Well, let me warn you now.

This chapter is really melodramatic. And I mean Mills and Boon melodramatic. So I apologise now, but I have to be honest. I love writing melodramatic romance. So we're probably going to get a bit of it happening haha. I can probably attribute it to the fact I've been listening to one of my old Dashboard Confessional CDs all day and all they sing about is love. I'm seriously considering a songfic chapter soon hey haha.

Anyway.

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Chapter Five

Klara sat at the back of Transfiguration, watching Sirius and James as they worked, whispering to one another and stifling laughs. Lily had her head down next to her, and was deep in note taking. A week had passed since the incident with Sirius on the tower, and they hadn't spoken since. He just watched her, and she him. If they ever caught each other's gaze, what ensued was an intense staring contest that left Klara unable to concentrate on anything else for the rest of the day. He haunted her dreams and her thoughts and even her bloody common room. She couldn't get away from him. She wasn't sure if it was worse when they were just watching each other, or when he was with Anna. She had always felt a sort of distant dislike for the overly happy girl, just simply because she was too nice, but now it had extended to a river of deep jealousy. She used to wonder what a nice girl like Anna was doing with a prat like Sirius, but now that she was watching Anna's behaviour almost as closely as she was watching Sirius', she had begun to wonder what a deep person like Sirius was doing with an idiot like Anna. Sure, she was a nice girl. But Jesus, what a simpleton. In the last three days that she had sat in Gryffindor common room, she had not spoken a word about anything other than whether she would dye her hair brown, what new dress robes were in fashion, and whole lot of other pointless crap. Klara couldn't believe it. Her life seemed so perfect. She didn't have the weight of her mother's chest on her shoulders, nor the fatal attraction to someone she had once considered an enemy. Klara banged her forehead onto the desk, and Lily raised a quizzical eyebrow at her best friend.

"Klara, what are you doing?" She whispered, "McGonagall is looking at you!"

"Lily," She whispered, "I'm just so tired."

Lily's eyes softened, "We're all tired, Klara."

"I just want to go back in time and erase everything," She whispered, "I just want to change it all."

"Miss Evans and Miss Pernondi, please be quiet and sit up."

"Yes, Professor," Murmured Lily, squeezing Klara's hand under the desk.

Klara sat up, and Sirius had turned to look at her. He met her gaze and the look he gave her melted her. It was something between concerned and 'come-hither' and she wanted him so badly. But she knew it was stupid. He had shown an interest, but he was off limits. He was dating someone else, and until they broke up, she wouldn't have anything to do with him. She couldn't stand the idea of being the 'other woman'. Just that moment the other night on the astronomy tower made her insides squirm with guilt. But he was looking at her with those grey eyes, and she just wanted him so much that it hurt. She couldn't understand where any of this came from. Oh sure, she had always been able to see he was attractive, but she'd never felt it, not like this. She had a suspicion it had begun in that first, fateful lesson in Charms when he had come into the room, his face so much thinner and paler than she had ever seen it, his hair longer, brushing his collar. Perhaps it was the slightly hollow cheeks, and the way his eyes had been like storms. He had changed, but it suited him, made him more mysterious. He looked older, more serious somehow. His shoulders had broadened, as if he had needed more room to carry his burdens. She had known as soon as she felt the swooping sensation in her stomach that things had changed between them. She grimaced, and tried to catch up with the note taking. She felt like vomiting, thinking poetic, lovey-dovey thoughts about Sirius Black, but she couldn't help it. She just couldn't bloody help it. He had sat down next to her in Charms and not uttered a word, and she had glanced at him shyly through her hair the whole lesson and he hadn't even noticed.

She still hadn't been brave enough to re-open her mother's chest again. She badly wanted to read the journal, but was unsure. If something else happened, she would be hard pressed to explain to everyone what it was. The class went slowly, and when it ended, Klara and Lily walked towards the Great Hall for lunch. Klara was reluctant to speak and Lily didn't push her. She knew the 'I don't want to talk about it' look Klara had on her face all too well to push her into talking. James, Sirius, Remus and Peter arrived at the table, pushing each other and laughing. Klara shut her eyes and ignored their laughter,

"Klara, what's wrong with you?" Lily whispered, pushing her face close to her friends

"Oh Lily, I don't even know anymore." She threw down her knife and fork, "I'm going to the library. I'll see you in charms." And then she ran for it.

"Klara! Come back!" Lily called, "Klara!"

But she didn't listen. Sirius watched her go, set his face, and took off after her.

Klara was running. Her bag was banging against her hip, and before she realised it, she was outside the castle, and past the lake, and near the forest

"Klara!" A voice called out, "Where the hell are you going?"

She stopped, her nerves standing on end. She spun and was faced with Sirius who was panting from exertion.

"Just get away from me!" She yelled at him, "Just get the hell out of my head, and my classes, and my dreams and my life!"

"I can't," he said, "I just, can't. I don't know what the hell it is about you, but I can't. I can't leave you alone. I watch you when you walk, and when you're writing notes in class, and when you're trying to study, and when you're laughing with Lily and when everything! I count the hours until Charms, when I can sit next to you, and watch you from such a close range. I wait for the way you throw your fringe out of your face; because that's the only time you'll look at me properly." He took her face in his hands, and her breath caught in her throat. He stared down at her with so much intensity his eyes were almost silver, "And now, I'm going to kiss you. I'm going to kiss you so hard that it will bruise, but if I don't, I think I'll lose my mind."

"Sirius," She said desperately, "You're with Anna. What the hell do you want from me?"

"I just want you. I think it's all I've ever really wanted."

She began to protest. He didn't listen, he just kissed her. She tried to hit him, but gave up. It was futile. She wanted him too badly. She wrapped her hands in the collar of his uniform and kissed back.

And that's when the affair started.

Yes, i know, it's shorter than the others. But hey, it was really just to set up for chapter 6, and if i'd put them together they'd have been too long. that is all.