A Heart's Desire

A confirmation and a happy face

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At some point in life you feel like you can't get any happier. Like your wedding day or when you get a promotion at work. At those times you feel like you can't possibly need anything else, you feel like you have it all.

Then there are the times when you feel like everything is wrong and you need a bunch of stuff. There are times when you pity yourself and when you just want to cry.

The passed week Summer had been travelling between them a lot. There had been times when she felt so lucky and so blessed. But there had also been times when she felt like she had everything against her.

Seth had also been thrown between happy and miserable the passed week. Most of them required around Summer and how she was feeling. It was as if his feelings were attached to hers in some way. If Summer was happy, he was happy. And if she wasn't, he wasn't either.

The feelings and the thoughts that were flowing in both of them at this moment were divided. Parts were happy, excited and hopeful. Others were scared, doubtful and sceptical.

They hadn't spoken a lot; they hadn't the courage and the ability to. Maybe they were afraid what the other one would think or what the other one was feeling. Maybe they were feeling the same things and maybe they weren't.

It was strange how one tiny thing could put people in this situation. It was strange how one petite thing could make people so emotional and so quiet.

But maybe words didn't have to be uttered. Maybe words didn't belong on this day. Maybe the support by two hands being intertwined was enough.

Seth felt Summer squeeze his hand tighter and he wonder if she was as scared as he was. He wondered if she wanted him to say something or do something. With the difficulty to decide what to do, he just gently caressed her hand with his thumb.

"Summer Cohen?"

Someone finally called out her name and they both rose from the grey couch they had been sharing. They looked around and saw that no one cared to notice them. Everyone in the room was occupied with either staring at the floor or reading a magazine. No one looked up to see them fallow the woman who had called Summer's name and leave the room. No one bothered to lift their eyes.

They were lead into a room and Summer was ordered to give an urine test and the whole time they were in that room everything seemed to just happen. Summer wasn't thinking, her body just did what she was told while Seth quietly sat in a chair.

It all happened so fast. They probably stayed in there for a while but it felt like five seconds. It wasn't like they had expected it to be; it wasn't long and boring.

It had just been so strange. The only thing they both remembered seemed to be a thing the doctor had told them with a smile on her face. "You are indeed pregnant, Mrs. Cohen. Congratulations to you both! You're gonna be parents soon."

Summer was nine weeks pregnant.

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The moment they sat in the car Summer burst into tears. She had been holding in all her fears and hopes for such a long time that she just couldn't anymore. She was pregnant and now it wasn't a maybe. She really was pregnant.

Seth was about to start the engine when his wife began to weep. He tried to calm her down by placing his hand on her shoulder but she only started to cry more as he did so. Awkwardly leaning over to her side of the car he held her head against him and hoped that she would calm down by it. After a while she did and pulled away, embarrassed.

"Sorry. I don't know what came over me," she said and wiped her eyes and forced a smile to her lips.

Seth cupped her chin and stared directly into her gaze. "Hey, don't worry about it. You're pregnant." He said the last words in a calm voice and a smile spread on his face.

"I really am pregnant." As she uttered those words and saw the look on her husband's face it was impossible not to smile. It was a real smile, the kind of smile that you couldn't remove. Not that Summer wanted to. She was actually happy and Seth was too.

"You really are." he laughed and kissed her, both of them still smiling.

"I'm so happy right now!" Summer exclaimed joyfully. There had been a tension between the two of them all day, or at least they hadn't been talking very much. Now though, everything was back to normal.

Seth placed his lips on her forehead in a gentle peck and tucked some hair behind Summer's ear. "Me too, Sum."

"Really?" she asked a little uncertain, but hopeful.

"Yes. I mean, you're having a baby."

"Our baby." Summer added, grinning at her husband. She couldn't express all the joy she was feeling with a smile. She was so glad that he was okay; that he was happy. The past days she'd been so afraid that he didn't want to have a baby and a part of her had wished that she wasn't pregnant.

Now though, she was sincerely happy that she was. She was twenty five years old and she was married. Who cared about a stupid career that didn't even exist?

"Our baby." Seth repeated and brought Summer back to reality.

"Yeah," Summer said and embraced Seth.

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"So, Cohen. Can you tell me about that dream of yours?" Summer asked later as they were snuggling together in a chair on their balcony.

Seth nodded and as he combed her hair with his fingers, a thing he did a lot. It wasn't something he decided to do, it just came naturally and they both loved it. Summer loved to have someone playing with her hair, what women didn't? And she especially loved it when it was Seth's fingers sending shivers down her spine. "You mean the one with us having a family?"

Summer whispered a 'yes' although she knew that she didn't have to answer. He knew what she meant.

Seth cleared his throat slightly and gave Summer's ear a light kiss before speaking. "Well, since I was just a kid I've wanted to spend my life together with you. That's no secret. But as we started to get serious and especially when I proposed and when we married I have thought about our future a lot." Seth paused and looked down at Summer, to see if she was listening. Summer looked as comfortable a person could be and she was definitely listening so Seth continued.

"I've always known that I want you to be the mother of my children and…and I always dreamt of having a little girl first. A little girl you'll dress in pink clothes and she'll look just like you. She'll be daddy's little girl though and once she's maybe two or three you'll have a boy. He'll have my curly hair and your eyes and your cute cheeks." He made a gesture to her face, gently caressing her cheek that was hard since she was smiling brightly. "I always knew that we would do perfect, that our kids would be beautiful."

"Cohen," Summer said in that 'could you be more adorable' voice. Seth ignored her and brought his hands down to Summer's tummy. "This one will be, too. She's gonna be perfect, just like you."

"She?"

"I told you we were having a girl first."

"But you can't know that. What if it's a boy? Then he'll be upset because his daddy thought that he was a girl." Summer explained as she drew lines on top of Seth's hands, still resting on her stomach. "Cohen?" she asked as he didn't reply.

"Oh, right. But I do know that it's a girl."

"Okay then. But it'll be your own fault when your kid's gonna be all upset. Shouldn't you of all people know that a boy doesn't wanna be called a girl? I mean, Cohen, if you're gonna be a dad-" Seth brought his hand up to her mouth to stop her from continuing.

"You're starting to sound like me, Sum." he said as he let go of her mouth and his hand returned to rest on top of her stomach.

"I'll blame that on you and the hormones, Cohen."

Seth laughed a little. "You do that."

"You know, now that I'm pregnant you have to do everything I say."

"Yeah?"

"Yep. The baby might be inside of me but it's as much yours at it is mine so you just have to always be by my side and please me."

"I don't think that will be a problem, honey."

"Me either."

"Nope. So, do you want anything?"

"Just to stay here. We should sleep out here tonight. It's so beautiful."

"That would be awesome Sum, but you'll get a cold and we don't want that."

"I guess you're right."

"I am."

"But can we stay for a little longer."

"Sure."

"Don't let me fall asleep, baby." Summer yawned and a minute or two later she was slumbering quietly in Seth's lap.

Afraid that she may actually get a cold Seth scooped her up in his arms and carried her into the warm house.

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The next day Summer and Marissa was shopping again. It was a ritual they had created; to go shopping on the weekdays. They both had time to do that; Summer not really having a work and Marissa having very few working hours since she didn't have to work either. She came from a wealthy family and so did her boyfriend William. They had been together now for several years and sometimes Summer wondered why they didn't marry.

William and Marissa were just perfect for each other. But every time Summer brought up the subject Marissa always said that they would when they were ready; when the time was right. Maybe they weren't the marrying kind of people but Summer figured that if she and Seth were then Marissa and William were.

"You seem so happy today, Summer. Has something happened?" Marissa asked as she had been studying her best friend for some time.

"I am happy. Can you really see that? Am I still smiling?" Summer said, giggling.

"Yeah, you are. So, what is it? Did you and Seth have a great time this morning or what?" They both new what a 'great time' meant and even though Summer knew that she had had a 'great time' this morning, she also knew that her happiness didn't just include that.

"I have some news," she started a little secretive.

"Yeees." Marissa said, urging Summer to continue.

"I'm pregnant!" Summer exclaimed and Marissa immediately flung her arms around her friend's neck.

"Really? That is so great, Summer. I'm so happy for you." Marissa said in their embrace. She had suspected something, seeing the mood and behaviour in Summer change during the passed weeks. But she was sincerely happy. She was going to be an aunt. Or not a real aunt but she and Summer had always been like sisters so she definitely would call herself an aunt.

As they released from their tight hug they both wiped a few tears from their eyes. This was something they'd both dreamt of since they were little kids. One of them was pregnant.

"How far along are you?"

"Nine weeks."

"Gosh, nine weeks. What do you think it is; a boy or a girl?"

"I don't know but Seth keeps telling me how he knows that it's a girl."

"A girl, that is so adorable. We could go look for baby clothes right now." Marissa suggested, being excited as a little girl. The baby wasn't gonna be hers but she was definitely going to be a part of this child's life.

"Really?"

"Of course."

"I have dreamt of baby shopping for my whole life."

"I know. Me too." Marissa said and Summer did a weird little jump fallowed by a shriek.

"I'm so excited!"

"I know." Marissa said and laughed, fully understanding that her friend was. "So tell me, how's Seth handling all this? I be he's already painting the nursery and preparing which comic to read for the baby."

"I actually think that he is."

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