6. Living like a monk

Monday morning Logan was at his office trying to get some work done but a certain brunette was disturbing his concentration. He knew he needed to decide whether or not to meet her. He wanted to talk to someone about the situation and hear someone else's opinion but he didn't know who to talk to. He had some "friends" in San Francisco" but they weren't close enough for him to confide in with so private thing. He considered calling to Honor but decided against it. She was so hormonal these days that her opinion wouldn't really have been rational. More like emotional.

After contemplating his options he dialled a familiar number which he hadn't used a lot for a while.

"Hello" A voice answered.

"Hi Colin. It's Logan."

"Hi man. It's been while."

"Yes it has. Did I call on bad time?"

"Not at all. How have you been?"

"Fine. A little lonely but otherwise fine. And you?"

"Good. Finn has been bugging me to spend time with him so if you're lonely I can send him to you. But it's a no-right-to-return kind of delivery."

Logan laughed before answering. "Well if I become totally desperate I will call you otherwise you can have him."

"Did you have some particular reason for this call or did you just call to chat?" Colin asked.

Logan took a deep breath. "I need your advice about something."

"Okay. Tell me."

"You remember how things ended up between Rory and I last spring?" Logan started.

"Yeah. I do remember."

"I met her last Friday. I don't remember anything about the meeting because I was kind of drunk but she was there."

"How can you be sure if you don't remember?"

"She left me a letter. She lives here now and wants to see me but I'm not sure that's a good idea."

"Why does she want to see you?" Colin asked.

"I don't know. Her letter was short. It says she wants to meet me and if I don't contact her, she will come after me and stalk me until I talk to her." Logan answered.

"Did she say what she wants to talk to you about?"

"No and that's the problem. She said she misses me so that indicates that she maybe wants to start dating again or something like that. But she also said that she wants to talk because things ended so suddenly between us and we didn't really talk in the end. That could indicate that she wants to have a better break-up scene. Maybe she's seeing someone and wants a closure or something." Logan explained.

"Whoa. I think you're reading way too much from the letter."

"If you were in my situation, would you meet her?"

Colin was silent for a while. "I don't know. It depends on in what so many things that only you can know."

"Come on Colin. That doesn't help me at all. I really don't know what to do and I need your advice." Logan pleaded.

"I'm sorry but I can't give you a straight answer but I can help you to figure out what you want to do." Colin said.

"Okay. How can you help me with that?"

"I ask you questions and you answer as truthfully as you can. Okay?"

"Okay."

"Are you seeing someone at the moment?"

"No."

"Have you dated after Rory?"

"No."

"Not even casually?" Colin asked because he was curious and Logan living like a monk sounded unbelievable.

"Not even casually." Logan admitted.

"Vow. I never thought I would see the day Logan Huntzberger lives in a celibate." Colin couldn't help but comment.

"I can't see how you making fun of my non-existing sex life is helping me to figure what to do with Rory."

"Sorry. I just couldn't pass that one without mocking a little. But let's continue. Do you still wish that you and Rory would get back together?"

"Sometimes yes. But she said some things when we broke up that hurt me a lot and also made me question if I'm good enough for her. I'm not sure if we can be like we use to be after everything that has happened."

"Next one is the most important question. Do you think that if you don't meet her, you can live your life without wondering what could have happened?"

"I think maybe… " Logan started.

"It's a yes-or-no question. And remember: be honest to yourself." Colin interrupted. "So yes or no? Can you live your life without wondering what if?"

Logan was quiet for a while before answering. "No"

"Then I think you should meet her. Maybe she does want to get back together and maybe not but you need to know. It seems to me like you can't move on before you are sure things are over between you and Rory for good."

"You're right. I should meet her." Logan admitted.

"I got to go but keep me updated or I send Finn there to snoop around." Colin said.

"I got to get back to work too. Thanks man. This really helped. If you and Finn are free sometime, you could come to visit me." Logan suggested. He had missed having his best friends around.

"We'll think about that. Bye Logan"

"Bye" Logan said and hung up.

All he had to do now was to contact her. But how?

---------------------------------------------------

Rory was feeling restless. She was waiting for hearing from Logan. It had already been two days since Logan must have found her letter. She kept her cell with her all the time so that she wouldn't miss his call and she checked her e-mail once every hour. She knew it was kind of pathetic but couldn't really help it. She was too anxious.

She was in the middle of a staring competition with her cell when it beeped to inform that she had a new message. Quickly she took the cell in her hand and pressed the button to read the message.

It was from him. Her heart started beating faster.

Fine let's talk. Tomorrow at 5 pm the little coffee house called Café Sun. Okay? -Logan

He agreed to meet her. She was so happy. His message was somehow cold and distant but she didn't care. She had a chance to talk to him. To convince him that she wanted nothing more than to be with him. She sent him a message back.

It sounds great. I'll see you then. Thank you so much for agreeing to see me. -Rory