A/N here's the next chapter. I lost all of my stories when the pc took a major nose dive so am working on copying them back from the net. Anyhow, I hope you like this twist that I've thrown in. My other stories will be updated very soon, sorry for the delay.
Chapter 18
Willow felt relaxed in Harmony's embrace immediately. As the vampire placed her lips on Willow's, Willow knew that this was not how things should be going. The two had parted ways on a not so good note a few days ago and things should be discussed. As her mouth welcomed the kiss from the vampire, she tried to pull away. "Wait," she managed to get out in between kisses. "We can't do things like this Harmony."
The vampire knew that Willow was serious even if she was enjoying the contact. She withdrew her lips from Willow's and looked into her eyes. "Why didn't you leave a message Willow?" The vampire asked with a desire-filled look in her eyes. "You give off such confusing signals that I have no idea what you want but I'm here yet again to find out."
"I don't know what I want anymore Harmony. I know what I should do but I can't get you out of my head." A tear escaped Willow's eye before she could stop it. "Dani has been there for me and I know that she would be good for me. The problem is that I can't go with her until I get what I feel for you figured out. I don't even know if I could go with her once I figure it out because I know that there is a part of me that wants to be with you. There is an attraction for Dani but I have to figure out what is real and is infatuation before I decide."
"I watched Dani comforting you at the funeral before I left Willow." Harmony said as she wiped the tears from Willow's cheek. "You said that you wanted to move on and I was trying to let you do that." The vampire's desire for contact hadn't faltered in the least and she instinctively began kissing Willow again after she finished speaking.
Willow knew that this was wrong in every sense of the word and that the two needed to settle things once and for all but she never had much will power where the vampire was concerned. As her brain was telling her to stop, her body was reacting to Harmony's touch and the two were in a heavy make out session before she realized it. She knew that she should stop as Harmony eased her back on the bed and began a trail of kisses down her stomach. She knew that she should stop and force the vampire to talk or end things as the demon won control over the blonde. She knew that it was futile however, as her body responded heartily to Harmony's advances.
"What the hell is going on here?" Kennedy questioned in a shouting voice and jerked the vampire to the floor before the two realized that they had been interrupted. "I thought you were out of her life you bitch!"
Harmony stood up quickly and looked Kennedy in the eyes. "Obviously I'm not, what's your excuse for coming in here?"
"We had been discussing our relationship if you must know!" Kennedy shouted angrily and punched Harmony in the nose.
The vampire took a quick glance at her nose, which gave Kennedy time to further her attack. She shoved her against the wall but Harmony recovered quickly. She tripped the slayer up and she knocked Willow's nightstand over.
"What the devil is going on in here?" Dani asked as she entered the room. She quickly went to Willow's side and looked at her. She wanted to act in the same manner that Kennedy was behaving but knew that it wouldn't help her case with the redhead.
"Hey," Faith shouted as she came into the room. "Red, what's up with these two?" She asked and separated the two women.
"Willow and I spent the day talking about us and this creature comes in here and is trying to screw it all up!" Kennedy snapped angrily.
"If she wanted you she wouldn't be making out with me." Harmony said calmly as she eyed Dani who was trying to keep Willow relaxed.
"If you cared anything for Willow, you would come here to talk to her about how she is doing. It looks more like you came here for a quick tumble in the sheets!" Kennedy bellowed out as Faith held her back.
"I need to talk to Buffy." Willow said and quickly stood up.
"Wait Willow," Dani put a hand on the redhead's arm. "Maybe a walk would do you some good right now. We can come back and talk to Buffy. I think that you need to clear your head."
"Willow, if you want to talk I can do that." Harmony said softly and moved beside the redhead. "Are you truly considering getting back with that bitch? There are several people who have treated you with more respect then she ever thought of."
Willow looked at Harmony sadly. There were so many things that she needed answers to and most of them involved the vampire. "Leave us so that we can talk," she said and motioned her arm towards the door. "I don't want any more of this fighting because I've seen enough childish behavior to last me a lifetime."
"Let's motor," Faith said to the two slayers and shoved them out the door. She feared that this battle wasn't over by a long shot and that it could get very ugly. She smirked at the notion of if she had got involved with Willow back in their school days, none of this would be happening.
Harmony looked at Willow questioningly. She was both sexually and mentally frustrated by this point and wondered if maybe she should collect Sarah and get out of dodge. "Willow, I don't know what more I can say to you. I have been fully honest as to my feelings for you. I have told you what I can and cannot do but you still give me these mixed signals. I can't pretend to be something that I'm not but at least I have been totally honest with you."
"I'm scared to let myself be with you Harmony," Willow said and sank back on her bed. "I'm afraid that you really don't care for me for more then just a fling. I'm afraid that you will ditch me and go off on some evil plot and I'm afraid that you will take my feelings lightly because you have no soul. Most of all, I'm afraid that you will be staked in an instant and be gone. I couldn't handle the loss of someone else that I cared about."
Harmony put her arms around the sobbing redhead and held her close. "Any one of us could die in an instant Willow. There is nothing that I can do about that aspect of life. I didn't ask to be this way but I am and I have to make the best of it. If you want the easy road go with Dani because I know that she would take good care of you. If you want to follow your heart, come with me because I believe that is where I am. There is a reason that you called me late at night and not Dani or Kennedy Willow."
Willow looked into the eyes of the blonde vampire and knew that she was right. Dani had stood by her faithfully through all of this drama of late and done everything that a lover should. The one thing that Dani did wrong that Harmony did not do was keep a huge secret from her. That fact often crept up in Willow's mind. There was also the fact that when Dani had finished comforting for the night and it came time to do the things that lovers did, Harmony was the one on Willow's brain. "I think that I need to talk to Buffy Harmony. Is that all right?"
"Of course it's all right Willow." The vampire answered and kissed the redhead. "I know that your friends don't want you with me and especially Buffy but, remember something Willow. The talk we had about doing something for you rather than other people, I hope that you do it Willow."
The vampire kissed Willow several more times and Willow responded eagerly. "Before I got turned, I only wanted to be happy Willow. I wanted a good life and for someone to love me for who I was. I hope that I can still have that even though I have many faults because of the fact that I have no soul." Having said that, Harmony stood up and left the room.
- - -
If one went into Buffy's room and watched the slayer lying motionless on the bed, they would have no clue as to what was happening with her mind. She was in a struggle to wake up and stay asleep due to the events that had recently transpired. It was as if her mind was at a crossroads and she could not make a move one way or the other. There was a huge roadblock there and she couldn't get around it no matter how she struggled within herself.
She saw herself in a clearing of trees and could hear the birds chirping happily. She then saw a figure coming towards her and knew that it was Tara. She couldn't make a move to approach the figure just as she couldn't move away from it.
"Buffy," Tara said softly and touched the slayer's hand. "You've got to let go of this guilt because it's not your fault. You had no way of knowing what was going on with Tracy or the first slayer until it was revealed. This was a tough one to solve and you need to be thankful that it was solved in time rather than not at all."
"I can't believe that I allowed my physical attraction feelings to get in the way of me figuring things out again. I could have caused the murders of all my friends Tara." Buffy said in a tired voice that seemed frail and faint. "I should have told Willow and maybe we could have sorted it out and dealt with it in a better way."
"It was dealt with in the right way by those who did have a hunch as to something being amiss Buffy." Tara said in the most soothing voice that she could muster. "Listen, you weren't totally wrong Buffy. Before Tara's death was activated by someone, Tracy had no clue that she was evil. The evil part of the soul had to go through this plotted out event in order to come to be what it had came here for. You were attracted to the good qualities of Tracy, the qualities that she displayed before her accident."
Buffy's hands jerked as Willow walked into the room. "Her accident you say? Does that mean that she is not dead?"
"That is correct Buffy but the two halves of the soul were merged as one. Her purpose was to destroy the slayer line, control the demon world and take Willow out as revenge on the good half of the soul." Tara explained but knew that Buffy was not fully listening to her, as the slayer's eyes opened and her image disappeared.
As Willow walked into Buffy's room with hopes of talking this out on her own, she got a surprise when she saw the slayer's hands jerk. As Buffy opened her eyes, the tears fell down Willow's cheeks for the umpteenth time that day. "Buffy, I didn't think that you would ever wake up!" Willow said excitedly and gingerly hugged the slayer.
"What happened?" Buffy asked and stretched her sore extremities. "I don't remember anything but me not being able to wake up and then I saw Tara. She talked to me Willow and she is such a wonderful soul."
Willow couldn't figure out why Buffy had said that but couldn't agree more. "I came in here to talk to you about my trivial love life but that will have to wait." Willow smiled and hugged her friend again. "I'm going to go tell everyone that you are awake and we can have a celebration."
Buffy wanted to do her own thing and quickly. She remembered that Tara had told her Tracy was alive and wanted to go see that detective who she said was her uncle. She was glad that willow didn't want to talk just now because she wanted to find out what she could do about Tracy. Her attraction was huge for this woman and the notion that Tracy wouldn't know her didn't even cross her mind. "There is something that I need to do first Will." Buffy said and slowly stood up to head into the bathroom.
Willow had got the vibe that Buffy was in the mode of putting herself first and that bothered her. It had happened back when she was with Riley and Willow hoped to never see that side of her friend again. This was important to her friends and especially Dawn but Buffy was totally neglecting to think about them. "Do you realize how long you have been in this room and non-responsive Buffy?" Willow questioned with a little more irritation in her voice then she had wanted to use.
Buffy stopped dead in her tracks and slapped herself on the forehead. "You're right," she made a pouty face and walked back to her friend. "I can do my thing later, I'm sorry Will."
"What you want to do is important too Buffy but there are a lot of people out there who have almost gone insane with worry over you. I think that we should do this first." Willow hugged her friend happily and stood up to go tell the gang the good news. "I'm so glad that you're going to be all right Buffy." Willow said without noticing the strange look on Buffy's face.