-1A/N DaDaDa...drum roll please. This will probably be the last chapter/post of this story. So, I've enjoyed writing it, I hope you've enjoyed reading it. Maybe there will be a sequel, maybe not. Depends on what you guys want and how busy I am. Anyways, enjoy!
July 5, 2007
Dear Diary,
Ryan called today and said that he's going to stay with Derek's family for a little while. I asked him why and he said that they were taking this whole thing pretty hard. He told me that Derek's seventeen year old sister wouldn't even come out of her room. I know that Ryan loves me, but why do I feel like something bad is going to happen?
I told Ryan that we needed to talk about this whole thing, that he needs to let me inside. Wanna know his answer to that? 'I have to go, Derek's sister is calling me.'
That really hurt.
Marissa
July 13, 2007
Dear Diary,
If you think I'm going to tell you something happy about Ryan coming home and everything, think again. Ryan still won't come home, Jamie's been really fussy lately, my mom is going out of town, and I'm just going insane over here. Why won't Ryan come home? Why does he need to be with Derek's family when he has his own waiting for him? Why can't he see that I'm going to be here for him whether I knew how Derek was or not? Why won't he talk to me? We always used to talk, what changed now?
Marissa
July 20, 2007
Dear Diary,
So Ryan came back today. He said he was sorry, but that's all he said. Then he went and started playing with Jamie who had really missed him. It makes me upset to think that he thinks he can just come back after being gone that long and think that a simple, 'I'm sorry' will do. He's making me really upset, and that usually doesn't happen with Ryan.
Marissa
July 25, 2007
Dear Diary,
Ryan said he wanted to take me to a really nice dinner tomorrow night. I wonder what the occasion is for. He kind of sort of talked to me today about his previous distance. He said it was hard enough living through it once, but talking about it would be like living through it again and he really didn't want to do that. I felt kind of bad for being mad at him then.
He seems a little nervous for some reason that I don't understand. He still hasn't talked about when he stayed with Derek's family. I'm wondering if something happened over there that shouldn't have.
Marissa
July 26, 2007
Dear Diary,
I think I only have enough room for one last entry in this thing. It's been really nice having a diary all this time. It helped me when everything else made no sense. So even though you're not real, thanks for all the good times.
So Ryan took me to dinner today, it was a very important dinner too. I will soon tell you why. Anyways, Ryan takes me to this really nice restaurant and I started to get a little suspicious at that. I mean, he's been gone and as soon as he comes back he starts acting all weird? I figured something had happened over there or something, maybe he had been spending too much time with Derek's sister or something. I dunno, but by the looks of it, I really didn't like it at all.
So throughout the whole dinner Ryan kept bouncing his knee up and down and looking around like he couldn't stay focused. I thought that was strange too, but I didn't say anything. He kept telling me how much he loved me and everything and I just kept nodding along and tried to figure out why he was acting so weird. After our very expensive meal he decided that we should go for a walk along the beach, just like we always do. I agreed to that because no matter how weird Ryan's acting, I love walking along the beach with him.
While we're walking, Ryan just seems to get weirder and weirder. He keeps stuffing his hands into his pockets and smiling to himself and then frowns and gets all weird again. It was an amusing sight to watch, but it also made me a little worried to why he was acting that way. We just kept walking and walking and he kept doing the same thing over and over again until we reached the lifeguard station. That's when he took in a big gulp and took my hand and together we walked up the ramp.
That's when I couldn't take it anymore. I told Ryan that I wanted to talk, and he said he wanted to talk also. I said I would go first and he just nodded. I told him that I was tired of him distancing himself from me. I told him about how much he hurt me by shutting me out all those times. I told him that I didn't want him to leave me ever again. From when we were smaller to war to leaving me to go with Derek's family, I just felt that I can't take him leaving me like that anymore.
And when I was done confronting him, he smiled and looked away nervously before saying that he never wanted to leave me again, and that I'd go with him whenever he had to go somewhere or do something like that again. He said me and Jamie are the most important things in his life and that he doesn't ever want to leave us again. Then, he reached into his pocket and in it was a small velvet covered box that rings come in. He opened it and it revealed the most amazing engagement ring I'd ever seen. He got down on one knee and said that since he was thirteen he'd loved me and he'd promised in one of his letters so long ago that he'd marry me someday. He said he wanted to spend the rest of our lives together, through good times and bad because I made him feel happier than anyone else ever has. And then he looked up into my eyes and asked the question that I'd been waiting to hear since we were smaller. 'Marissa Cooper, will you marry me?'
And I of course, said yes.
Marissa
Present
Day, year 2014
I shut the diary and immediately look at the package it came in. There's a note on it that says, 'I think you'd like to read this. -Marissa Cooper.' There's a number I can call so I immediately pick up the phone and dial it, my hand shaking even more with every button I press to the point where I don't know if I can finish dialing. I wait for someone to answer, hoping that someone does in fact answer and this isn't some big prank or whatever. Three times it rings, and then suddenly there's an adult woman's voice filling the line. "Hello?"
"Um, Marissa Cooper?" I ask, hoping that it is in fact Marissa Cooper.
"Yeah, this is she." Marissa says, and I feel myself become even more tense.
"Um, this is Dawn Atwood, Ryan's mom." I say shakily.
There's silence on the other line and I wonder if maybe she didn't want me to call after all. Before long though, I hear a door close and she says, "I've been waiting for your call."
"Is he okay?" I ask, thinking that's the only reason she would send the diary for.
"Yeah, he's great actually." She said, and I can hear how much she loves my son.
"Oh, okay." I sigh and then take in a deep breath and ask the question that's been on my mind. "Do you think he'd see me after all this time, after what I did to him when he was little?"
I can almost hear the smile in her voice when she says, "I think he'd like that."