Disclaimer; I own nothing.

Pairing: Riku/Sora

Rating: R, though for later chapters

A/N: I updated go me, go me. Err sorry now on with the story.

/Ch.4/

Reaching the freesbee Tidus picked it up and turned with a smile that quickly fell from his face as he saw Riku extended a hand as if reaching out for something and than fall to the ground.

"Riku!"

Freesbee forgotten Tidus jogged quickly to Riku. Falling to his knees he kneeled next to Riku and froze. Panic took over his body. What was he suppose to do now? This was not the first time Riku had ever fainted in front of him, in fact he had been know to have frequent fainting spells just after his accident, but every time Squall had been with him.

That however had been years ago. Riku hadn't had any fainting spells in years and this was the first time he had fainted in front of Tidus, who was at a loss. Tidus felt himself start to shake, Riku seemed so lifeless lying in the ground, just like when he had been in a comma. So dead. Closing his eyes briefly Tidus tried to gain a hold on his emotions. He wasn't going to be any help to Riku if he started to panic.

Slowly he lifted Riku's head into his lap and tapped his cheek gently.

"Riku. Hey."

He whispered. Just than Wakka jumped over the bushes and knelt next to Tidus looking with concern at the boy he held in his lap.

"Is he going to be alright? Should I go get help?"

Again Tidus stated down at Riku's motionless body in his arms and felt another wave of panic coming on. Squall where are you? Closing his eyes he opened his mouth to answers Wakka's question but was cut off.

"That won't be necessary?"

Hearing that voice made every muscle in his body relax and Tidus opened his eyes to see Squall kneeling next to Riku. Worry written all over his face. Squall was there he would know what to do.

Unlike Tidus Squall appeared calm, he took Riku's wrist and moved his fingers over to he inside of the wrist to take Riku's pulse. Taking a count he frowned and leaned closer to Riku, lifting one eyelid open than the other. With a small nod he straighten a bit.

"Riku!"

He called out tugging a little on Riku's arm. Tidus bit his lip, looked down at Riku and gently brushed some hair out of his face. He sighed, here he was the one studying to become a doctor and at the first sight of problems he panicked. Those thought quickly fled his mind as he felt Riku stir.

Wakka was amazed by what he was seeing, from the looks of things it seemed this Riku had a tendency to faint, seeing as how Squall knew exactly what to do. He looked up from the slowly waking boy, to the people around. He was glad they hadn't attracted a crowd people probably just thought they were goofing off. He turned his gaze back to Riku.

Slowly Riku's eyes began to flutter open and than suddenly his eyes snapped open and he bolted up to a sitting position. Riku didn't take any of his surrounding in, he looked around frantically his eyes searching for something, his breathing ragged.

"Hey, there not so fast"

Riku heard nothing.

"Where's …?"

The question died on his lips as he felt familiar hands push him back down. His head made contact with strong legs and he wonder why he was on the ground starring up at Tidus with a frowning Squall kneeling next to him. And than he remembered.

"Sora"

It was a small whisper, quiet but not quiet enough so that the three people kneeling next to him didn't hear. Wakka hear but thought nothing of it. Tidus heard and so had Squall. They looked at each other both wearing a confused and worry look. Squall frowned and looked down at Riku.

"How are you feeling?"

It was Squall, who was again taking his pulse with a small frown on his face. Riku closed his eyes. He had fainted. Damn it, now he had more problems to worry about. He now had to convince Squall and Tidus he was fine or else they would most likely call his parents. He just hoped they hadn't heard him call out for Sora.

By the looks of it thought that seemed unlikely. Every time Riku mention Sora all hell would break loose. Squall and Tidus always seemed uncomfortable when he mentioned Sora. And he knew it was because his friends knew he didn't really believe Sora was not real, but only told that to the psychiatrists and the doctors. And for some reason Squall really seemed to have a problem with that.

"I'm fine Squall."

Finally Squall released his wrist seemingly satisfied with his heart rate and his now normal breath in take.

"Are you sure you don't want me to go get any help?"

Wakka asked and for the first time Riku took in the person kneeling on his other side. Riku gave him a weak smile. Wakka smiled back.

"No I'm fine. I'm Riku by the way"

Riku said extending his hand for Wakka to take.

"Wakka"

He said shaking Riku's hand.

"Don't worry about Riku, Wakka, he'll be fine, he just needs rest."

"So what are you a doctor?"

Wakka than asked Squall. Riku chuckled.

"Not yet."

With that he stood up and reached down to help Riku get to his feet. As soon as Riku's head was off his lap, Tidus stood up dusting off his clothes.

"Are you okay Riku?"

Riku nodded trying to fight down a wave of slight dizziness and managed to smile at Tidus who was looking more miserable than he felt.

"Yeah"

"Come on lets get you to your room."

Squall said. Riku nodded and was glad neither Squall or Tidus tried to help him walk. Than again his friends knew better, that would have only made him feel weak, which he wasn't.

"If you need anything"

Turning around Riku saw Wakka place a hand on Tidus's shoulder to get his attention.

"Just let me know."

And than slowly that hand slid down Tidus's arm almost like a caress. Riku saw Tidus shift slowly as if nervous than blush slightly. Riku thought it was a bit strange but gave no more thought to the matter. Tidus only nodded and began walking with Squall and Riku again.

The walk to his room was short and for that Riku was glad. He didn't like the uncomfortable silence that had fallen between them. He didn't feel like explaining himself or anything. He only wanted to be alone with his thoughts.

As soon as he opened the door to his room Riku slumped on the bed face up throwing an arm over his eyes.

"Thanks guys I really appreciate it"

"Riku what happened?"

Tidus asked. Riku threw the arm off his face and sat up his feet touching the floor gaze down . It seemed his friends weren't going to drop the subject that easily. Riku looked up. Tidus was standing at the foot of his bed and Squall was leaning on the closed door arms crossed across his chest an unreadable expression on his face. Riku sighed.

"I don't know I just got a little dizzy that's all. I promise I'm fine"

They all knew without asking what the last word meant. It meant Riku didn't want to talk to his parents or see a doctor or talk about the situation any more. Tidus shifted his weight from one foot to the other, something he only did when nervous.

"Riku I really think you should tell your parents"

Surprisingly it was Squall who made the suggestion that had been at the tip of Tidus's tongue. Riku closed his eyes and shook his head. When he opened his eyes again Tidus saw in them the reason he had hesitated to make that suggestion himself. Riku looked tiered and lost and he didn't want to further aggravate his friend.

"No! I'm telling you guys I'm fine. If it happens again I'll call them hell I'll even call my doctors!"

Riku snapped his patience wearing thin. Squall wanted to protest but knew better, Riku was old enough to make his own decisions. Besides if his fainting phase decided to return he was confident enough Riku would do something about it, after all his friend wasn't stupid, he knew better than anyone the consequences.

"All right, don't take it the wrong way Riku. You just…scared us."

Hearing the confession he was certain had been difficult for Squall to utter Riku let himself relax. His friends were just worried for him, but he would be fine. Or at least he hoped he would be.

"I know, I'm just tired. I think I really need some rest."

With that he again let his body fall back onto his bed and he closed his eyes. Squall however wasn't so ready to drop the subject.

"Riku…"

Squall had pushed off of the door and took a step to Riku's bed until he stood next to Tidus. Tidsu turned slightly towards Squall, touching his hand slightly, shaking his head. Tidus knew what Squall wanted to ask but he also knew Riku was more confused and upset over his feeling than they were. Riku needed time to collect his thoughts, right now the only way they could help him was by leaving.

"Not right now."

Tidus mouthed to Squall and then turned his gaze to Riku who's eyes were still closed. Squall turned from Tidus's face to Riku and slowly nodded in agreement.

"Okay Riku, get some rest we'll see you in the morning."

"Sure."

Riku heard Squall and Tidus move and seconds later he heard the click of his door closing. Once Tidus and Squall had left, Riku opened his eyes, he was now alone left to contemplate his own feelings.

He could tell by the tone of Squall's voice he had been about to ask about what he had uttered earlier. Which meant he was wrong Squall and Tidus had heard him. In all honesty he could never understand why Squall was so bothered whenever he mentioned Sora. Even if it was to deny him.

That was reason number one to not tell his friends he had seen Sora today. But than again… Had he actually seen Sora? He shook his head trying to rid himself of the doubt. He knew what he had seen.

The question now bothering him was, had Sora seen him? Before he saw Sora he had actually felt him. He had felt a tug as if someone was pulling his head in the direction Sora was standing willing him to turn.

What he didn't understand and bothered him to no end was the fact Sora had not seen him. Why was he the only one to be able to feel Sora's presence? Couldn't Sora feel or sense him too? Was the bond Riku felt they shared not as deep as he had thought it was.

And than another thought occurred to him. What if that hadn't even been his Sora? Riku felt his heartbeat speed up and his breathing becoming more rapid.

What if he had really just imagined Sora. And the Sora he had seen today was not he Sora he believed he knew. Riku now gasped trying to catch his breath as small drops of perspiration appeared on his forehead and he knew soon he would start hyperventilating if dint' get a hold on his emotions, he closed his eyes.

If he considered the possibility that the Sora he had seen today was not the Sora he believed he knew than that meant that meat his Sora had never really. He shook his head furiously trying to catch his breath and rid his head of that thought. No that couldn't be a possibility he could not have possibly have made up Sora in his mind. Sora was real and he had seen him today with Kairi.

At that thought Riku's eyes snapped opened and he stared wide eyes at he ceiling.

"Oh my God Kairi too!"

All of a sudden it was too much to take. He had known all along Sora was real their adventures might not have been but he knew Sora was a real person. Just like he knew Squall and Tidus were real people too. However he had never considered the possibility of Kairi being real after all he had never met her.

Than again he had never met Sora either. But that was different he could actually feel Sora, feel himself bonded to the other, but where Kairi was concerned. When it came to Kairi, Riku was as sure she was as real as their adventures.

Today however he was proven very wrong not only had he seen Sora but he had also seen Kairi. Instead of that thought aggravating him it only served to strengthen his belief. Not only was Sora real but he had also seen him today for the first time. In their real world.

One thing however still remained unanswered.

"If Kairi is real too, than who else is?"

With a groan Riku turned on his stomach burying his face on the pillow. Things were turning out more complicated than he first thought. He had a feeling there was much more to his predicament than there appeared to be.

Somehow, he didn't know why or how, but somehow he knew Sora had the answers.

There was just no way that Kairi and Sora were people his psychiatrists said he'd made up. When he had in fact seen them today that was too much of a coincidence. If there had ever been any doubt in his mind it had certainly been extinguished today. Now all he needed to do was find Sora again and talk to him.

He mentally scoffed that was easier said than done.

"What if he doesn't know who I am and just thinks I'm a nut case?"

Riku mumbled into his pillow he was feeling tired so tired to even contemplate the possibility even more. His eyes lids were feeling rather heavy and slowly he gave into the emotional exhaustion and let himself drift off to sleep

White bright light. It hurt his eyes, he stood in a long corridor with walls painted white the floor underneath his bare feet was cold and he shivered. The bright light reflected off the white tiles. Riku squinted and looked at his surroundings.

All around him were white doors with no windows and no numbers on the door. Taking a closer look revealed no door knobs on the doors or any sort of marking to distinguish them from the other.

"Where am I?"

The lights flickered for a second and his voice echoed eerily off the walls. In his mind he knew he was dreaming, but he knew it wasn't his dream he was in.

He wasn't sure how he knew but for some reason he felt as if he were walking in someone else's dream. Before he gave more thought to that idea he heard a voice.

"It's okay. You did very well today."

The voice was not familiar but he felt at ease hearing it's soothing sound. Slowly he walked forward trying to find the source of the voice. The corridor was long and seemed to stretch on forever and Riku was sure if he tried to run to find the end it would never happen. So instead he turned his attention to the walls on the corridor seeing nothing but his own reflection on their dark surface.

Trying a door he found it locked. A few doors later he finally found a window which was lit. There on the other side of the glass was a boy sitting on a chair his back was to him and a man who was writing something down on a clipboard. He was dress in a white doctors uniform so Riku assumed the man as such. The man looked up and smiled at the boy in the chair.

"Ready to go home?"

The boy in the chair nodded but did not speak. The man smiled again and for some reason his tone of voice reminded Riku of Dr. Yeo. The boy stood from the chair and walked forward to the door a few feet away form him.

Before his hand could reach the door it opened. The lights above Riku's head flickered again just as another doctor, so Riku assumed, entered the room.

Fear. That was the emotion wrapping around Riku. Utter fear for the man who had just stepped through the door. He didn't know who the man was and he couldn't even see his face. The boy in the room took a step back. That's when Riku realized he was feeling what he boy was feeling. The emotion was so strong.

"And where are you going?"

It was a cold heartless voice which spoke with great authority. Riku saw the boy begin to shake but before the man could take another step towards the boy the other doctor spoke.

"He's done for the day."

The voice of the doctor which had seemed so soothing now spoke as if challenging the other. With an equal level of authority.

"Is he now?"

Confused and scared the boy looked between the two men. Clearly at a lose of whom he should listen to. Riku felt the boy wanted to leave but was rooted in place due to the fear he had for the man in front of him.

"He is."

Walking forward the man placed a gentle hand on the frightened boy, in an attempt to sooth him. And Riku felt himself relax, or more like felt the boys emotions as he relaxed.

"Go on. We'll see you next week."

And with out another words the boy left the room. As soon as the boy exited the room and the door closed behind him the room was once again flooded in darkness and the window disappeared.

Riku took a step back. A door opened somewhere down the hall. Hesitating only for a second Riku began walking towards the sound of the door opening. Stopping a few doors down he saw another white unmarked, knob less door which was now a jar. Taking a deep breath he stepped through.

As soon as he was on the other side of the door it vanished and he was standing on a somewhat familiar empty street.

"What is going on?"

Suddenly he knew he was no longer in someone else's dream but he was now in his own dream.

The sun was bright he blinked and closed his eyes briefly when he opened them again the street was crowded now cars were coming down the street speeding by rapidly. People were walking down the sidewalk quickly. Everything seemed to be moving at super speed.

Something was wrong, something besides the fact that he was standing in the middle of the busy street. Cars were going by so fast they were a mere blur and the people on the sidewalk all seemed to be wearing black. Riku knew something bad was going to happened he could feel it in his skin.

Time slowed. The cars that had been zooming at incredible speeds were now crawling slowly past him. The people on the streets had stopped walking and were now all staring at him.

Riku looked around him wildly. What was happening. Something was wrong, something bad. He heard a shout.

"LOOK OUT!"

Riku turned. His eyes widen as he stood frozen in place a car speed rapidly towards him closer and closer it would kill him there was no doubt.

"AHHHH!"

Breathing heavily Riku bolted up to a sitting position on his bed. It was dark so dark. Why was it so dark?

Where was the car the staring people. Taking deep breaths he slowly remembered where he was. His eyes slowly adjusted to the darkness he was still panting and he could feel his t-shirt clinging to his body with sweat.

Bringing a hand to his face he closed his eyes. A dream. That was all a dream. After a few minutes his breathing returned to normal as did his heartbeat, or so he assumed since he couldn't feel his heart trying to leap out of his chest any longer. He turned his head to the bedside clock. It was three A.M. he let out a long sigh letting his body fall back on the bed.

That dream had been so strange. Had he been dreaming about his accident? If that was so it was the first time. It had certainly left him shaken Perhaps there was a reason he couldn't remember his accident. Perhaps it was his brain's feeble attempt at keeping him form reliving a very horrible experience.

Sighing Riku closed his eyes. He always thought better with his eyes closed. He found it easier to concentrate on his thoughts that way. With his eyes closed he only saw darkness where he could give shape to any thoughts he had in mind. Which reminded him of something else, before he had started dreaming about the empty street he had been dreaming about a boy. That boy, the boy who was in that room, who was that boy? And who were those men?

Riku shook his head. What was becoming of his life? Why did he feel that every question he ever had could be answered by remembering the few seconds when his body was struck by that car and sent into unconsciousness for a year?

Riku knew very well he would not find the answerers to those questions behind his close eye lids he knew that all too well. Had spent countless sleepless nights thinking of those questions with out getting anywhere. He knew he would not find any answers at the moment.

So trying once again and hoping he wouldn't dream again. He tuned to his side and willed himself to sleep. His body needed rest and so did his mind. Tomorrow or later today didn't matter he would mull about his dreams and the questions they brought, but he knew finding an answer to those question was too much to hope for.

Perhaps wishing smaller would help, like maybe hoping to see Sora again soon. He scoffed mentally. He wasn't that lucky. It was more likely his dream had been a premonition and he would be hit by a car again. Yep that sounded about right. He chuckled low in his throat.

He knew he needed sleep when thoughts of an impending horrible doomed became funny. Besides he was not an optimists at three in the morning. After a few hours of sleep definitely. And so he slept tomorrow he would think.

/CHAPTER END/

Cardel: I really love this story.

Jin: For once I have to agree. The angst it's just beautiful

Demak : Whatever

Cardel: I just really wish I had more time to update but I try. Right now I'm on Christmas break yay! No classes until January the ninth

Jin: Since when do you like Christmas

Cardel: I said Christmas break, it'll hopefully give me time for another update.

Demak: /scoff/ Right.

Cardel: Shut up and aren't you always on my side?

Demak: Not when you do angst.

Jin: It could be words we could have Riku totally mental and suicidal with a liking for cutting or

Cardel: Alright I think he gets it. Now to the readers thanks for being so patient and I know this chapter didn't really answer any questions but I hope you still like it. Well happy holidays

Damak: Merry Christmas!

Jin: ……..