A/N: Here's chapter 3! Please review and enjoy!!
"Jude," he said again as she just stared at him. She stood stock still barely breathing. She certainly wasn't expecting this. Tommy got up and walked towards her. She wanted to run away back to her car but she couldn't move. Heck she could barely blink from all the shock. Tommy stood in front of her now. She looked him over. He looked basically the same except…tired was the word. He looked as if hadn't slept in days, months even. And on top of that he looked slightly stressed as well.
"I…" she didn't know what to say. She was actually speechless. And now she was actually hoping, almost praying, that Sadie had followed her home. But no such luck. She probably knew he was going to be here.
Tommy looked her over. She looked pretty much the same only a little older and she had dyed her hair yet again, this time black. He liked it. It gave her a kind of edge. All in all, he thought she looked absolutely gorgeous.
"Are you okay?" he asked as she bit her bottom lip, a nervous habit of hers. She continued to stare at him. 'Don't look into his eyes, don't look into his eyes…,' she told herself. "Jude?"
"I…" She walked past him, finally getting feeling back into her legs, and went inside. She left the door open hoping he would get the signal to follow her inside. Then she went and sat on the sofa waiting for him.
Realizing she had left the door open for him, Tommy went inside. As he was closing the door he spotted her on the couch sitting patiently for him. He went over and sat next to her. For a moment they sat in silence.
"Jude please talk to me," he said in a begging voice.
"What do you want me to say?" she finally said in a flat tone.
"Anything! Scream, yell, whatever. I don't know what you want me to say."
"How about an apology for what you did?" she said coldly.
"What are you talking about? You're the one who went and left without so much as a goodbye," he said trying to keep his voice level. "I think you owe some apologies starting with me."
"Do you even know why I left Tommy?" she asked looking up at him.
"No, nobody does. All I know is that one day you just kind of disappeared and…'
"It was because of you Tommy!" she yelled. He stared at her, speechless. Jude put her head in her hands.
"What did I do that made you feel like you had to leave?" he asked softly. Jude looked up.
"Well, let's see," she said standing up and starting to pace. "First off we finally get together and then by the next day we're broken up and I haven't the slightest clue why. Then that night I see you kissing my sister!" she said stopping to look at him. "But then things only get more interesting. Then after a while I go and hook up with my best friend Jamie. Next thing I know it looks like you were trying to break us up! Why Tommy? Why would you want to do that? Why would it matter to you who I was with if we were broken up? And what do you know, before long you succeeded and broke us up. So after you break us up you come and tell me that you want to get back together? After everything you just did?" Jude took a deep breath. "I thought what the heck. I gave you one last chance to prove yourself to me. And then what happens? You screw up again! You break it off again for no apparent reason. So you want to know why I left Tommy. It was because of you. You were making my life so confusing and frustrating that I had no choice but to run." Tommy put his head in his hands.
"I promise you I did everything for a reason. I can explain everything if you just give me a chance," he said through his hands.
"It's not that hard to figure out," she said as she stared at him coldly. "You just like to hurt and confuse people. It's just that you can't care about anyone but your damn self," she said as he looked up at her.
"You know what, I don't even know why I came to see you in the first place," he said as he stood up. "One thing's for sure though…5 years haven't really changed you."
"Yeah and it didn't do anything for you either you're still…" Tommy grabbed Jude around the waist and pulled her into a hard kiss. Jude couldn't pull back, her heart wouldn't let her.
"Please just let me explain," he said when they finally pulled away. Jude shook her head.
"I came here to get away from everything. I can't…I won't fall for it again," she said looking anywhere but at him. "No matter how much I…I still love you, this will never work out." Tommy let go of her.
"You can't tell me that didn't mean anything," he said as she turned to look at him. They stared into each other's eyes.
"I...I…" she was drowning in his deep blue eyes yet again. "I love you so much Tommy, but I don't want to get hurt again. I wouldn't be able to handle it."
"You have to believe me. I never meant to hurt you in the first place." Jude sat back on the couch.
"Then can you explain to me what happened all those years ago?" He sat down next to her.
"I can try," he said honestly. Jude grabbed his hand and nodded.
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"So wait, it was Darius who didn't want us together?"
"Yeah, he didn't want it to interfere with your music career."
"So why didn't you tell me?" she said crossing her arms.
"Well, he told me that if we didn't break it off both of us would be fired. So I knew if I told you, you would say you didn't care and quit. I didn't want you to lose everything you had worked for over me."
"Oh," she said uncrossing her arms and smiling a little. 'He's too sweet…but still he should have told me,' she thought to herself. "Ok I understand that much, but you still have a lot of explaining to do. So why were you kissing my sister two seconds after we had broken up?"
"About that, that wasn't my fault. Sadie just came up to me and sort of cornered me. You saw how she had me pushed against the wall." Jude thought about it for a moment. It was true that it did look like he was cornered.
"I guess I never did let you explain what happened and maybe I did kind of overreact since we were over with already, but what about when you trying to break me and Jamie up?" Jude thought she knew the answer to this one.
"Now for that I was just being jealous. I figured it didn't matter what Darius said and we would work around it." Jude smiled.
"You were actually jealous?" she asked with a smirk.
"Don't get used to it," he said loving to see her smile again.
"Ok so one last thing. Why did you break up with me again after I had given you a second chance? I thought everything was going so well." Tommy sighed.
"This time I had a better reason than just because Darius said so," Jude looked at him with concern. "Ok well…me and Portia well um…we never officially got divorced."
"WHAT?!"
"I know a shocker. I didn't tell you because I didn't want you to get hurt again which obviously didn't work out so super well."
"You should have told me. I wouldn't have been mad just…I would have felt a little awkward I guess, but I would have gotten over it." Jude paused for a moment. "I owe you an apology to you. One for leaving the way I did and two for not giving you a chance to explain everything. I'm really sorry," she said as he smiled at her.
"It's okay, we both made mistakes. By the way I love your new hair." Jude frowned for a moment.
"Oh yeah!" she said realizing she had dyed it that morning. "I forgot I had even done that with all the drama today." Tommy grinned as he ruffled her hair. She smiled back at him.
"So now what?" he said as they both just looked at each other.
"Well I wrote a song this morning which was amazing because I haven't sang or wrote anything in 5 years."
"Can I hear it?" Jude thought for a moment. "You don't have to if you don't want to I mean…"
"Let me get my guitar," she said as she stood up. "Oh and by the way I love that song you wrote for me."
"You liked it?" he said as she went to her room.
"I loved it!" she said as she came back with her guitar. "It was so deep. I was really impressed." Tommy suppressed a smile.
"You ready?" Jude nodded as she started to strum her guitar.
Everyday I sit here waiting
Everyday just seems so long
And now I've had enough of all the hating
Do we even care, it's so unfair
Any day it'll all be over
Everyday there's nothing new
And I'll just try to find some hope
To try to hold on to
But it starts again
It'll never end
I'm heavily broken
And I don't know what to do
Can't you see that I'm choking
And I can't even move
When there's nothing left to say
What can you do
I'm heavily broken
And there's nothing I can do
Almost giving up on trying
Almost heading for a fall
And now my mind is screaming out
I've got to keep on fighting
But then again
It doesn't end
I'm heavily broken
And I don't know what to do
Can't you see that I'm choking
And I can't even move
When there's nothing left to say
What can you do
I'm heavily broken
And there's nothing I can do
Feels like I'm drowning
I'm screaming for air
Louder I'm crying
And you don't even care
I'm heavily broken
And I don't know what to do
Can't you see that I'm choking
And I can't even move
When there's nothing left to say
What can you do
I'm heavily broken
I'm heavily broken
And I don't know what to do
Can't you see that I'm choking
And I can't even move
When there's nothing left to say
What can you do
I'm heavily broken
I'm heavily broken
I'm heavily broken
Jude finished and opened her eyes. He was staring right at her.
"Jude," he said softly. "I never knew that…" Jude held up her hand to quite him.
"You don't have to say anything. Today has changed a lot of things. Some problems have been solved...but some wounds just don't seem to heal as easily," she said as she stood up and walked away. This song had reminded her of how she had been feeling for the last few years. How could she just give into his apology and explanation that easily?