Problems
Sirius did not bother going to bed, not able to face the sleeping beauty of Remus. He heard a noise in the corner of the room. It confused him at first but he ignored it thinking long and hard of what he should do."Sirius?" Sirius jumped at headring the voice he second most dreaded, it was James "Sirius what's the matter?" he strode over to his best friend rubbing his shoulders gently "It does not matter James" but his strangled voice said otherwise "Sirius, what's happening with you and Remus?" "He's gonna get hurt if my parents get hold of him""Sirius, they won't they have accepted you two together, they will not get to him and his dads on the ministry, nothing will happen babe" James realised what he had said too late"Why'd you call me babe?" Sirius twisted himself around his loosing the tranquillity in a second "I didn't mean to say that, I'm sorry Sirius, that wasn't meant to come out" both of their breathing had got ragged each could feel each other's hot breath on their faces. Their lips met in a fire of confusion, Sirius pushed James away nearly straight away "Don't James, you're not gay" "I don't know""You're in love with Lily" "Yeah, yeah, you're right, so with Remus, you just seem so guilty when you said you loved him""I was just having doubts, go to bed James" James turned around"Hey Remus" Sirius looked around seeing Remus looking hurt and confused"Sirius, what?""What do you mean?""Do you wanna split with me?""No Remus, I just thought maybe you'd get hurt""Why did you kiss James?" Remus sounded hurt"He kissed me and I pushed him away, my heart belongs to you""No, Sirius, it obviously doesn't, I can't be with you" Remus turned and walked up the stairs to the boys' dorm.Sirius ran up the stairs and caught him just before he opened the door, "You can't do this" tears streaked down his handsome face "Please Remus, don't split us up, please, please, please""I'm sorry Sirius, we're over" and Remus left Sirius standing there tears streaking down both of their cheeks, both as hurt as the other.Sirius went down to the common room and collapsed onto the sofa sobbing with his head in his hands, feeling for the first time, his heart breaking into little tiny pieces. He curled up in the corner trying to sleep, but he could not sleep, he had just lost his lover, he had just lost his world."Sirius, I'm so sorry mate" "Go away James I don't want to know!" he chocked out through his tears."I'm not leaving you like this""Go and see Remus! I don't want to know!" Sirius heard James going up the boys' steps. Sirius was now completely alone, and he felt that was how it should be, alone and miserable. That is all he deserved, he hated it but knew full well that was how it was going to be for a while until he could have his lover back.Sleep finely took him away, but he had a restless sleep, he awoke every half hour to an hour. Either way, asleep or awake, he thought of Remus, and how much he missed him.The next day Sirius went to the kitchens for breakfast, he could not face anyone. He went to classes and kept his head down, he could feel people looking at him, but he could not meet anybody's eyes, he looked at the 'Sirius for Remus' he had written only the day before, he scratched it out breaking his quill in the process.He skipped lunch going straight to the boys' dorm curling himself up, silent tears rolling down his cheeks. Nothing could make him feel worse than he did.He heard the door open and swing closed, he felt a weight at the end of his bed, but Sirius did not want to sit up or look to see who it was. "Sirius, I don't want us to be like this, I don't want you to be avoiding me" Sirius heard Remus murmur "Well it's easier than facing you knowing I can't have you anymore""I saw I kiss James and then saying you were doubting that we should be together, I was angry""So do you now want to be with me now you have calmed down?""No Sirius, I can't be with you at the moment, we need to be apart, but still be friends""I can't trust myself Remus, if I do something wrong, you would not forgive me" he felt the weight that was Remus leave and the door swinging shut again.Sirius got up and started to punch and rip apart anything he could; he ripped down his hangings punched the wood; he dismantled the four-poster using his shoulder, hands and feet. He used his wand to burn it, he blasted chunks out of the wall, dust going everywhere, he punched the glass of the window, repairing it then smashing it all over again, he set Remus' hangings on fire and he was just about to beat up the beside cabinet when James lunged at him stopping him doing anymore damage to himself and anything else around him.James extinguished the fires, and looked at Sirius bleeding on the floor sobbing and shaking. Peter came in the room as well staring at Sirius, shocked. "Peter, go and get Dumbledore, immediately!" James yelled at him.Five minutes later Dumbledore and McGonagall came into the room "Mister Black can you hear me" Dumbledore kneeled down in front of the sobbing boy Sirius nodded "Can you get up and follow me with help from Mister Potter?" Sirius nodded again. James helped Sirius stand and then supported him to the hospital wing where Dumbledore was leading them."Now mister Black, why did you demolish you and your friends' dormitory?" Dumbledore asked once Sirius had laid down.