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Night 35
Things aren't going as planned. And I'm pretty pissed about it. I throw my books onto my bed and then myself onto it. I huff and I give my wall a stare down. Ugh. What a freaking jerk. I mean, how can he just act like everything we've ever done meant nothing. Especially after her said he loved me once. I begin to pull at my hair as I replay this morning in my brain for the ten millionth time today…
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Lennon and I had a plan to hang out in front of my potions class this morning to have a little snog session. Just a tiny bit of frenching to stab at Draco. So I'm standing outside of my classroom looking around and I see Draco and his stupid arse friends hanging out across the way. I felt his eyes on me as I stood there and I smirked when I saw Lennon coming my way.
"Len! Over here!" I called to him.
His face lit up and he walked over to me. He wrapped his arms around me and I smiled lovingly at him. I have to admit, I'm a great actress. I kiss him lightly and I glance over at Draco. He seemed unfazed. I raise an eyebrow and I nuzzle against Lennon's neck and I kiss at his neck. I look over Lennon's shoulder to see Parkinson red in the face and staring right at me.
I give her a smirk and I lift my head. I whispered in his ear, "Your woman is pissed." He laughed and he pulled back and kissed me softly at first and right when I was about to let him slide his tongue inside, he's pulled away from me. I open my eyes to look into the green eyes of Pansy Parkinson.
And the next thing I know, Parkinson's fist came into contact with my jaw. Hard.
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I huff and lay down on my bed. I rub my eyes and let out a frustrated groan. I can not win! I can't! Its bullshit. I flash in my brain to after I got punched and I remember how hard Draco was laughing. I think I saw him tearing up a bit because he was laughing so hard. I knew he didn't love me. I fucking knew it.
I glance over and see Ginny walking into the room and I close my eyes. "Hermione, I know your awake. I keep hearing you huffing," she says, putting her hand on her hip. "And besides, aren't you going to go and tell Lennon its over between you two?"
I shake my head. "No way. I can't. I have to at least try," I tell her. "We've only been together a day. He needs this and so do I. I have not been having the best life at the moment."
The red head rolls her eyes. "Whatever. I'm not going to the funeral," she mutters and tosses a roll of parchment on my bed. "It just came for you. Some random guy gave it to me in the hallway on the way here," she says and stomps down the stairs.
I sit up and grab the parchment. My heart begins to beat faster as I look at my name written on it. I know that handwriting. I unroll it and smile as my eyes look down to see who sent me the note. DM. I sigh yet again and I just stare at his handwriting. Its so sloppy and yet so pretty.
Wait, didn't he just laugh at me when his ex girlfriend punched me?
I calm down from my little temporary high and I read my letter:
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Hermione,
How is your jaw? That was possibly the funniest thing I've seen in my entire life. But anyway, you need to meet me in our old spot. I need to speak to you about some things. So tell Lennon you'll suck his dick later because we need to talk. If anyone follows you and finds out about I need to tell you, I swear, I will torture you so badly that you will beg me to kill you.
Love ya, DM
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Wow. He's not paranoid at all. I fold up the paper and put it under my mattress. Man, I realllllllly didn't want to go out in public ever again after that whole thing this morning, but it seems Draco really needs me for something. I hope I'm not wasting my time with him. But I have the feeling that I am.
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Its 11 o'clock and Draco is nowhere to be seen. Wow, now he's pulling shit like this? Your so mature. I fold my arms and slide down the wall to sit down. I close my eyes and lay my head on my knees. I'm waiting for a large group of people to pop out of nowhere and scream, "You got punched in the face for being a slut!"
I feel someone sit next to me and sigh. "Sorry I'm a little late. I had some things I had to take care of," Draco whispers to me.
I nod and lift my head. I look into his eyes and they look a little scared, which shocks me. "What's the big problem your having? Someone not wanting to sleep with you? Think your in love with me again?" I snap at him and glares at me.
"Sod off. You have no idea what is going on in my fucking life and I don't need a fucking muggleborn to rub it into my damn face!" he yells at me. I wince and look away. It must be really important. "Now do you care enough to shut up and let me tell you or are you going to be a bitch and cry cause you got punched in the face?"
"I'm out here, aren't I? I wouldn't of showed up if I didn't care."
He nods and sighs, relaxing on the wall behind him. His hair is in his face and he closes his eyes. "You know how my father is gone…well of course you do, thanks to the Daily Prophet. Well…since he can't help you-know-who…" he pauses and swallows hard. My heart falls to the floor. He doesn't have to finish. I know what he's going say. He looks around and leans over to my ear. "…I have to."
I lean over and wrap my arms around him tightly. I don't know what to say. I really can't say anything. The love of my life now works for the fucker who my best friend has to kill. Great. Fucking lovely. I feel tears burn my eyes and I press my face into his shoulder.
"I'm scared, Herm. I'm so fucking scared," he whispers into my ear, "I screw up once and I'm dead. Even though my father helped him for years, I mess up and he will kill me."
I can't help but let the tears flow down my face and I begin to sob. "God, this is fucked up. This is so fucked up!" I cry to him, my hand gripping his shirt. "I thought my drama was just that you and I had a weird thing going on. You don't know what real drama is until it bitch smacks you in the face."
I hear him laugh and he kisses my head. "Shit happens," he says. He lifts my head and he kisses me softly. "But I'm not going to let this come between us. What I said the other night, I meant it."
I lift my head and I kiss him softly. "Really?" I ask, my brown eyes filled with hope. Please don't let him be joking about this…
His blue eyes lock with mine and he nods. "Yeah. Come on, don't be such a blind idiot. Of course I do. Why the hell do you think I put up with your shit?" he asks, chuckling a bit.
I shrug and smile a little bit. "I don't know. Cause you like drama." I say, unsure. I sigh and look at him. But then I remember what he said a few minutes ago and I wrap my arms around him. "I don't know if I could handle the pain of losing you in any way," I say quietly.
"I know. But that's how things have to be."
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Author's Note: Heh. Sorry it's been so long. I've been busy and lazy all at the same time. . Please don't hate me. I got it up, didn't I. It only took me a few months. But yeah. I'll get the next chapter up one of these days. I'm not really sure how I want this to play out but I know it has to kinda go along with the 6th book a little. Oh well. I'll see you all next time.