March 1, 2001
Dear Diary,
I know it has been forever since I've written, but I've been kind of busy. The search for the carnation person isn't going anywhere, at least not for me. I wonder how Luke's doing though….oh well.
Meanwhile me and Ryan have been getting along better than ever. I invited him to dinner tonight…I can't wait for it. I've been trying to decide what to wear and talking to my mom about not acting weird. She keeps smirking at me, and I'm getting the feeling that tonight will be unforgettable, in a good way or a bad way I don't know.
I've got to go, Ryan should be here in a few minutes.
Marissa
March 2, 2001
Dear Diary,
I'll tell you about my dinner with Ryan in a little bit. I hardly have any time, but I had to write this down. The letter to Ryan is missing…..
Marissa
March 3, 2001
Dear Diary,
Where can the letter be? I'm really trying not to like, freak out or anything, but that's kind of hard. Anyone could have the letter…and that means that anyone can give the letter to Ryan…which means things will be totally awkward and we won't be friends anymore. I can't let that happen, but where could the letter be?
I'll tell about my dinner with Ryan, that should distract me. He came at around seven, and my mom ordered in pizza, which we never eat. She tried to make conversation, but things were just too awkward, and she just left us alone to eat the pizza in the back patio. It was really nice too, just me and Ryan overlooking the scenery of the ocean. I may be thirteen, but I know a romantic moment when I see one.
So anyways, we were eating when Ryan asks me if I ever get lonely, with just me and my mom. I didn't' know what to say, because truth is, I do get lonely. I don't answer, and he goes on talking about his mom, and how he gets lonely all the time. He tells me about his mom's boyfriends, and how sometimes they yell at him and even hit him. I couldn't understand why he was telling me this, and I asked him about it too. He told me it was because he could trust me…and just those words made me feel special.
Ryan left around eight thirty, and when I went to my room to find the letter so I could go over it once more, I couldn't find it. I don't know what could've happened to it, I had it on my desk all night, and no one ever goes into my room. I didn't even take Ryan in my room….I just don't understand.
I'm hoping the letter will appear, but I doubt it. I just hope that whoever does have the letter, doesn't show it to Ryan. Because if I lost my friendship with him, I don't know what I'd do….
Marissa