March 7, 2001
Dear Diary,
Still no letter, but I'm beginning to stop worrying. Whoever has it hasn't made any outward show to me, so why worry? Me and Ryan have been suckered into staying at school and helping out with something this Saturday. Our science teacher kept bugging me about it, and I said I'd go if someone I knew went. Ryan immediately said he had nothing to do this Saturday, and convinced me to go. I pretended to be upset by it, but the truth is, I'm looking forward to spending my Saturday with Ryan, something we haven't done yet. I'm kind of nervous though, I don't know why.
Marissa
March 9, 2001
Dear Diary,
Today was Saturday, the day that I spent with Ryan. It was truly amazing really. Well, to me it was anyways. We're working when suddenly we somehow start talking about whether science or social studies is better. I argue that science is awesome, but he's all for social studies. We tease each other back and forth until lunch time, and then we start arguing about whether chocolate or lollypops are better. I argue for chocolate, and he goes for lollypops, saying that chocolate melts too easily, and causes a great deal of mess.
Later, some kid comes by and asks if my 'boyfriend' would come and help him with something. I immediately say that Ryan isn't my boyfriend, and the kid says, oh, I mean your husband. I just rolled my eyes, and Ryan stayed quiet and walked off with that other kid. I won't admit it to anyone, but I kind of liked being called Ryan's wife.
Marissa
March 15, 2001
Dear Diary,
Today Ryan and I had to draw a food web for science. We were arguing whether or not a wolf ate a bobcat, and some girl that sits in front of us turns around and tells us we argue just like a married couple. I don't say anything, but Ryan puts his arm around me and says, "Oh no, looks like they found out our secret..." and I look at him like he's crazy until I realize he's pretending that we're married. With pretending to be his wife, and having his arm around me, it was by far the best day of my life. He even kissed me on the cheek once, and I felt like I would faint. I'm seriously smiling so much, my mom thought that I needed therapy to sort out my feelings, funny huh? Therapy, like I'd ever go there.
Marissa
April 1, 2001
Dear Diary,
So today Ryan and I kind of took our relationship to a new level, at least that's how I view what happened. It all started in science, where I guess everything starts for us. I walk in to find him smiling and laughing with some girl. I immediately got upset, jealous even, and avoided him for the rest of the class period. He kept trying to talk to me, but I would always pretend to be busy. I was just so upset that he could have fun with another girl besides me, you know? It made me feel kind of unspecial, which is the exact opposite of how I usually feel with Ryan.
So anyways, later on, I go and talk to some other new boy named Johnny Harper. I really don't like him much, he's kind of weird and annoying, but I had seen Ryan watching me from across the lunchroom, and I went to talk to Johnny, just to see Ryan's reaction. Anyways, when I turn around, Ryan's standing there, looking kind of upset. He tells Johnny that him and I need to have a talk, and Johnny leaves, looking at me, confused. Ryan asks me if I like him, and I say yes, of course, we were friends. But he gets this really weird look on his face and says, no, I mean, do you reaaaly like me, as more than a friend. I just nodded, and I made sure not to make eye contact with him, in case this was the end, and our friendship was over. It wasn't though, and he took my hand and told me that I needed to stop spending so much time with Johnny then, and it made me laugh. We held hands the rest of lunch, and I don't think I stopped smiling for the rest of the day.
Marissa
Dear Diary,
Today was the first full day of me being Ryan's girlfriend. Girls looked at me with jealousy in their eyes, and guys looked at Ryan with jealousy in theirs. It was fun, being next to Ryan, getting to hold his hand, getting to kiss his cheek. We haven't shared our first kiss yet, I don't know why. He seemed confident with me by his side, not like he usually is, reserved and alone. He seemed to smile more, but I don't know if that's true or just my wishful thinking. Anyways, so Luke saw us together, and he gave Ryan this look...I hope he doesn't do anything.
Marissa