best of all, he could be doing all these things together with Summer; the most beautiful person on earth. Summer that was his wife, Summer that made his life worth living, Summer that loved him more than he ever thought anyone could.

To have someone next to you, knowing that they always held your back, was amazing. Feeling something as deep as his love for Summer was beautiful. To be able to wake up with an angel next to you every morning was incredible.

A tear rolled down his cheek and he didn't even bother to wipe it away.

He had let her down. He had taken her for granted and he had done something that she wasn't agreeing on. They were two in this marriage. And something so important as being together had been put aside.

Seth pulled his phone up and brought it to his ear. He had to make things right.

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I know that you guys don't like them fighting and don't like Summer being a bitch but this is my story.

I hate it as much as you do but I'm kind of tired of just writing fluff and cuteness. I am trying to do it less even though I love it.

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