Specialist crimes and sacrifices
Chapter 2
The next day Phil arrived at work before Sam which was extremely rare, also taking into consideration the fact that he was late.
Sam pulled up about two minutes later. She got out of her car and slammed the door, not realising that Phil was standing by the door watching her.
"Problems Sam?"
"No not really." She sighed when she saw the look on Phil's face. "Well it's just Abi, she was going on about something this morning, but I wasn't really listening."
"Well was it something you were talking about last night?"
"I don't know, I got back late, I mean we talked about you getting that job at specialist crimes but I can't remember what she said, I guess I was too tired." She paused slightly, "Oh congratulations by the way." She feebly smiled, but Phil was unconvinced.
"Thanks." He said confused. "Are you sure there's nothing else?" he asked. He was hopeful, but Sam didn't notice. He wanted her to turn and ask him not to leave, and for her to say that she loves him, but deep down he knew that would never happen.
Phil's POV
Oh I can't believe I'm doing this.
I don't want to leave, but I can't stay either.
She'll never want to be with me. I love her so much. She knows that and she still doesn't want me so it's time for me to move on.
Who am I kidding, I'll never love anyone the way I love her.
I know I can't move on, but I can try.
Uh oh I think she's feeling really awkward now, I'd better change the subject.
"So what cases are you working on today?" it was a bit of a naff question and Phil knew it, but there were too many thoughts in his head for him to be able to say anything else.
"Erm I'm working on the Ray Moore case again." She knew he was desperately trying to change the subject, but she answered anyway.
Sam's POV
I want to tell him what's wrong, but I can't.
He's going and he's moved on, maybe I should do the same … but every time I look at him my heart melts and now it just hurts.
It hurts too much, I can't tell him how I feel now.
Would it even make a difference?
"Sam, are you coming into work?"
"Huh, sorry I'm just coming." There was obviously something on her mind and Phil desperately wanted to know what it was, but left it at that all the same.