I would have loved to let it go on forever, but I couldn't stand any longer. I was so sick that I was sweating when I it was too cold. I was sleeping when I shouldn't need it. I wasn't eating when I needed too. I didn't want my friends to see my suffer and die but if I didn't get out soon I was going to get killed, because I was too weak, too tired, to sick. Kilala knew that I was sick. I could see it in her eyes and I could see her pain. I wondered if Sango knew and had a feeling that she did because she was quieter then she should have been.

I wanted to say something. I really did, but what did I say? Some days were okay for me, I just felt a little sick and that was about it. I didn't have a fever, I ate okay, and I wasn't hurting so much. But the bad days were getting worse. I wanted to go to sleep all of the time; I had a hard time with everything. I had to get home before anyone realized anything. I don't know why I wanted to do this so badly when would just end up hurting the people I love anyway, but I guess love was like that. It didn't always make sense.

I walked into Keade's hut and everything was as it usually was. Inuyasha was sitting against the wall with his sword. Keade was working with her herbs. Shippo was drawing pictures. Miroku seemed to be meditating, but I somehow suspected that he was thinking perverted. Sango was quiet like she had been for awhile now. I didn't want to think about it. She knew. I knew it in my heart that she did. Sango didn't want to know, but she did. I wondered if she would say anything when I was gone. I hoped that she didn't because I was going to work damn hard to make this believable. I was going to go through a lot of pain to do it too.

I turned off like I learning to do so well. I turned my cold eyes to the one person who had hurt me most, "I love you all but I can't do this any longer. I can't take the fighting. I can't take the two lives that I live. I can't handle feeling like this."

I blinked so no one would know that I was about to cry. I looked away from Inuyasha, whose eyes were on me now, "I can't take no knowing what my life is about any longer. I hate it here. You can't give me what I want. I never wanted this life. I've done all I can do. I've given you everything I have and now I'm done."

Miroku looked baffled and hurt. "Lady Kagome, I don't understand."

I choked back a sob, "I'm in love with someone and he can't love him because I'm never honest with him," I was telling the complete truth and yet I knew I was misleading them.

"I want my old life back. Sometimes, I wish I had never fallen into the well. My life is falling apart. I have nothing for me at home and everything here, but everything here is just a fantasy because I can't make my life here. I want to go home! I want to be around people who don't just want me to be there jewel detector."

Shippo let out a cry, "We never thought of you as a jewel detector Kagome! We love you! Don't leave!" Shippo tried to grab on to my leg and it killed me to move away but Shippo was stronger then he knew and it would hurt me.

Of course Shippo didn't know why I had rejected him and he looked devastated at my rejection. I felt like I was going to be sick. This was so unfair! I didn't want any of this. Why did I have to be dying? I couldn't fight something like this but at this moment I would have given everything in me to get better.

I looked around the room and everyone was in different forms of shock or outrage. Keade looked like she might know what was going on which worried me. Sango was just acting like nothing was happening which told me a lot. Miroku looked hurt and betrayed. Inuyasha looked struck speechless, which would have been amusing if I wasn't hurting so much. Shippo was crying in a corner. I had to get out of here before I fell apart. Or just fell from exhaustion. I was so tired today, I couldn't stand up straight.

"Why the fuck did you even come back to tell us that you were leaving if you didn't give a damn," Inuyasha said coldly.

I wanted to shrink at his words but I welcomed them, "Why do you care? Why do you even care?! You love Kikyo and we all know it. You don't care about me! You never did."

"You know that's bullshit!"

"I know you lie. I know you love her. I know you lie when you see her. I know you want her! I know everything. I mean nothing to you. Stay out of this!"

Inuyasha laughed coldly, "We can't do this without you and you know it. You're killing us all by leaving. We can't do it without you."

I was shocked that he would admit that but I ignored it all, because although I know he believed that it wasn't true, "You can do anything you set your mind to Inuyasha. You just have to stop letting yourself get in the way."

"What the hell are you saying?"

"I'm saying that you have to stop looking at what you don't have, and start looking at what you do have. You're one of the strongest people I know. You can do anything."

I was getting in deep trouble here and I knew it. I was so tired. I was letting emotions show that shouldn't. Spots were forming on my vision and I had to blink a couple of times to get them to go away.

"I think that you need to follow your own advice Kagome," Sango advised me cryptically.

That was all it took for me to take off. If I didn't leave now than Sango was going to tell someone what she knew and that was the last thing I wanted. They couldn't save me. No one could save me. Before I ran I stared at Sango and pleaded with her not to say anything. She looked down and I rushed out of the hut before I did any more damage or worse, fell over. It was hard to convince someone you were fine when you were passed out.

I finally came up to the well and used my last burst of energy to jump in. It was a good thing to because as soon as I reached home I passed out in the bottom of the well. It was a good thing that Souta was there waiting for me. He helped me out and it was then that I realized that this was the beginning of the end.