:Chapter 18:
:Apologetically:
"Open the door Kagome."
"I don't think I will."
"Open the damn door!"
"No."
InuYasha growled, sending a billowing jet of steam into the cold air. At least he looked like the bull he felt like at being locked out of his own house. He'd tried to pick the lock with his claw, but Kagome, being on the other side of the door, locked it back each and every time the lock gave way.
Sure, he'd screwed up and yelled at her over the stupid Ramen again, but she didn't have to lock him out in the fucking cold.
"Oi, you think you can lock me out of my own house, woman?"
"What do you think?" was the reply from the other side of the door.
"No!"
"Wanna bet?"
"That's it!" InuYasha gripped the doorknob and yanked.
He grinned evilly as the door flew off of its hinges and fell in a splintered heap at his feet. Snorting dust from the wreckage, he peered into the darkened house, his eyes adjusting instantly to the loss of moonlight from outside.
So she was hiding, huh?
"I'll sniff you out, bitch! You can't hide forever!"
He inhaled deeply.
Nothing.
Surprised at the lack of Kagome's scent, he inhaled again and sneezed realizing that she'd sprayed some sort of perfume, probably to mask her scent. It didn't smell bad, he noted.
But it wasn't Kagome.
Cursing angrily, he realized that he wasn't going to find her through his sense of smell. At that insight, his ears instinctually rotated, picking up each and every sound they could.
Ba-bump, ba-bump…
Her heart.
InuYasha chuckled. He could hear her heart beating frantically in the other room. Nine times out of ten, she'd locked the door, turned out all of the lights, and sprayed that shit throughout the house.
'Probably buying herself some time to escape form me,' he thought with a fanged grin. 'Not that she could, though.'
Padding silently to the winding staircase, he sniggered to himself. Surely she didn't think she could keep herself hidden for long?
"When I find her, I'm gonna give her a piece of my mind. Then I'm gonna kill her," he grumbled to himself.
Reaching the top of the staircase, his tuned his ear onto the internal beacon that revealed Kagome's location in the giant house. His ears told him that she was in one of the rooms in the west wing.
Turning to move into the west wing, his heart skipped a beat. A strong surge of energy pitched itself through his body, awakening every nerve in his body. His mind registered the fact that she'd erected a barrier.
'What the hell?'
Speeding to one of the rooms, he attempted to mangle the door, like the first one. His arm was thrown back violently by a jolt of spiritual energy. She was trying to keep him out.
"Dammit all, Kagome, open this door now!"
"Go away, InuYasha! I don't want to see you right now!"
"I don't give a rat's ass! Open up now!" he barked, pounding on the door. He ignored the sharp sear of the barrier as it bit into his arm, angrily watching as purple and blue sparks sprayed from the site of impact and illuminated the door.
"No!"
"Don't make me get Tetsusaiga!"
Silence.
"Open it!"
"If you bring that sword anywhere near this door, I'll purify the life out of you!"
That stopped InuYasha mid-pound. Would she really do that? Maybe if she was mad enough…
He softened. "Kagome…"
"Leave me alone!"
InuYasha's ears flattened against his skull at her shrill yell. Yeah, she was definitely pissed enough to purify his ass, that was for sure.
'And it's all my fault,' he thought ruefully, feeling guilty.
"Kagome, I…uh…I'm…"
He growled in frustration and turned his back on the door. Why was it that whenever he tried to apologize for his mouth, he stammered like an idiot?
His heart skipped again, signaling that she'd finally let the barrier down. She cracked the door.
"InuYasha?"
InuYasha's ears twitched as he turned to peer inside. He sniffed.
'That perfume ain't as strong in there, but I smell something else. It smells like…salt?'
Staring into the darkness at Kagome, his eyes picked up the subtle streaks of tears. Not only that, he could smell the anger and frustration peeling off of her soul and into the air in aggravated waves of silent motion.
Once again, he'd made her cry.
"Kagome…"
She sniffed and swiped at her eyes, trying to wipe away the evidence. "What?"
"Can—can I come in?"
Kagome shrugged and stepped away from the door. "It's your home. You can go anywhere you want to."
InuYasha grimaced. That stung his spirit, the way she'd said that statement so…lifelessly.
He stepped into the room, not bothering to turn the lights on. "Kagome, I didn't mean to…uh…hurt your feelings."
Kagome smiled through the dark. "You don't have to apologize, InuYasha. I understand that I'm in your way most of the time. I know I'm a burden."
'Burden? Where the hell'd she come up with that shit?'
"What the hell are you talking about?"
Kagome smiled again. "Well, you're always yelling at me for something. And I never make your Ramen when you want me to."
InuYasha winced. He did tend to yell at her on a heavy occasion. And he was always complaining that he was starving if she didn't make Ramen when he wanted…
"Kagome, you're not a burden to me. You know that."
Kagome shook her head. "No, I am. I understand that now."
InuYasha was beginning to get nervous. "What does that mean?"
"It means that maybe I should move out."
InuYasha nearly erupted. "What?!"
"InuYasha, calm down."
"Don't tell me to calm down, bitch! What the hell is this, you moving out?!"
"InuYasha—"
"You're not moving out, Kagome! And don't even think about sneaking out!"
Kagome's temper flared, despite her sadness at having to come to the realization that maybe she was more trouble than she was worth to InuYasha. She believed that they were destined to be together in the end, of course. But maybe they should wait a little longer to be together.
"You're not my father!"
"I don't have to be your damn dad to know that you're not leaving!"
"I can do what I want, InuYasha! I'm not your puppet! You think you can scare me by raising your voice?"
Kagome's breath left her in a rush of air as InuYasha grabbed her by her upper arms and slammed her into the wall, hoisting her above the ground. She didn't have time to think before he crushed her lips to his in a desperate kiss.
His tongue invaded her mouth in a way she always thought impossible. She squirmed trying to push him away before she started to sob at the raw emotion behind his actions, but to no avail. InuYasha had clamped her against he wall with his own body and wouldn't budge.
Kagome knew she couldn't fight him, even if she wanted to. So instead, she kissed him back, moaning at the fang that brushed her lip. She thought that it was amazing that even though they were in the middle of an argument, he could find a way to make her blood boil form lust. She felt him relax above her as she stroked his hair, trying to reassure him.
Pulling away, InuYasha leaned his forehead against hers, muttering incoherent sentences and phrases.
Breathing hard, Kagome noticed that his grip on her arms hadn't relaxed. In fact, it'd gotten tighter.
"I—InuYasha?"
He was growling softly, sounding dangerously close to a possessive dog.
"InuYasha, what's wrong?"
"You can't—" he growled.
"I can't what?"
He shook his head. "You can't…leave me…Kagome…"
Kagome's eyes widened. "I'm not going to leave you, InuYasha. I just think that we need some time apart. That's all."
"No!"
Kagome sighed and kissed his cheek. "You're being a baby, InuYasha."
"Baka!"
"Who do you think—"
InuYasha sniffled so meagerly that she wasn't sure he'd did it at all. She glanced at his ears to be sure. They were smashed against his skull, as if protecting his brain from something. Her temper dissolved instantly.
"Baka!" he repeated angrily. "Why can't you see it?!"
Kagome's eyes welled up. She hadn't expected such a violent reaction from him. She expected him to yell at her and somehow convince her to stay. She'd even anticipated him to punch something. But she hadn't expected him to cry and call her an idiot.
"See what, InuYasha?"
"Dammit! Don't play dumb with me bitch!"
"What's your problem?! What are you—"
"I NEED YOU, KAGOME!"
Kagome stilled completely at the power in his exclamation. "I know."
InuYasha shook his head again. "No! You don't fucking understand anything!"
"I understand that we're meant to be together and if we're separated, we'll both die, InuYasha! I do understand!"
InuYasha's grip loosened. "No! It—it…goes deeper than that, woman!"
Kagome became worried. "How?"
"I can't live, Kagome."
"I just said—"
"I know what you just said!" He growled and released her, letting her slide slowly to the ground.
"InuYasha, I think you misunderstood me."
"I didn't misunderstand anything!"
"Then why are you acting like it's the end of the world if I give you some space?"
"Because it will be the end of the world! Mine, dammit!"
Kagome had a sudden epiphany. She wasn't sure if it was her Priestess powers kicking her empathy into overdrive or if she just suddenly remembered the fact that his entire life, InuYasha was always being left behind. He was left behind by his father when he died protecting his mother, his mother, when she died after giving birth to him, and Sesshoumaru, when he rejected his own brother. All when he was still very young. He thought she was going to leave him…forever.
Like they did.
"Oh, InuYasha…I—I didn't realize…"
He chuckled darkly. "Of course you didn't. No one ever does."
Righteous anger filled Kagome at that moment. Reaching over, she slapped him hard. So hard, her entire arm stung with the shock.
InuYasha head snapped to the side. "Bitch! What the hell was—"
She slapped him again, this time on the other cheek.
"Why would you think something like that?!" she shrieked.
InuYasha snarled. "What's with the hitting?!"
"How could you think I didn't care about you?! I've always cared about you!" A tear slipped from her eye. "I'm not your relatives, InuYasha!"
InuYasha regarded her. "I know."
"I'd never leave you, not in a million years!"
"Then why'd you fucking say that you were moving out?!"
"To give you some time to consider this relationship! I mean, I'm obviously not good enough!"
"What the—where the hell'd you hear that?!"
"I'm always getting on your nerves and annoying you, I never make your food when you tell me to—"
"Forget the damn Ramen! I don't care about that right now!" He swiped a tear from Kagome's eye and pulled her to his chest, nuzzling her head, effectively dousing both their flamed tempers.
"InuYasha…"
"I'm sorry, okay? You know how hard it is for me to apologize—even to you. I screwed up, alright? Just stop crying."
Kagome looked up at InuYasha. He looked so…desperate. Even if he did know that she'd never leave him just to hurt him, he seemed determined to keep her near him.
"I'm…sorry too."
"I don't want to fucking lose you, Kagome. I can't even go one Kami-forsaken day without seeing you."
"Me either. I'm so sorry InuYasha. If you really want me to stay, I won't go anywhere. I won't leave."
"You won't?"
She smiled. "Never."
He rumbled happily and nuzzled her hair again. "Good, cause I'll never stop being hungry."
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A/N:
This was a little longer I hope Just thought I'd do some Inu/Kag for this chapter, since a lot of people wanted to know what happens each and every time InuYasha opens his fat mouth.
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'I'll never leave this hanyou. Not in a million years'
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