"New York?" Chandler said with a tiny small sad laugh.

"Yea.. don't you think it's great?" I ask sitting down on his thighs and wrap an arm around his neck. "We'll get to see our friends and we'll get to see Emma. She's so adorable in her pictures and she's grown so much." I smile and reach across the table for my glass of wine. I really don't want to move from his lap. I'm extremely comfortable where I am. It would be perfect if Chandler kissed me and told me I'm beautiful and he loves the present. I can feel him gently massaging my butt which feels incredible. If only I had thought of this earlier, sex would be so much better.

"Mon.. I can't talk to you seriously if your sitting on my lap." He says giving me a gentle push off and puts the plane tickets on the table. I quickly get up and walk over to my seat trying to be sexy, as I sit down I can see that Chandler is smiling at me. He's so cute. Why would he want to be serious with me? Tonight is supposed to be a fun romantic night, not serious. I should be sitting on him getting my butt massaged! "I can't go to New York." His face quickly changes.

"Why?" I say in a high pitched voice, which sounded pretty weird.

"I have to work." That's why I never tried this earlier. He's always busy with work. What a mood killer.

"You always have to work!" I cross my arms.

"But hey, I have meetings in California." He smiles. "That means we get to spend the holidays in California and not Tulsa"

California? California! Who spends the holidays in California? "But we're supposed to be spending the holidays with our friends and family. None of our friends or family will be in California." I drain my wine glass and set the empty glass on the table.

"We'll be together." He says taking my hand. "I know things between us haven't been great, but I want to start over. I want to be us again when we get back. I don't want this awkward thing between us. Ever since we've moved this awkwardness has gotten.. more awkward. I know you hate Tulsa, and I'm sorry, I hate it too, but I'm really trying hard to get us home. I don't want the awkwardness to go away and come back when we come home. Come on honey." He gives my hand small kisses that tickle. I need to do this more often."It's time we get our marriage back on track."

I agree. I'm about to give in when it hits me. I don't want to go to California! I want to spend the holidays with my friends. Whom I miss. I have been here for at least 6 months without seeing any of my friends or family. I've been waiting so long for this.I didn't even get to see them for Thanksgiving! Thanksgiving was terrible. Chandler and I ended up going to his boss' Thanksgiving dinner which was not very good. The turkey was dry and everything wasn't right. He didn't even think of me when he accepted the invitation! He left the table with the boss and 2 other employees to do some work. Who works on Thanksgiving? So I sat at the table with people I didn't know and listened to stupid stories about I don't remember.. I was really mad. I was so mad. I want to see my family and friends! I yank my hand away. "No. Chandler I want to be with our friends on Christmas I don't want to spend Christmas in some hotel room."

"You would stay in a hotel in New York anyway."

"Rachel might let us stay at her apartment. I mean it is our old apartment. We gave it to her. And I meant that I don't want to spend Christmas with your stupid co-workers!"

"I understand that you don't want to go but I have to go because if I don't I get fired, and we can't afford for me to get fired."

"Fine." I say crossing my arms. I want to argue against that because it's not true and I know it. We have so much saved up right now. We haven't gotten anything since we got to Tulsa. His company pays for the rent, bills, car, gas, all of it. There is no shopping here so I haven't really purchased anything at all. If it weren't for Rachel we'd be wearing the same clothes everyday.

"Thank you honey. I promise I'll.."

"I'm not going." I say simply and pick up a fork.

"Excuse me?"

"I'm going to go to New York." I say reaching across the table and taking one of the tickets.

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