Chapter 3- Diary

Edward's POV

May13th

I didn't think things could get any worse, but of course they did. Charlie, my dad, he died last night in a car crash. We had been arguing again because I didn't clean the kitchen. I was going to do it I swear. I just needed to finish my book report, then I would have done it... I promise.

Tomorrow I guess mine and Deryk's grandparents are coming down from Seattle for funeral preparations and to figure out what's going to happen to us. They, like everyone else, hate me so I'll probably end up in an orphanage or on the streets... I guess I'll go to bed now.

July 20th

It's my 14th birthday today. Fourteen years and I can't recall one good memory... I did get something for myself though. While in Seattle shopping late last night a drug dealer came up to me and asked if I wanted some drugs. I had a hundred bucks in my pocket so I asked him what I could get with that. He told me he sold acid and it was pretty cheap. I could about 40 pills with a hundred bucks, he also said he'd thrown in an ounce of heroin just because. I agreed, gave him all my money and left. Tonight will be my first time getting high... I'll write more later.

Aug. 10th

I never thought someone could make me feel so good. It was... amazing, the way he moaned my name when he entered me slowly. The way he stopped to make sure I was all right before starting to move. How perfectly in sync we were with each other. Even the day was beautiful. Usually dark and stormy but not today. It was bright, only a few clouds drifted over the sun. We laid under the cherry tree, talking, eating fresh ripe cherries, and then he kissed me. Softly, but passionate. And then we made love...

Aug. 26th

Edward hasn't talked to me since the 10th, I knew it was too good to be true. As I laid under the cherry tree, tweaking as I normally do these days, Ray came and sat by me. He didn't say much. Asked if he could have a pill, so I gave him one. After sitting silently under the tree it began to rain, I went to go inside but he grabbed my face and kissed me, roughly, it wasn't like Edward's kiss. I didn't like it. But I didn't stop him, he was rough so I was rough back. I hurt him and he hurt me back. It was just what I needed, something to take my aggression out on...

Sept. 1st

Today I sat on the staircase that leads to the living room, watching. Just watching. The guys seem so happy. They just sit around all day, thinking of things to do. They're very creative. Not many people know their secret though. See Edward and Emmet Cullen are vampires, so is Ray and Kai. Ray and Kai came from Japan, moved here about two years ago. Their mom works a lot so they just stay here most of the time. Edward and Emmet call each other brothers since the same people took them in when they were turned. They also have a two sisters, Alice Cullen and Rosalie Hale, Jasper Hale is also one of their vampire brothers. I probably shouldn't be writing any of this but...

September 18th

I don't know what's going on with me. I can't believe I let myself get this way. I've been trying to stop but I just can't. I don't want to be like this, I don't want to be one of those people they show at school assemblies. It seems like it might be too late to stop though. I haven't eaten in a while, so I guess I'll go down stairs to get some. I'll write later...

That was her last diary entry, September 18th, the day her and Deryk got in a fight. I had never seen him so mad... except when he heard that I had slept with Bella. I thought he was going to murder me. I don't understand it though. She's just a kid, she's never done anything to anyone, but maybe I was just as bad as everyone else. I had sex with her, I took something that she should have given to someone special, not to me.

I stood up and laid the diary back where Bella had placed it neatly on her night stand. The room still lay in ruins but her bed was neatly made, probably like it always was, and always will be. I made sure to smooth out the wrinkles I had made in her bed spread then went for the door.

Something caught my eye before I got to the door though. I stopped and picked up a broken picture frame. After dumping off all the broken shards of glass I looked at the picture. It was all of the guys in the picture. I don't even remember taking that picture. It brought a smile to my face, we were all sitting in the living like we always did, smiling and laughing. It couldn't have been taken too long ago because Ray had his hair bleached and spiked like his new hero Cloud Strife. I turned the frame over and took out the picture, a caption on the back read: July 20th a good birthday party.

I took the picture with me down stairs and placed it inside a new frame, no one asked what I was doing. Oddly enough, everyone was quiet today, no one made a sound. Maybe they were thinking of Bella, or maybe they were too ashamed of themselves to speak.

The guy's Ray and Kai are inspired by a Japanese rock band called the GaZette. If you want to know what they look like ust go to photobucket and look up the GaZette. :D

Okay so someone reviewed all of my stories and said they sucked in the first paragraph. It bothered me at first but... eh I guess I don't care too much anymore. I guess she has this whole horde of people who are going around the Twilight fanfics and they're telling everyone that has an AU story or OOC character that their story sucks and you just shouldn't write anymore. If they've done this to any of my readers I'm terribly sorry, it sucks but what can we do about it... :(

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