A/N: I was going to not post this next chapter until I get some more reviews but I think I'm too nice! And I'm on holiday so I actually get a chance to do it!

Once again there is a time gap between this chapter and the last one – its on purpose!!

13/12

I've been having the nightmares for about a fortnight now. Always the same and always with the same result – I wake up screaming and then begin crying. The Doctor has been completely wonderful about the whole thing but I feel terrible. This stuff has really affected our adventures. I'm tired the whole time, my reactions are slower than normal and I can't really handle being alone, without the Doctor.

The other day we got separated on a planet and I was so scared I was shaking when he found me; it was only about five minutes later. I don't think I let go of his hand for the rest of the day.

I'm ok in the TARDIS. I just sort of wander around and end up falling asleep in random places and at inopportune moments. The Doctor's so sweet though, he doesn't wake me up because he thinks I need all the sleep I can get.

Actually, he did wake me up once but that was because my head was resting in a puddle of orange juice on the kitchen table so it's forgivable.

You'd think, with time, I might have got a used to the nightmare but it still scares me just as much. It might even be worse now because I'm scared of going to sleep. I know what's going to happen when I do. I've been trying to read nice books with dashing heroes and enterprising heroines (basically anything by Georgette Heyer) to distract me before I fall asleep but I still end up having the nightmare so it doesn't really help.

I can't think of anything else to do. I don't know why I started having these horrible dreams. I've never been abandoned and none of the aliens we've fought or places we've been to could have prompted this.

Maybe it's because I'm happy, because I've got more to lose now. I don't know, that's just conjecture, it's a complete mystery. All I know is that it's awful and it's having a huge effect on my life and the Doctor's and I wish it wasn't.

A/N: it's all a bit doom and gloom isn't it, sorry about that, it'll pick up soon, my character's very resilient!

Have to say that I don't own Georgette Heyer – if I did everyone would have to read all her books all the time, they are that good.

Also, I saw the first episode of the third series the other night! I was VERY overexcited and I wasn't disappointed. Unfortunately I quite like the new companion, despite being really really jealous!

Please R&R xxxxx