At daybreak, Auron watched Yuna leave from the beach and walk back to the village, where she looked to be dragging herself into Wakka and Lulu's hut. He followed her back at a safe distance, so as not to intrude upon her space. After ensuring her safe entrance into the home, Auron made his way to the temple and promptly fell into the bed designated for him in one of the side rooms branching off from the main temple entryway. In a sleep-deprived haze he recounted the day, the night, and his entire life before his reincarnation at the simple wish of a girl.
What do I do with my life now that I have it? I could travel, but I've been down every horrible crack and crevasse that Spira has to offer. Auron shook his head disapprovingly of this idea.
I suppose I could make a home here, Besaid is quiet…peaceful…a good place to reflect upon life and maybe even raise a family. Auron started to chuckle to himself at that notion. He never thought he'd make much of a family man.
I can't stay here. I want adventure too much. The world needs rebuilding, help in its dark hours…maybe I could lend a hand? Does Spira even need someone like me anymore? Auron frowned to himself, not wanting to indulge in such thoughts.
Staying in Besaid has its advantages…Yuna is here…Auron quickly dismissed that thought as soon as it entered his mind, what are you doing you silly, stupid fool?! You're back on Spira among the living for one day and already you're…you never used to be this way, Auron!!
Auron paused a moment, the thing about her is…the timing was off. Then she was much younger than me, practically my own daughter. Now is much different, we're both young with the world ahead of us…oh Auron, shut up, you're her mentor not her peer…she's still hung up on him…
Auron's thoughts were silent for a long while, musing over the changes of the world, in his friends, and in himself. Finding himself more and more angry and frustrated with his feelings and thoughts, he turned over. Purging his mind of its cares, and giving into exhaustion he fell into a deep sleep.
Yuna stumbled over the doorsil as she entered the house, waking Wakka who was slumped over in a chair.
"Jush..where did you wander off too, girl?" he asked in a groggy, slurred voice.
"I…was..I went to the beach…to think" Yuna replied.
"Well you had us both worried! If we didn't think you to be the capable person you are we would've had the entire village looking for you, ya!" Wakka scolded in a quiet, sharper tone.
"I know, I am sorry, Wakka. I shouldn't have worried you and Lulu that way" Yuna apologized sincerely.
"Ahh you're okay," Wakka said smiling as he rose from his chair, "go and get some sleep, ya? You're tired I know it after fighting, partying and staying out all night."
Wakka patted Yuna on her shoulder and led her to her bed, he then excused himself into a smaller part of the hut that held his and Lulu's bedroom along with the baby's crib.
Yuna stretched out on the bed, which was a soft, overstuffed mattress on a bamboo bedframe. It felt like all her muscles cried out to be stretched at once and the ensuing tingling that washed over her felt so relaxing she thought she might lapse into a coma. Sunlight was pouring in through a small porthole window in the hut and Yuna placed a pillow over her head, shielding her from the intruding light.
I wonder if Auron is just as tired as I am, she thought through the sleep-filled haze of her mind, surely he must be more so.
She closed her eyes, trying to sleep, but her thoughts kept racing, I wonder if he is thinking of me now just as I am thinking of him…nooooo, he's Sir Auron, he'd never ever see me as anything other than the girl he took care of for his good friend or as the last summoner he guarded. Plus he's really old…
Yuna paused, Well…I guess he isn't technically that old…why won't my brain be quiet?! He's only back for one day and I'm thinking about him before I sleep?? Ohhhh…this is stupid. I am stupid. I have to do something…
Yuna sat up in her bed. She got up and moved over to the porthole window and pulled the small, heavy curtain hanging over it shut. The room then was largely dark save for the light seeping in around the large cloth draped over the entryway. She moved back to her bed and sat down on it.
I am being very silly. I'm thinking about him just because he's back and we're all excited to see him…right? How do I face him tomorrow…Auron, Auron, Auron…get out of my head so I can sleep!
Yuna laid her head down and stared into the dark of the room. After a long silence, she was finally so exhausted she passed out rather than drifted off to sleep.
Yuna slept for a full day and was working on her second one, giving into the exhaustion of her travels, battles, and her own thoughts. Auron, Wakka, and Lulu checked in on her periodically only to find her sprawled out in a different sleeping position each time, dead to the world and all it's goings on. Auron watched her from the doorway. She looked so silly and adorable at once it made him smile. Her covers were every which way, her hair scattered about her pillow, her mouth open wide. She was no sleeping beauty, but she was definitely out of it. A justly earned rest, Auron mused to himself, she earned rest and apparently I earned life. Wakka walked quietly up to Auron's side and peered around the cloth doorway to peek at Yuna.
"Ahhh she still sleeping, ya" Wakka asked.
"She may practically be comatose," Auron observed wryly.
Auron stared forward into the dark of her room. Wakka raised an eyebrow at the Guardian, "You act like you're still protecting her" he observed.
Auron shrugged, "Old habits die hard", Auron turned from the doorway of Yuna's room and made his way out to the entrance of Wakka's home. Wakka followed.
"She's something now, isn't she?" Wakka asked, a smile playing on his face.
"She's definitely grown, but she was always mature. I had no doubt she would become a fine lady," Auron replied.
Wakka nodded, "Lu and I are both really proud of her."
"As you should be. As we all are," Auron remarked.
There was a pause in conversation then, with Wakka trying to figure what to say.
"Sooo…you look different, ya? I know Yuna said she wished you back, but…you look different. You dye your hair?" He asked.
Auron smirked and chuckled, "No…Yuna asked that I be returned to life just as I was before I died. This is how I appeared when I was twenty-five years old."
"Ohhhhhhhhhh" Wakka said, feigning understanding, "well I guess that explains why both your eyes work, ya?"
"Ya," Auron said, semi-mockingly.
Both men turned as they heard a loud yawn and the sounds of someone coming through the hut. Yuna trudged up to the doorway, leaning on the frame and rubbing her eyes. Her feet were bare and her hair was still messy.
"Well if it isn't sleeping catastrophe!" Wakka declared, "we thought you'd never wake up, ya!"
Auron nodded his agreement with Wakka.
"Why?" Yuna asked, squinting her eyes at the two men, "wha-..how long was I asleep?"
"Nearly two days time," Auron informed.
Yuna's eyes widened and her face went red from embarrassment, "Oh my gosh!! I didn't mean to sleep that long! I feel so awful now!"
"Yuna it's alright. You didn't miss anything, just another sleepy day in Besaid," Wakka said, moving over to Yuna to put a comforting arm around her.
Auron simply watched as Wakka led her back into the house, offering her something to eat as they went. As much as he had wanted it to be his arm around the girl, he could not allow himself to do that. Auron turned to take another moonlit walk around Besaid. He had to get his thoughts in check, he had to figure out what he would do, and the frustration building in him would not allow this night to pass without him making definite decisions about his life.
Auron paused at the waterfall, glaring down at it from the bridge as though it were a hated enemy. He could never be mad at Yuna for wanting him to live again. How could he be so hurtful to someone who thought they were giving a precious, priceless gift to a valued friend? However, he was beginning to resent his situation a little.
This was supposed to be their world, not mine…He thought sadly to himself. Idly he wondered what it would be like to just leap off the bridge and end his life, but to do so would hurt Yuna and he could not allow that.
"Well, what will you do Auron?" he asked himself aloud, "you already know what you will do, but you do not wish to admit it. You want to stay. You want to stay with her."
And what else would I do? I could travel, kill fiends, and wander like a lost warrior trying to find his way. But where would all those roads lead? Auron looked back toward the direction of Besaid Village, they would not lead just to Besaid…they lead to her.
Auron ran a hand through his hair and undid the ponytail in the back, His black hair blew in the light breeze and he had forgotten what it was like to have long hair. He sighed.
I can't leave, because as soon as I leave she'll come to find me. I can't stay because being around her is so confusing and frustrating. Auron, what has become of you? You're a mess of a man. I cannot say what the coming days will bring, but I do know I will face them here…one day at a time. If only just for her.
