I don't own JSRF…I DO own this fic so don't plagiarize…okay this is gonna start to get tricky.

Anger and Regret

(Gum/Cube)

Archai: Yaaaaaay… Archai loves me, Archai loves me… yaaaaaaaay! (Now you go, lady!) Yaaaay!

Shickystizzle: I ain't gettin' big headed. Also I already know you're a sap (warm and fuzzy). The one messed up thing about that last chapter was the fact that I actually want Gum and Cube to be together before the end of the fic. It ain't easy though because I already made Gum reject Cube so now I have to do something to bring them back together… H-A-R-D.

99th Street Subway Station, 12:51pm

That first time she kissed me I thought she was just playing around with me. That's why I kissed her back. I thought we were just messing around, but now…

My train pulls up. I get in and go all the way to the last car and sit. It's nearly empty so I'll get to think about this. I'm going back to the garage for a bit so I can think. I really need to give this some thought. I need to make sense of all of this…

I play it all back in my head. I think all the way back to the actual kiss.

I… I loved that kiss. I could feel it in her. All of her love, her longing for me… it was all in that one passionate kiss. The way she held me, the way she caressed me, the way pressed herself against me. I had always wanted someone to kiss me that way. But then… her tongue slipped into my mouth and that's when I ripped her hands off and pushed her off of me. I did it so suddenly that it never even registered in my head. I hadn't even realized what I had done until I saw the look on her face. She looked… she looked hurt. She looked like I had ripped her heart out and tore it in half.

That look hasn't left my mind. Fuck… she was crying. I heard her sobbing when we were leaving. I can't believe I actually made her cry. I can't believe I hurt her like that. My face falls into my hands and I feel the tears building up. I can't believe I did that to her. She's my best friend and I… I just threw her off of me. I didn't consider her feelings. I didn't want to hear what she had to say to me… shit I didn't even look at her. She must think I'm a horrible person. She must think I hate her.

That's when it hit's me. It dawns on me that she must hate me for this. She opened her heart to me and I closed mine. If I apologized would she accept it? Could we still be friends? Should I feel like shit right now? I feel like shit right now. I really do.

I can't hold back my own tears… I don't want her to hate me... but now… now I think she does… I know she does… and it's all my fault.

The Garage, 2:20pm

The garage is nearly empty. Everyone's off doing their own thing I suppose… unless this is some elaborate trap and their all gonna spring out of nowhere and interrogate me. I get a look around. No trap, it's empty. I'm glad Corn isn't here (he's probably pissed at me right now). Beat isn't here which is good because I don't feel like being bothered. Yoyo isn't here either, also good… I don't feel up to lying to him about what happened between Cube and myself (I never feel right about lying to him about anything because I can tell he hangs on my every word) because I know it's not normal for us to be separate anymore. I go strait to the "second floor" and lay down on the couch. I just relax for a bit. My eyes start to close… I am pretty tired, I've been up or about sixteen hours so it's (yawn) to be… expected… I…guess…

I wake up to the sound of conversation. I open my eyes to see that I had rolled over onto my side and am now facing the back of the couch. I look at my watch… I've been asleep for two hours. I take a few seconds to recognize the voices. It's, who else, Clutch and Soda. They're talking about me and Cube and making lewd comments and jokes. I've never liked those two. Clutch started off on the wrong foot with everybody but Soda has always been a dick to me specifically. Cube told me about how they would both talk shit about me behind my back when she was still hanging out with them more than she was with me. There's another reason that I don't like them… what was it again… oh, right… she told me that she'd overheard them talking about running a train on her. She said that they were going to try to get her to go to a party with them so they could try to get her drunk and fuck her. They never actually found out that she had heard them but, needless to say, she doesn't hang out with them anymore. I wonder what she's doing right now… I can still hear them talking but I'm not paying attention…

"Hey Gum, wake up!" A hand slaps my ass and I jump.

"Where's Cube?" It was Clutch… or at least he was closest to me, I don't doubt that Soda can reach from where he's standing.

"Did you just slap my ass?" I can feel some belligerence building up inside of me. I don't like being touched that way… but I suppose I don't mind it when Cube does it to me, she's just playing after all.

"Where's Cube? Is she nearby?" Soda speaks up. His voice is always deadpan for whatever reason.

I don't want to tell them about the hotel. "No."

"Where's she at?" Clutch asks me.

Once again I think about them wanting to run a train on her. What kind of friends are they to even think about that. What did she ever see in these two? "I don't know." I shrug.

They looked at each other then turned back to me. "Oh come on… we know you know. You two are always together. Just tell us where she is."

I sit up and eye them both. "Where she is isn't any of your business. If she wanted you to know she would have told you. Now leave me alone."

Soda snorts as he laughs. He nudges Clutch. "I think I know what happened… Cube fagged out on her."

Clutch smiles. He starts to laugh when he turns back to me and sees the shocked expression on my face. They knew? "Hey sorry we didn't tell you Gum… just figured you're a queer too." They both chuckle. I can feel the anger rising. How can they talk like that? "Hey Soda, if Cube's into a slut like Gum then I'm almost glad we didn't fuck her."

Soda laughs at that. What the fuck is wrong with these guys?! "Hey Gum… what'd she do? Did she feel you up? Did she try to fuck you? Or maybe…" he turns to Clutch I can't see his mouth but I can tell he's grinning. He turns back to me. "Hey Gum… did you let her fuck you?" He looks at Clutch. "Do you think she let her…?"

"One way to find out… hey Gum? D'you let Cube eat you out?"

My eyes close. I bow my head… I'm shaking. Shut up… leave me alone… shut up… shut up about her. Don't talk about her like that!

Soda pokes my forehead. He speaks and I feel him getting closer to me. "He asked you a question. D'you let Cube eat your pussy? D'you give her herpes? Is that why you're alone right now? She get a disease from you? Everyone knows what a slut you are so it wouldn't surpri…"

My eyes open and I backhand him across his face. "Shut the fuck up!"

Soda stares blankly at me for a moment. He then grabs me by my hair and pulls me to my feet. "Who the fuck do you think you are? You know, just because you and Cube…"

He starts talking but I can't hear him. It's all white noise. I know exactly what's about to happen. I'm about to snap. He's got about eight seconds before my mind goes blank and I pull his lungs out… my father, rest in peace, always did say that my temper runs on his side of the family.

I feel a slap across my face. My vision blurs. Time's up.

Everything goes white. I'm blind… sort of. I can actually see but my mind is blank so I can only register what I feel and not what I can see. Soon enough I can feel my fist pound into something. I feel myself being grabbed and I feel my elbow slam into something. I can feel something slam into my stomach and knock me to the ground. I feel my fists pound at whatever just tackled me over and over and over. I feel a fist against my jaw and soon I taste blood. I feel hands wrap around my neck and I feel my head slam into the ground. I feel my hand slide something out of my belt buckle and force it into what's choking me. I twist it around and the hands loosen. They grab at the hand I used to stab but they can't pull my weapon out. I feel myself roll whatever was choking me so that I'm on top of it. I pull the weapon out and plunge it again. I feel myself being pulled off of it and I feel myself get loose and force what was grabbing me onto the ground. My fists are suddenly pounding and pounding and pounding and pounding. This goes on seemingly forever. Then suddenly I'm ripped off of the ground and suspended in the air. Something is holding my feet and I can't get them loose. One of them finally gets free and my heel slams into something…hard. My other foot is loosened now. And I'm kicking… stomping something on the ground. My arms won't come free.

Splash!

I feel liquid on my face and I feel something hit me. My vision starts to clear. My periphery clears first and I can see a pair of black arms hooked under mine. It's Combo. I'm still kicking.

"Get her legs! Get her legs!" I think that's Corn.

I feel my knees being squeezed together and when my vision clears… it's… it's Cube. She's saying something to me. "...the…happened?" I can't understand her. "Gum! What the fuck happened?!"

I'm staring at her. I swallow and I want to say everything that I wanted to say to her about what happened between us earlier. I want to tell her how sorry I was. "Cube… I…"

"She kicked me! She fuckin' kicked me in the face!"

Cube and I both turn to find the source of those words. It was Clutch. He's on the ground holding his face and lying on his back. He's lifting and dropping his foot. There's blood on his hands.

"Well boo-fuckin'-hoo, she fuckin' kicked you… she fuckin' stabbed me!" I keep a concealed knife in my belt buckle. Apparently I used it to stab Soda in the ribs when he was choking me. He's covered in blood. He strips off his jacket and there's two big, bloody gashes.

I'm staring at the gash. Cube's staring at me. She still looks a bit hurt, but she also looks curious. She definitely wants to know why I did this to them. Our eyes lock. After a few moments pass Corn yells for her and Combo to get me out of the garage. He tells them to get me cooled down.

Cube's gaze is still fixed on me and then… she cracks a smirk. Cube shakes her head and turns to look at both Soda and Clutch as she and Combo carry me out of the garage. "I don't know what you two did but I know you both deserved it."

I guess this could have been longer but I wanted to get back to Cube's P.O.V. as quickly as possible. Please review.