Aha! This is my favorite chapter I've written so far! Woot! My eyes were watering at the end. If any of you have limewire I suggest you download Taking Back Sunday's- New American Classic to listen to while you read the end of this. It helps set the mood. And since some of you have been asking for longer chapters here it is. I hope this is better for you! I LOVE ALL OF YOU!!!

Chapter 6- Breathe

I hadn't heard from Edward since that night he came through my window. Now I felt bad for yelling at him but there was no way to get a hold of him. I wasn't even sure if he went back to Deryk's house.

I went to wait in the lobby at 11:45 to await the arrival of my grandparents. I had spent 8 full months in rehab and all the psychologist's said I was well enough to leave. They did however give me a prescription for some type of anti-depressant. I was wondering what kind of recreational activity my grandparents had to postpone to come pick me up, I was hoping it was something big.

"Bella?" I looked up and saw Dr. Weselbub walking towards me, I waved. "Do you mind?" She gestured toward the empty seat next to mine. I nodded. "How are you feeling today Bella?"

I thought for a second, how did I feel? "Anxious. I think that's the best way to describe it."

"I have to tell you something bad has happened and I don't think there's anything I can do about it."

"W-what's wrong? Do I have to stay?" I asked her hopefully.

"No unfortunately that's not the problem the problem is our relationship Bella."

I was confused, "What do you mean 'our relationship'?"

"Over the past few months I've been thinking of you as... well a daughter I never had."

My eyes began to water. "You mean that?"

"Of course I do sweetie. You're everything a good mother would want. Your IQ is close to being genius level, you're artistic, you set your ambitions high. And above all you're charming. That smile of yours could bring a smile to someone who's dog just died."

I laughed and tears started falling freely. "Don't make me go then. I can't go back there."

"I can't do that Bella, I just want you to know that if there was anything I could do I would take you home in a heart beat." Tears were welling in her eyes but she was strong and wouldn't show emotion here.

I looked up as the doors opened automatically, my grandparents were here to take me back to that house. I looked at Dr. Weselbub with pleading eyes.

"Please don't make me go back there." I whispered.

She shook her head and stood up, I followed suit.

"Don't worry Bella," She whispered as she grabbed my hand, there was a piece of folded paper that she sneakily gave to me. "I'll always be here if you need me."

"Come Isabella." My grandmother's harsh voice called.

I nodded and walked away, through the automatic doors and cloudy day. I got into the back seat of my grandparents luxury sedan and put on my seat belt. I twiddled my thumbs nervously as we left the rehab center and I began to shake.

"Are you hungry Bella?" My grandmother asked.

"Um just a bit." I replied.

"Would you like to stop somewhere to eat? If I can remember correctly your favorite place to eat out at was Denny's."

"Yes, th-that sounds great actually."

She nodded and ten minutes later we were seated and ordering food. It was an awkward ordeal and honestly I wouldn't be sad if it never happened again. Other than ordering our food I think about ten words were spoken the whole time.

We pulled up to the house about 2 hours later and I thought I was going to puke. Outside on the porch Deryk and a few of the guys were sitting and laughing. My grandpa turned off the car and got out. I sat there shaking uncontrollably.

"Just breathe." I muttered to myself as I reached for the door handle. "Breathe Bella." I felt like I was going to pass out as the door popped open and I stuck my foot out. I was shaking badly and wasn't sure I would be able to walk to my room. "Breathe."

My feet crunched on the pebble walkway that led to the front porch. Keeping my head down against the cold rain I made my way up the stairs and when I reached the front door my name was called.

"Bella aren't you going to say hello to your brother?" my grandma spoke up. She was standing under the cover of the wrap around porch next to Deryk. I turned around slowly and tried putting on one of those fake smiles the nurses used at the rehab center but I failed and it turned into a grimace.

"Hello Deryk." I muttered looking back at the ground.

"Looks like you haven't changed much." He scoffed.

"No, I guess not."

"Well I'm sorry I can't stay long, we have some business to attend to back home. Goodbye Isabella, Deryk." She gave him a kiss on the head and walked to the car.

I turned around to go inside when the door was lurched open and there stood Edward. His topaz eyes stared down at me and as I breathed in his scent I felt dizzy.

"Bella." He said. For a moment I thought he was going to embrace me in a hug but the next moment he had moved aside to let me in and then left through the front door.

I sighed and walked up the stairs to my room. Someone must have cleaned while I was gone, my room was neatly back in place even though a few items were missing. I walked around my room, my fingers grazing the cold surface of my dresser. I walked towards my stereo when I saw a small yellow sticky note. I read it and smiled.

-I hope this counts as a start?

Edward's elegant handwriting barely fit on the paper. I turned on the stereo and Debussy started playing softly through the speakers.

I exhaled softly and laid down on my bed. My hair splayed out over the black satin comforter and tears began to well in my eyes, I shut them tightly.

"Don't cry." Edward whispered and lightly grazed my cheek.

I inhaled slightly but was immediately calmed by his touch. I lightly touched his hand to make sure he was really there. A small sad smile played on my face and I slowly opened my eyes.

"Edward." I uttered so softly that I could barely hear myself say it.

He nodded and smiled sadly. Then he stood up and walked around the bed so he could be face to face with me. I sat up slowly and placed my head in my hands. He kneeled on the floor and took my hands in his, bringing them to his mouth and kissing them softly.

"I'm sorry." He said gently. He stood up and leaned me back on the bed, then looked me straight in the eyes, I moved my head away so I didn't have to look into his sweet eyes. "I know I really messed up Bells, but you have to believe me, I'm sorry. I'm so, so sorry." He whispered in my ear, then gently tilted my face towards him again. "This is the one thing I could do nothing about." He uttered so softly it was hard for me to hear, "I can't make you forgive me."

He leaned down and kissed my lips so softly I wasn't sure if it had actually happened. I looked into his topaz eyes.

"This is a start." I murmured and he leaned down again to kiss me delicately on my quivering lips.

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