AN: So here is the next chapter. I got some reviews saying that it would be better if I wrote this story in past tense so I wrote this chapter in past tense. Please tell me which option is better…

3. Processing

Rory's eyes popped open but all she was able to say was "Oh my god".

Lisa sat patiently waiting for Rory to continue. She knew that this realisation was a lot to process and Rory needed some time to get her thoughts together.

Suddenly Rory stood up and started pacing. She mumbled something but Lisa couldn't understand what she was saying.

"Rory honey, calm down." Lisa tried to tell her.

"Calm down! How can I calm down when I realise that I have ruined my life. I had a chance to happiness. I had a chance to get all that I imagined while lying on that couch. But no! I was so stupid that I turned him down." Rory yelled and couldn't help the tears that escaped from her eyes.

"The situation is not that desperate" Lisa said with calming voice.

"But it is! You weren't there when I handed the ring box back to him. You didn't see his face when I rejected him. He looked so… I can't even describe it. He will never wanna have anything to do with me. I have hurt him too deeply. God I'm stupid!" Rory ranted and started hitting her head to the wall.

Lisa quickly went to her to prevent her from hurting herself. She led her to the couch and made her sat down.

"We don't want you to have a bruised face when you go and get your man back." Lisa said to Rory with a smile.

"He won't want me back. Didn't you listen any of what I said." Rory said with sad voice.

"I did listen. And now you will listen to me. What you have told me about your relationship tells me that what you had was once-in-a-life-time kind of love." Lisa told Rory.

"Thanks for reminding me that I have lost the love-of-my life." Rory interrupted.

"You haven't lost him because neither of you can have what you had together with anyone else. And after you have been with your soul mate, you can't be happy with anyone else." Lisa explained.

"Are you quoting some harlequin book or something? Because I don't think that's gonna solve my problem." Rory said.

"I'm not quoting anything. I'm just saying that neither of you can move on because what you had was bigger than life." Lisa answered.

"How do you know that Logan hasn't moved on already? He could be dating some girl. Or even worse: many girls." Rory said and felt disgusted by the thought of Logan being a playboy again.

"If he was seeing some one, I think I would have seen the girl. Logan lives right next to me. I have only seen one girl with him since he moved in that house and it was his sister. Or that's what he told me when I asked about the pretty girl who was visiting him." Lisa told Rory.

"Honor was here? I haven't seen her after…" Rory started but couldn't finish the sentence with the word break-up.

"She seemed like a lovely girl. So my point is that there haven't been any girls in his house so that means that there is no girl in his life." Lisa said.

"I wasn't so sure about that. Like I told you, before we met he was a playboy. He had a new girl almost every night. He never took them into his place because he didn't want to spend whole the night with them since it would have led to an awkward morning. I was the first girl he ever spent the whole night with. So if he went back to his old ways, he wouldn't bring girls to his house." Rory explained.

"Do you really think that he could go back to that lifestyle after what you two had?" Lisa asked.

Rory didn't know what to say. She remembered how he reacted to their first break-up: by sleeping with almost an entire wedding party. But she also remembered how he told her afterwards that he did it to fill the emptiness that Rory had left. Which ended up being impossible. So he went after Rory and did anything to get her back.

"So what do I do now?" Rory asked finally.

"Now you think of ways to show Logan that you want him back. You have to show that you want him and you're here to stay." Lisa told her. "I have to go but we talk more tomorrow. Okay?"

"Yeah. Thanks for everything."

"You're welcome honey." Lisa said with a smile before she left a confused Rory by herself.

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Logan was sitting in his back yard staring the famous avocado tree. This house was supposed to be a real home. But it wasn't. It's just a house: four walls and a roof. It lacked the most important thing. It lacked Rory.

Logan tried not to think about her but it was impossible. There was too much things that reminded him of her. He missed so many things about her. Especially her outlook of life. She was able to see little everyday things in a magical light and she made him see things in a new way.

After their break-up he kept hoping that someday she would appear in his door saying that she changed her mind about the marriage proposal. But she never came. After time went by he stopped hoping for something that obviously wasn't going to happen.

He has thought a lot about what she said when she turned him down. He always believed that he was very supportive to Rory and all her dreams but apparently he wasn't if Rory thought that marrying him was the same as being locked in a closed.

He knew that asking Rory to move to other side of the country was a lot to ask. But it didn't mean that Rory couldn't have made her dreams come true. There were a lot of good newspapers in San Francisco and Rory had applied for some of them even before he got his new job.

He couldn't help but think that all those reasons she gave him where excuses and the real reason was that she didn't want to marry him. She finally had realised that she could do so much better than him.

He didn't even know anymore what he would say to her if she came to him. Somewhere deep down he was also mad at her. First she showed him what was like to be really happy and loved unconditionally. And then she took all that away from him. She literally broke his heart.

After their break-up he has drowned himself to his new job. It was all he has left. Colin and Finn were in other side of the country working for their family companies. Honor was pregnant for her first child and Logan didn't want her to worry for him in that state. He hasn't really reconnected with his family after leaving the family business. And what came to girls and dating… He just wasn't able to start dating again. After what he had with Rory everything else just felt so superficial. He doubted that there could be a girl who could take Rory's place and he couldn't go back to casual dating.

"If only Rory had said yes everything would be different in my life right now…" He thought.

A lonely tear fell down his cheek but he angrily wiped it away.