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Chapter 2- Blur

"I have school tomorrow," I heard myself mutter. To who? I don't know.

I was wandering, or more like stumbling, down an old deserted alleyway that smelled of urine and fecal matter. I don't remember getting there all I know is that the past two days were a blur. I remember leaving the house Friday night, but Saturday and most of today was a blur. I needed to get home, I couldn't miss school in the morning.

I stumbled out of the dark alley and into the bright sunshine of a busy street. I knew where I was, I was in downtown Seattle. Things were becoming more clear. I had hitched a ride with a trucker and as soon as I was in the city I found the drug dealers. I remember partying with them all day and all night, getting high off of God knows what.

I sat down on a bench right outside of a restaurant and pulled out my cell phone. It had been off the whole time so the battery should still be good. As I turned it on and waited for it to load up I began getting light headed, my stomach hurt and I was craving drugs again.

"No," I muttered to myself, "Too much already, no more!"

Passers-by stared and women with children walked as far away as they could from me. I didn't care. I scrolled through my contact list and found that the only person that might come get me was Edward. It was worth a shot.

I punched down the call button and it started to ring.

"Hello?" His voice echoed in my head, his dreamy voice... "Hello? Bella is that you?"

I snapped back into reality, "Wha-, yeah hey Edward..." I didn't know how to begin.

"Bells, where are you? Are you all right?" His voice sounded urgent, almost caring.

"I- I think I'm in Seattle."

"Okay, where at? I'm leaving now."

I looked around into the bright sun and then at the street sign. "I'm on the corner of Pelssy and Unger."

"Okay stay there I'll be there in ten minutes."

It took me a minute to figure out what he said, "Ten minutes?"

"Yeah, I thought you'd be here somewhere, so I came down last night to look for you."

"Oh... did Deryk come with you?" I already knew the answer.

"No Bella, he didn't."

I hit the end button and curled up, fetal position, on the cold metal bench. I didn't realize how exhausted I was until my head rested against the bench. Suddenly a sharp pain ripped through my stomach and everything went black.

"... And why would you bring her back?" I heard a voice say.

"She needs help Deryk, I couldn't just let her die out there." Edward said quietly.

"Why not?" Deryk laughed.

Another pain ripped through my stomach and I rolled over, vomiting in a bucket that was in the right spot at the right time.

I felt a cold hand on my face, pushing the hair that was plastered to my face back.

"Dude, what the hell is wrong with her?" I recognized the voice as one of Edward's brother's, Emmet.

"She's having withdrawal symptoms stupid."

I sat up shakily and looked around. All of the guys were there, staring at me with disgust. I couldn't blame them, I must have been pale, skin and bones, plus I was covered in vomit.

I stood up, grabbing the couch for support, then walking up the stairs to my room. I slammed the door shut and immediately passed out on my bed.

I tossed and turned all night and by the time I was ready to fall asleep it was time for school. I stood up, clutching something so I wouldn't fall down and made my way to my bathroom. I cleaned up all right, but the swollen bags under my eyes and pock marks from the tweaking were impossible to hide. I was angry that I had become this person, I absolutely hated myself. I pulled back my fist and shoved it right into the mirror, hitting the exact spot where my face was reflected. No. Not my face, the face of a shattered girl who could hardly call herself human.

My hand bled but I didn't care, I couldn't feel it anyway.

School starts at 8:30 but since I didn't have a ride and I had been kicked off the bus, I had to leave at 7:50 just to make it in time.

I grabbed a cup of water on the way out and an energy bar. I think it's the only thing I've eaten in days.

The day passed in a blur of people pointing, staring in horror at what they saw. I'm sure they agree that I can hardly be called a human anymore.

Physical Education was my last, and most hated, class of the day. I got to class late and dressed quickly. Then set off running the 4 warm up laps that we did everyday. It was raining again outside so class was Co-ed today. I saw Edward, Ray, Deryk, Jasper, Emmet, and all the other boys that lived in that house standing around laughing and joking with one another. I envied them.

I began to get light-headed and then dizzy. My head felt like it might explode and another sharp pain ripped through my stomach. I keeled over and yelled out in pain. The whole gym became quiet but no one moved to help me. The pain wouldn't stop and I had accidently slammed my cut up arm on the ground so now all my scabs were broke open. I was shaking furiously and I couldn't stay up any longer. I fell to the ground and once again I vomited. This time my puke was accompanied by blood. Blood... I was dying.

I grimaced in pain. My last thoughts before I blacked out was, "Would anyone care if I died... would anyone miss me...?"

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