Love and Memories Part Deux

Summary: A direct continuation of Love and Memories Part One

Note: Forgive minor grammar/spelling mistakes. I wanted to put this out fast.

Scott wasted no time, literally, to consummate the marriage. Instead of "kissing the bride," he rushed Jean out of the chapel into the honeymoon suite that was part of their wedding package. He gave no time for Jean to think or recuperate as he was all over her as soon as they entered the room.

Jean woke up a few hours later. She awakened to the rhythmic sounds of Scott's breathing. She rested her head back on Scott's chest as her free hand roamed Scott's sculpted stomach. She was tired and sore, but she didn't care. She looked up and stared back Scott. He looked so peaceful, Jean relished the moment. She was still in shock, as she saw the gold band on her finger.

Scott woke up a short time later. "Morning.." he said to Jean.

"Morning?"

"Oh.. good evening."

"Mrs. Scott Summers…Mrs. Jean Grey-Summers… Dr. Jean Grey-Summers.. Dr. Summers…. What the hell did hell did we do?" Jean asked sarcastically to Scott.

"I think I owe you an apology." Scott said bluntly.

She touched his face. "I understand.. you've been through so much .."

"I don't think you understand .. I want to apologize for the wedding."

"Scott.. you're .. you're right I don't understand."

"I'm sorry for rushing you into it ..You see. I knew who I was marrying .. I know you Jean.. sure you gotten older and changed a little over the past 2 years but you're .. you're still the same .. I am not.. its pretty brave of you to marry a stranger.."

Jean was suddenly getting worried. Scott rolled over and was now on top of her and continued to talk in calm, but colder manner.

Scott remained on top of her, inches from her face. Jean was stunned and couldn't move, couldn't respond.

"When I died in your arms that day.. I thought of the sweet release it would give me.. but I was wrong.. there was no light … there wasn't even a tunnel.. I woke up already dead .. but the pain remained ... and that's when I first realized that I hate you .."

Jean felt very worried now. Jean was trying to scan his mind to see what he was up to, but she got nothing. The words Scott was saying sent chills through her body. She couldn't believe what he was saying. She had her TK on stand by in case she needed it. Scott continued to talk.

".. I thought of you when I was held captive .. I tried to think of the good times.. our first kiss.. our first date but every time I thought of you .. I just felt pain and heartbreak and that's how I got through those years of torture.. to know that the pain they inflicted on me was nothing to the pain that you gave to me .. I know this is not exactly what you wanted to hear on our wedding night but it's the truth... and the other night when you were at the Lake House.. It actually felt good talking to you .. letting you know exactly what was going on with me… but you yelled back before you stormed out and that just made me angry and upset and I hated you more for making me feel that way.. I got so frustrated with it I took off on my bike and I ended up at your doorstep… and when I saw you … I really wanted to hurt you .. like how I did the other night but when I grabbed you .. I just .. I just wanted to kiss you .. and so I kissed you .. and when I touched you .. I wanted to keep touching .. and when I f you .. I kept on f you" Scott paused for a moment and Jean braced herself for what he might say.

"..So I'm sorry Jean for getting you into all this ..what's that saying .. 'keep your friends close and your enemies closer' .. you were my best and you are my worst enemy.. I'm never letting you go…"

"Scott." Jean managed to whisper. "You're scaring me.." She said, her voice cracking.

"I find that funny because you terrify me.."

"I terrify you .. I find that very hard to believe right now.."

Scott leaned in much closer now and their foreheads were touching each other. Jean flinched a little.

"I already told you how much you've hurt me." He said in a lower voice, almost a whisper. "You have no idea what power you have over me… I hate you for that too you know.. but you should never be scared of me .."

"Really.. why.. why is that?"

"Because as much as I hate you .. I love you more .. and it's because I love you so much that it hurts so much… so you can see why I you frighten me ..."

"You .. you love me?" Jean asked confused.

"Yes.. I do .. as much as I wished I didn't .. I do."

"But.. but everything you just said."

"You wanted to know what I went through .. what I'm going through .. there it is the unfiltered truth…. I … LOVE … YOU…" He kissed her on the lips. "There's a thin line between love and hate … and at times the lines seemed to be blurred… When I was being tortured, I thought of you because it would remind me that I've been through worse.. They took my soul from me but my feelings for you.. that will never go away despite everything that happened.. everything you did .. I still have and will always love you. ."

Jean started to tear. In that moment, she realized that everything he said was true, that he was able to hate her and love her all at the same time. She knew the pain he went through as a child, from losing his family, to be discarded by one foster home to another, the complete isolation he felt as a child, and the curse of his powers, and she could only imagine he went through the past two years. But of all those things, it was her that got to him the most. She felt horrible for what she's done to him and the fact that he still loves her, endears him more in her mind.

"Oh Scott.. they didn't kill your spirit.. they merely broke it.."

"You sound very sure of that."

"I am. You shouldn't apologize for the wedding today. It was unexpected .. and definitely rushed but I said 'I do' .. not you and despite what you told me before.. I knew that the Scott Summers I knew was still there.. and though you think he's gone .. he's not.. YOU are him.. you've been hurt too much.. and I'm sorry for that.. and that I love you, too.. so much."

They kissed again. "Thank you Scott for opening up to me.. the truth can be raw sometimes but I'm glad you didn't sugar coat it.."

"But there's still a lot you don't know about me.. of what happened and what I've been through."

"I don't care." Jean said. She sent him a message telepathically, "Let me in and let me decide."

"You're not going to like it.. it's pretty dark." He warned.

"I know."

He leaned in and gave her a kiss. His forehead touched hers once again and in an instant he opened up his mind to her. Jean was caught almost off guard by the rush of emotions. She got flashes of images of what he went through, being locked up, drugged up, beaten up, etc. The images were sparse and fuzzy but what she took most from the few seconds that Scott opened his mind up were the feelings. And dark didn't being to describe what she felt. She opened her eyes, filled with tears. Overwhelmed with emotions, she was shaking and couldn't stop crying.

Scott held her close and kissed the top of her head as she continued to weep. It took her a few minutes but she finally calmed down.

"Oh God.. Scott.. so much.. pain .. and suffering.. I can't.." Jean said but she started to cry again.

"It's okay.. I told you it wasn't pretty."

"No.. you're right and the fact that you.. you were able to go through that.. my God Scott.. all I can say is that I love you.."

"That's all I need." Scott answered back.

"Scott… there is one thing I haven't told you yet."

"Yeah?"

"With everything you've been through, we.. .we didn't want to make things more complicated for you.. we wanted to wait a little bit.. to let you get adjusted before we told you .. but you were honest with me .. so I'll be honest with you."

"What is it?"

"It's .. it's your brother Scott."

"My brother?" Scott said confused.

"He's alive.. Alex is alive."

To Be Continued…

Author's Note: The last few chapters were probably really confusing, so I hope this one cleared things up a bit more. It was my intentions from the get go that there will be a sudden 180 when it came to Scott and that out of the blue they would get married. I had Jean "ask" as a throw back to Uncanny X-Men 308. I hope in the context of the past three chapters, you can see why Scott's been the way he was. He's going through the motions and although this is somewhat based on the movies, I like to throw in things from the comics as well as the cartoons. Like in X-Men Evolution, Scott thought his brother dead from the plane crash. And Scott acting like a really big jerk sometimes is inspiration I drew from the whole merge with Apocalypse. So I hope you enjoy. The next chapter might be out pretty soon too, but expect a major slow down. As always, feedback is welcomed.