Dreams and Desires By Troubled Tazzy

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Chapter 20:

"Wha…What are you talking about?" stammered Lily as she felt numbness go through her body.

"He killed them," Severus said again.

"No…no my parents died in a plane wreckage, he wouldn't, he couldn't…" whispered Lily as she felt her voice shake.

"That's what they wanted you to believe, there was never a plane accident it was all a trick, to keep you from learning the truth," muttered Severus.

"He killed them Lily, he killed your mum and he killed your dad" Snape continued.

Lily looked at him stunned, she was shaking all over, as memories came back to her, memories in which she had long forgotten.

Flashes of Lily as a young child came to her as she stared at Severus; she found herself in the bright sunshine sitting on a swing with her long red hair falling around her shoulders, she was being pushed by her mother who was laughing and smiling at her. Lily could see her mother's bright red hair as well, waving with every movement she took. Lily found herself smiling and laughing back, she was moving her hands towards her mother but as she grasped her hand a crack of thunder suddenly filled the air, Lily's mother had disappeared, darkness surrounded her and rain was pouring onto her face. It soaked through her body, Lily shivered as she looked up into the dark house she did not recognize, realizing that her life would never be the same.

Lily wrenched herself out of this memory and glared at Severus.

"STOP IT, STOP TELLING ME THESE LIES," she screamed as she covered her ears and ran out the door

Lily fled down cold, dark corridors, running also past other chambers and what looked like to be a thrown room, but no there was no time to investigate, she had to find James and get out of here.

As she walked into a corridor she saw that it was brightly lit, and a small red haired girl was standing just in front of her. The girl had her back to her, and was staring at a door that stood afar in front of her. Lily walked over to the girl and kneeled down next to her.

"What are you doing here all alone?" Lily asked her.

The little girl did not answer; she merely stood there staring at this one door.

"LILY!" cried out a voice.

Lily turned her head and faced the door, but it wasn't ajar anymore what stood in the middle of it was an overly sized woman with a tight bun in her hair, gray stockings, and a gray blouse and skirt. She had a hard face and a very crooked nose.

"HOW MANY TIMES DO I HAVE TO TELL YOU, YOU DON'T STAND THERE AND LOOK LIKE A DOPE, GO AND DO THE LAUNDRY, NOW," screamed the woman.

Lily cringed as she felt the screechness of this woman's voice cut through her like a blade, but as she looked into the face of the small girl she gasped as she saw the reorganization that this girl was her. Lily looked at the woman more carefully she saw that it was Ms Swench. She was the owner of the orphanage, the mistress of the house. The orphanage Lily had went to as a child was called Swench's Orphanage for Girls, as Lily had no relations she was sent to this home, she was 13 years old when her parents died.

Lily saw Ms Swench walking towards the younger form of Lily and grab her around the neck.

"NOW LISTEN HERE WHEN I TELL YOU TO DO SOMETHING YOU DO IT," screamed Swench as she dragged the little girl through a door. As Lily watched then, she looked into the little girls face tears where running down her face, the same tears in which Lily was feeling at that moment. The room faded and Lily realized she was in a corridor. She kept running down the corridors, looking desperately through doorways.

"Severus, has just…lost his mind, yeah, that's it, nothing he said was true," Lily muttered to herself as she looked.

"He has hated James from the very beginning, he just wants to get back at him, yes that's it," Lily continued, but as she looked up one particular corridor, a small dim light caught her eye; she followed the small flicker of light. It led her to a door that was ajar by the tiniest centimeters. Lily opened it a few more centimeters so she was able to look through without being noticed, what she saw made her shake all over.

X X X X X

"WHERE IS SHE?" yelled Snape as he kicked and hit James.

As Lily watched she noticed James was tied up, the rope had cut into his wrists and ankles, blood was trickling down his fingertips and ankles, soaking it with the red ooze. Lily felt her eyes water as she looked at James's face, the laughter and cheeky grins had vanished and what was left was a pale faced boy. But as he looked up at Snape in his kneeling position you could see the nobility in his eyes.

"WHERE IS SHE?" repeated Snape as he raised his wand to James's face.

"Why would I tell you?" mocked James, as he spat blood out of his mouth.

Snape only sneered, he raised his wand to James and muttered "Crucio."

James screamed in pain, nothing was worse than an unforgivable curse. As Snape lowered his wand, James's screams stopped instantly, he was swaying from side to side, with his eyes falling into the back of his head. Lily was holding onto her mouth, stopping herself from screaming.

"You didn't like that, now did you Potter?" asked Snape, who was smiling a crazy smile.

James eyes had come back into focus and he was now panting very hard, but glaring at Snape

"Do I have to ask again, or do I have to use my wand?" asked Snape as he glared back at James.

"Go…to…hell…Snape," panted James, he looked up at Snape, but as he did so his eyes flickered over at the door, it was very quick and sudden but Lily was sure he knew she was there.

"Wrong answer," replied Snape as he smiled.

Lily couldn't take James's screaming, it was to hard to bare, she could run, find a way to get out, but Snape will surely kill him she had to do something but what can she do, her wand was back in the common room and so was James's.

Lily knew that there was only one thing to do, one thing that she had to do alone.

X X X X X

James couldn't prevent himself from screaming, the pain was overpowering him, he felt the weakness move through his body.

"Just give up," muttered a voice in his ear.

The voice echoed all around him, he opened his eyes everything was spinning he was shaking and he felt give a horrible wobble, like it was about to drop off his neck, but as his eyes finally adjusted he noticed a figure at the door. A small flicker of red hair made him realize who it was, he quickly looked back at Snape. Pain went through his body again, he was screaming, but Snape wasn't letting it go this time, he wasn't giving mercy he was going to kill him and James knew it.

"GIVE UP," screamed a voice in James's head.

"Your going to lose anyway," muttered another.

"Come on James, you can get through this," whispered a soft voice.

The voice was so comforting to James he felt a smile form on his mouth, Snape saw the smile on James's face and lifted his wand, moving it harder into James, making the spell more powerful. The smile faded from James's lips and he screamed with more pain, but the feeling suddenly stopped the pain had gone and so had the voices, there was a big explosion and then total silence. James wasn't game enough to open his eyes, but he had to see what had happened. He opened his eyes slowly, everything was spinning once again, but as the room slowly came into focus he realized that there was two figures on the floor, one was Snape who was in a crumpled heap against a wall, and the other was Lily, her hair was covering her face and she was laying on the ground, with blood trickling out of her mouth. James couldn't see her breathing, he tried to move but the rope Snape had tied him with prevented him from moving an inch, all he could do was yell at her to wake up.

"LILY, LILY," yelled James as he watched her.

But she didn't move, she layed there very still, more blood coming from her mouth.

"LILY".

A/N – Oooooooo, getting very interesting lol, I'm sorry I'm mean but I have to say that the next chapter will be up very soon, I won't leave you in the dark for to long. Thank you all once again for the fantastic reviews; they were all awesome, because it's good to know I have so many people that actually like my story.

Thanks again.

Love always Troubled Tazzy