"Alright, I think I've change my mind again."
"Bloody hell Prongs, are you kidding me, this is the 12th bloody time, you have changed your damn mind. First I had to wait for you, when I could have just came with Remus, and you made me-"

Getting to the party had been a task. In the span of two hours, Sirius had lost count of how many times James had changed his mind about going. It was at least once every ten minutes, maybe twice. The boy needed to get over this Lily business, after months of the two being apart, James was still driving Sirius mad about it. And James had finally made up his mind about going. If she could go and be happy, so could he. They were feet away from the woman's doorstep, and he had to change his damn mind again. Sirius, was clearly not impressed.

"Whatever Padfoot, if you want to go, I'm not stopping-"
"No James, not know, you are going. You are going to walk in there and you are going to have a damn good time. Why the bloody hell live your damn life in misery because of some stupid girl-" And so Sirius' rant went on. He was getting James into the house whether or not he liked it. It was proabably good for him. James was being a coward, she was only a girl.

A sigh escaped James' lips as he looked up at Sirius in silence. Maybe he was right, maybe he had a few good points. If Lily could go, why couldn't he? Why was he being a coward, why was he afraid to see her. So what if it hurt to see her with Amos- what the hell did she see in him anyways? Actually, up until that day he never had a problem with Amos, he came off as a good guy, but now.. now he just seemed like a girlfriend stealing git. If Lily could have fun. So could he. He'd show her he was more than over her. "Fine then. Let's bloody go." James muttered, finally breaking the silence as he pushed past Sirius walking into the home.

"So there you two are!" The familiar voice of Remus Lupin yelled from the couch, giving a wave at the pair, a cheerful grin was placed on the man's lips. It had been a few weeks since the last full moon, and he was still not feeling the effects of the approaching one, so he seemed to be in a delightful mood, and looked rather well. "What took you so long?"

"Prongs and his decision makng skills." Sirius grumbled rolling his eyes as he made his way to the couch, followed by a rather silent James.

James seemed to pay no attention what-so-ever to the conversation occuring between Sirius, Remus and the others on the couch and the area surrounding it. His first objective was to find her in the crowd, he needed to see here, needed to see whether or not she was happy to be there, because he sure as hell wasn't. The happy faces only reminded him of his current misery. But indeed, Ms Evans was no where to be found. But he was there- Amos Diggory.

James' eyes were like daggers. They didn't move, stayed focused on the man, every muscle within him wanted to rip the man apart. What did Amos have that James didn't? What was so fantastic about him that made him able to win over the heart of Lily Evans in a few short months? The same heart it took James over six years to win over. It wasn't fair that Amos could feel the warmth of her flesh, taste her kiss, hold her close to him. It wasn't fair. This wasn't how things were supposed to end up. But it all ended, they had made a mess of their perfect relationship somehow, and obviously it was a mess too horrible to fix.

A look of curiousity formed on Sirius' face as he caught sight of the direction of James' gaze. Amos. Lovely. "That mean Evans is here?" Sirius said softly looking at Remus.

"They came together earlier, I talked to her when she got here, haven't seen her in a bit, so maybe she left." Remus said with a shrug, glancing up at James momentarily.

He didn't want to be there. He didn't want to look at Amos, and think about him holding the woman James had loved. He needed something strong, anything to get him through this. "Drinks in the kitchen?" James said, the first words he had probably uttered since they stepped inside the home.

"Yeah, there's firewhiskey, butterbeer and some muggle stuff." Remus added, a slight bit of concern entering his voice, "You okay James?"

"Bloody perfect, I'll be back." As he moved through the crowd, he forced his gaze away from Diggory. He couldn't remember hating anyone as much as he hated Amos in that moment.