Chapter 11

Sirius lay next to Remus on his own bed, Remus had his hand on Sirius' stomach, but his little finger had disappeared slightly under Sirius' trousers.

It was still Christmas; they had just had an enormous Christmas dinner and had eaten enough so they felt they had eaten enough food for the rest of the week. Remus lay on his side looking at Sirius; Sirius' fingers were entwined in Remus' hair.

They had not moved for ten minutes, a record for Sirius who usually fidgeted and could not sit still. Sirius was transfixed by Remus' hazel eyes. "You're eyes are gorgeous" Remus smiled. He slipped all of his hand into Sirius' trousers. Sirius moaned slightly at the touch.

He allowed Remus to do it; he did not stop him this time. It was weird; he had just got used to no sexual contact, he had just got used to normal kissing, normal embrace; but now, Remus was touching him, Sirius moaned a bit louder as Remus started to move faster.

"Oh dear Merlin' Sirius moaned, Remus smiled, mischief glinting in his eyes 'fuck Remus" Sirius moaned even louder, Remus smiled wider still, the mischievous look had been replaced by a lustful one.

"Remus?' Remus bit his lip knowing what Sirius was asking for 'sorry" Sirius quickly got up off the bed, he was about to leave the dormitory when Remus called quietly.

"Siri, don't leave"

"Remus, I'm making you uncomfortable, again, I know I am, I'm asking too much of you, I'm sorry" Remus walked up to Sirius and kissed him softly at first then made it harder than Sirius had ever felt with Remus.

Remus pushed Sirius back so he was trapped against the wall. Sirius moaned slightly in the kiss.

"Remus…" but Sirius could not carry on as Remus had started to undo his jeans

"You were saying?" Remus pulled down Sirius' trousers and kneeled down infront of him "Dear sweat Merlin" Remus chuckled and took Sirius in his mouth.

Remus felt Sirius squirt in his mouth so he got to his feet gazing into Sirius' eyes that had glazed over in pleasure "Did you like that?" Sirius swallowed in answer, he was not controlling his erratic breathing, he was letting himself pant.

Remus could tell he was about to buckle at the knees if he let go of the wall, which he was clinging to, as if his life depended on it.

Remus pushed him gently onto his bed where he just lay there, his trousers and boxers still round his ankles.

"Remus, you shouldn't have done that" Sirius was shocked, Remus had just done something sexual, that meant more than just wanking.

"You needed it, Siri. I mean it, I know, you have been struggling, you have only got used to it because you think I won't be ready for a while, I want to make you happy Siri, and if that means having sex with you, I will"

"I can't ask you to do that, it's up to YOU when you have sex, not me"

"I want to"

"No, you're not, I know you're not, I don't want you doing anything until you're one hundred percent certain it's what you want" Remus pulled up Sirius' trousers and then lay on top of him and kissed him with as much passion as he had done a few minutes before.

Remus pulled away slightly for breath "I want to Sirius, I'm sure, I really am" Remus said in a slightly higher voice than normal, he was also breathless. Remus got off Sirius.

"Babe, this will probably hurt" Sirius getting the hint that Remus wanted him to take control.

Remus nodded in understanding and had a trusting look on his face; he trusted Sirius and he knew Sirius said this to some of the girls that had lost there virginity to him. However, he was saying this with concern in his eyes, he had lust in his eyes and voice, he also had, fear?

Was Sirius scared of what he was about to do? Or was he scared of hurting Remus? Remus sat up and kissed Sirius in what he hoped was a comforting way. It worked Sirius smiled at Remus.

He undid Remus' trousers slowly "If you want me to stop at anytime, tell me, and if you don't want me to carry on, tell me" Sirius waited for Remus to tell him his decision.

Remus nodded and took off his T-shirt allowing Sirius to see his 'ugly' scars; Sirius did the same, and then took off his trousers and boxers. He then took off Remus' trousers and boxers, seeing Remus' erection made him moan ever so slightly.

"Are you sure about this Remus?"

"Yes" Sirius lay on top of Remus and kissed down his body, Sirius stopped when he got to Remus' stomach and looked up waiting for his permission to carry on. Remus gave him a slight nod of the head, so Sirius went even further down and took Remus in his mouth.

A gasp escaped Remus' mouth then a moan.

Sirius stopped then pushed Remus gently onto his front and thrust gently into Remus, Remus gasped then moaned in pain, Sirius started to move gently in and out of Remus making sure not to go too far in.

Sirius started to get slightly faster when Remus moaned in pleasure. They kept going, Remus' moans getting louder as Sirius got more confident, he was getting used to being in the boy he loved.

As Sirius was reaching his climax he joined in with moaning, he started to whisper repeatedly "Remus, oh Remus".

"Holy shit Remus!" he gasped as he got to his climax.

Sirius collapsed on top of Remus, sweat trickling down both the boys' bodies. Remus was shaking slightly. "Are you ok?" Sirius murmured in Remus' ear

"Yeah, I'm fine, that was just weird and a bit painful" Sirius nodded moving off Remus to the side of him so Remus could turn on his side and face him

"Sorry, I tried to be as gentle as possible"

Remus smiled, he kissed Sirius gently and then burrowed himself into Sirius' chest.

"Good night, love" Sirius muttered gruffly

"Good night Siri. I love you"

"I love you to" he muttered as his eyelids got heavy and blackness filled him.