Sirius was lying on his back in bed, all he could hear was Peter snoring loudly. James was still in the common room (as far as Sirius knew). Remus was nowhere in sight. He wanted to make Remus see that Sirius was not confused.

The dorm room door opened and then closed "Sirius, Sirius are you awake?" a female voice came from behind him, he felt a weight on his bed as she sat down near his chest "Not now, baby" Sirius could not remember the girls name and had forgotten when he had ever shown her to his room

"Tomorrow?" she pushed his black hair out of his face

"Maybe" Sirius gave her a 'Sirius grin' so she brushed her lips against his and left.

Sirius closed his eyes and did not realise that strong arms were pulling him up to a sitting position "Wha… what?" he asked wearily

"Get up Sirius" he vaguely heard Remus' voice

"It's too early Remus"

"You've already missed your first lesson"

"I've what? Oh ha, ha very funny, Remus, it's Saturday you mother fucker." Remus smiled and laughed

"Well we did think it was funny, but it was James' idea, so don't blame me!"

"I won't; James just you wait until I get up and, erm…" he suddenly realised that it was only him and Remus in the room.

"The others are in the common room, James is eyeing up Lily again" Sirius rolled his eyes

"I'll get up then as you cannot amuse yourselves for five minutes" Remus helped him out of bed, he was acting as if the day before had not happened.

"Remus?"

"Yeah?" Remus looked at Sirius put on a T-shirt and jeans (Sirius nearly always dressed in muggle clothing on the weekends) "I meant what I said yesterday, about how I feel towards you"

"Let's not talk about that now"

"Remus, I need to talk about it, James won't understand"

"How do you know? He might understand, he understood when I told him I was a werewolf, why is this any different?"

"Because this is my sexuality, maybe you're right maybe I'm just confused".

"Sirius, ok we can have a heart to heart as long as you don't try to seduce me again" Sirius nodded, sat down and patting the space next to him on the bed

"How long have you had feelings for boys?"

"Don't know, I've been questioning it since third year, when I kissed that boy" Remus nodded

"And since you fancied… me?"

"Last year, I was watching you… get, changed. I'm sorry" Remus shook his head

"It's ok Sirius"

"Thanks Remus, I needed to tell someone"

"I understand a bit more why you've been avoiding me for a while, so why was it third year exactly?"

"My dear old brother, he sent a letter to my parents and then they send me a howler"

Sirius was in the hall eating breakfast. A large flock of owls went through the window and landed in front of the appropriate person. A large black and white screech owl flew into the hall and headed to the Gryffindor table, it landed in front of Sirius almost knocking over the juice jug.

"Oh, dear hippogriffs" Sirius murmured

"What? Oh, a howler, open it, it will be worse if you don't" James went out to detach the red envelope. However, the owl screeched and pecked him hard "It's the Black's owl; I have to get it. It won't let anyone else" Sirius detached the envelope and opened it "Sirius Black' his mother's scream filled the hall and everyone immediately fell silent 'first you dishonour the family name and scrape it through the mud. Mingling with half breads and mudbloods and mudblood lovers, but now, you're gay! You are disgusting, if you think you are coming home for the summer think again you fucking little shit!" the howler disintegrated in his hands, the Slitherins howled with laughter. He stormed over to the Slitherin table and punched his younger brother in the mouth. He then stormed out the great hall in rage.

"I wasn't there Sirius, nobody mentioned it to me" Sirius put his head on Remus' shoulder, he felt Remus tense under him "Sorry" Sirius said as he moved away from Remus realising the uncomfort he was giving Remus.