He could hear the soft beeping of a heart monitor in the distance, it felt as if it was miles away. When Danny tried to move his hands it felt like there was a weight on them, as if being pushed down to the bed. There was something in his throat but he was too tired and too weak to fight it. His eyes fluttered but refused to open. Everything was numb, even the horrific pain felt like it didn't belong to him, as if it was being laid on top of him. His fingers moved slightly and he felt something squeezing them, it felt good. His mind raced, but the only thing he could think of is Lindsay. He calmed his body down whenever he thought of her beautiful chest nut hair and brown eyes. He wanted to wake up and hold her face in his hands and kiss her. He needed to. Danny could hear voices but everything sounded as if they were talking into a tunnel. "Flack, he's moving his hand? I can feel him moving. Stevens said he should be sedated for at least another 12 hours, he shouldn't be waking up yet." Lindsay had a sound of surprise in her tone. "Come on D, let us know you're in there. Squeeze my hand buddy?" Flack said in a low tone.
Danny heard him and used off of the energy he had, which was not a lot, and squeezed his left hand. He felt someone squeezing back, and he felt safe again. Just knowing someone was with him made him feel whole again, even though he was in pieces, and no one could help him.
"That a boy. Come back to us Danny." Flack said in an encouraging voice.
"Flack I'm going to get a nurse." Lindsay said with impatience in her voice.
"Ok, I'll stay with him."
Danny sat with Flack hand in his, with only the sound of the machines breathing for him and keeping him alive. He needed to wake up but it was as if the weight of the world was waiting on him, fighting him to protest. So he waited, and let him body stay calm.
"Excuse me?" Lindsay stood at the nurse station waiting for someone to come and help her. "Excuse, me? Anyone here?" Finally a young blond nurse, named Pam, came to the station and gave Lindsay a warm smile. "How's it going Lindsay?" Pam said. After being here as long as Danny was, Lindsay became friends with most of the nurses on his floor. "Hey, ummm Danny is waking up and from what Stevens said, he shouldn't be? Can you call him?"
Pam knew Lindsay was under stress and she was worried about her health and the health of her baby.
"It's okay, apparently his sedatives have run off a little too fast. I can give him another round in about 20 minutes." She said as she went over Danny chart.
"No, no, no. If he wakes up and is in pain," Lindsay stopped and took a deep breath, "he could be stressed... and..." Lindsay squeezed her eyes shut, and took a long breath.
"Lindsay? Hun, whats going on?" Pam took Lindsay by her arm and walked her over to a chair in the hall way.
"I... I don't know. I'm out of breath all of a sudden, and dizzy. I think I should just sit down. Can you check on Danny?" Lindsay still even in her discomfort, had Danny on her mind.
"I'll send Becky in to give him his meds... talk to me? When did this start?" Pam jumped right into nursing mode, and took out her stethiscope and started listening to her breathing. "When was the last time you ate? Or had a long night sleep?" Lindsay looked up and her breathing heavy and looking confused.
"I don't know if you can tell? But I haven't had a lot of time for that. Danny is dying. I... deep breath ...don't exactly have... deep breath... time to.. deep breath... God what is wrong with me?" Pam got up and went to the nurses station and got a wheel chair to bring Lindsay into a exam room. She took Lindsay's arm to help her up when she noticed blood on the front of Lindsay's pants. "Hun, I don't want you to worry you, but how far along are you?"
Lindsay looked up at her with a surprise look on her face. "Just a little over three months, why?" Instinctively Lindsay put and hand on her belly. She had some aching in her lower abdomen all morning, but she just thought it was a stomach ache.
"Lindsay, you have some bleeding. We're going to do an ultra sound and see what's going on." Pam's voice was low and comforting.
"Oh god, I had no... Oh..." Lindsay suddenly felt sick. Her breathing was hitched and she had to empty her stomach. She leaned forward in the wheel chair and the contents of her stomach emptied onto the hospital floor.
Pam called for help from the nearest Doctor and they lifted Lindsay onto a the bed in the exam room. "Lindsay, I need you to try and relax for me ok? I'm Doctor Holmes." The room was spinning above Lindsay doctors and nurses hovered above her. The saw the curtain close as nurses began to undress her. She felt the cold stethiscope touch her chest and then a warm jell on her lower abdomen.
"Ok, looks like shes at about six-teen weeks. This baby is stressed. Lets get her on a banana bag." the doctor ordered while looking at Lindsay's ultrasound.
"Pam? Is my baby okay?" Lindsay said as she placed an oxygen mask over Lindsay's face.
"Yeah, the baby seems to be okay. It's you we're worried about."
"Looks like a broken blood vessel is the reason for this bleeding. Don't worry Lindsay we're not going to use the 'M' word. We are just going to run some tests to be sure. Have you been taking you're prenadel vitamins?"
Lindsay suddenly felt increasing tired and shook her head. "Danny... did someone get Danny his medication? He needs it." Lindsay felt sick with worry, someone had to be helping Danny. He can't wake up yet, he isn't strong enough.
"Who is Danny?" Dr. Holmes asked in confusion.
"He is the cop that was shot about a six weeks ago, he had surgery yesterday because of infection. They are engaged." Pam said as Lindsay squeezed her hand. She was terrified, she needed to relax or the baby was going to suffer. She took a deep breath and looked to Pam to explain what was happening with Danny.
"Danny is being taken care of, I just need you to think of your baby and yourself right now. Can you do that for me? You are extremely dehydrated and you're body is fighting with you right now. Just relax for a bit and I will personally go and check on Danny for you." Lindsay's eyes were flickering. Her exhaustion had caught up with her by force and she let her eyes close, and soon she was asleep and the last thing she heard was the sound of her heart monitor beeping at a soothing pace.