Chapter 2

Jess sat in the middle of the floor thinking. What did he expect? For Rory Gilmore to come back into his arms and be with him for the rest of his life? For her to pine and wait for him instead of moving on and getting a boyfriend? No. Yes. Maybe. 'Jesus, make up your mind. What the hell am I doing? I'm the one who messed up all the time. I don't deserve her, but that didn't give her the right to do what she did.' Jess walked over to the stereo and turned it onto a radio station. A new song filled the emptiness he called an apartmentpublishing house.

I know you think that I shouldn't still love you

Or tell you that

But if I didn't say it

Well I'd still have felt it

Where's the sense in that?

Jess remembered the time he ran after Rory through town when he went to get his car. He told her he loved her and walked away. 'Jess, you idiot. If you would've stayed and not run away like a coward she could still be yours right now.'

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder

Or return to where we were

I will go down with this ship

And I won't put my hands up

And surrender

There will be no white flag above my door

I'm in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess and destruction to come back again

And I caused nothing but trouble

I understand if you can't talk to me again

And if you live by the rules that it's over

Then I'm sure that that makes sense

Rory: "I think I may have loved you but I just have to let it go."

Jess tried to find his voice and say 'No! Don't let it go! Wait for me! I'll come back, just wait!' but he couldn't. She had already hung up the phone and he was already walking away from the phone booth. He had always regretted not saying anything to her but he couldn't change the past. That was the day of her graduation.

I will go down with this ship

And I won't put my hands up

And surrender

There will be no white flag above my door

I'm in love

And always will be

Jess had never gotten over Rory. He was still in love with her. He kept a picture of her in his wallet and he didn't even date other girls. Jess tried but he compared them all to Rory and they didn't come close to being as perfect as her. Some say stalker, he says he has troubles letting go.

And when we meet

Which I'm sure we will

All that was there

Will be there still

I'll let it pass

And hold my tongue

And you will think

That I've moved on

He was going out to dinner with her to talk about his book. Jess Mariano was going to dinner with Rory Gilmore to talk about his accomplishments. That was until he showed up. He drove up in his silver Porsche and got out like he owned the world. Jess thought he could've. He put his arm around Rory's shoulders, not even seeing if she wanted him to. Later that night Jess walked away from the bar after his talk with Rory. He pretended like he didn't still love her but he did.

I will go down with this ship

And I won't put my hands up

And surrender

There will be no white flag above my door

I'm in love

And always will be

Jess had gotten a chance with Rory and he blew it but he wanted another one. He NEEDED another one. The first time he was with Rory, he was confused and seventeen. Now he was a publisher, an author, and he knew what he wanted. Her. But what was he supposed to do. She made it very clear she didn't love him anymore.

Knock. Knock.