Way to the Top

by FoxxFeather

[SxS] It was a lesson learnt in Syaoran's life not to judge a book by its cover. He enters the world of fashion and drama, a place where a man shouldn't be. He knew that when he sees his boss, a complete turn of events. Just read the reviews. [R]

10. The Insight

WAY TO THE TOP

By Freya-Wings

Chapter 10

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Chapter 10: The Insight

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At that moment in time, sakura wasn't sure why she was there in the first place. But she didn't think of why she would let him kiss her. It felt like revenge. It felt like guilt. It felt like she wanted to pass on her fear of confusion and hurt.

For that one second Yuuki touched her lips, he parted slightly, asking for permission. As if a strange feeling took over Sakura, before she knew what had happened, she kissed him back.

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Che giorno è

che mese è

questo orologio sembra che si sia fermato

non riesco a continuare

ne' a stare fermo

Ho perso così troppo tempo

Perchè questo è io e te e tutte le persone

con nulla da fare, nulla da perdere

questo è io e te e tutte le persone

e non so il perchè io non riesca a toglierti gli occhi di dosso

– You and me by Lifehouse (Spanish version)

Syaoran parted away from the warm embrace of the young woman in front of him. He looked into his bedroom because he thought he heard a noise.

'What was that?' he asked. The young woman shook her head and frowned, 'I don't know. Maybe it's the wind.'

Syaoran sighed, and thought better to ignore it. He looked back into her eyes and felt reassurance.

'I'm glad that you came,' Syaoran whispered to her and the young dark-haired woman smiled softly. 'It's a surprise to find you on my doorstep.'

'I needed to see how you were doing,' the raven haired voiced softly, a gentle whisper of the wind, 'you've been away for so long and I grew worried.'

Syaoran sniffed and looked down, 'I'm sorry, but I can't face him.'

The youthful breeze took her warm hands and placed it on Syaoran's. 'Syaoran, you had all the time in the world. You can't just escape everything and pretend it is okay,' she whispered to him.

Syaoran could not force himself to smile. Of all the things happening in his life presently, there must be another spice added to this wholesome ingredient of disaster. He did not answer her and paused. He couldn't think nor did he want to. There was nothing sensible for him to adjust the rusted hinges of his life because he had no other elucidation to think of.

Syaoran only caught her eyes and muttered, 'please stay a little while longer.'

The raven sighed softly and smiled.

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Sakura was caught in an empty chamber of her imagination and couldn't get out. She had always thought twice before she made her decision. To be suffice and proficient was her main strength. It disappointed her that she wasn't able to control her uncontrollable flow of emotions.

Now Sakura was running away from the past as the blond man in front of her placed his hands on her shoulders and smoothly took her blazer top. He let it drop to the hard marble floor. Sakura only gave a blank stare and felt powerless to awaken herself from her troubled mind.

Yuuki kissed her exposed shoulders and breathed in the scent on the corners of her jaw. Sakura closed her eyes and felt her heart beat a little faster as Yuuki Edwards slowly placed his hands on her shoulders and caressed her back as it drifted slowly to the small of her back. Sakura started to breathe through her mouth as she felt his lips roaming about her face, her jaw, her cheeks and her nose until finally he stopped.

Sakura opened her eyes slowly and saw a pair of blue eyes, with a little hint of green from the yellow lights around them. Sakura couldn't swallow the gigantic knot in her throat. Instead, her eyes became unfocused as a few drops of tears fell from her green orbs.

Yuuki Edwards paused as he continued to look deep into her eyes.

What am I doing? Sakura began to think.

Why am I being like this?

Yuuki took one hand and wiped her tears away, softly caressing her cheek. 'Shush,' Yuuki shushed as he whispered to Sakura, 'just forget everything alright? It's all going to be okay…'

Sakura didn't respond. She couldn't assemble her brain operate, adjust the erroneous and fix them. All she could remember was the abrupt encounter of Yuuki's wet lips on her own.

It may just be revenge. It may just be retribution to her vulnerability. She wanted to mend her predicament and stop the obstruction before it got worse. It took her a few more seconds to realize, she had just made it worse.

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Tomoyo was worried.

'Tomoyo,' Tomoyo heard a voice behind her as she turned and faced a breathless Eriol, 'I can't find her. She's no where at her office, her apartment or her brother's house.'

Tomoyo's disquieting face turned to panic. 'I also checked her usual coffee house and Yukito's house but no sign of her anywhere. She wouldn't pick up her phone. Sakura never NOT pick up her phone.'

'Her cell?'

'You think I haven't done that already?'

Eriol cursed at the lamp post as they stood in the middle of a busy street. 'What are we suppose to do? She was with us a few hours ago but now she disappeared. I'm worried I really am—'

Eriol placed his hands on her shoulders and gave her a push of encouragement. 'Don't panic Tomoyo,' Eriol said in a low tone as he gave Tomoyo a small brush of reassurance, 'we'll find her. Don't worry.'

Tomoyo sighed and nod her head, 'yes, you're right. And I'm a panic person. You just hit a small button and it won't turn off.'

Eriol chuckled slightly. 'Hey, it's not time to joke around. Where else would Sakura go to…?

Tomoyo bit her lip and searched her already jumbled brain. She searched for some kind of pointers to find Sakura. A few seconds later, Tomoyo gasped.

'I forgot,' she breathed, '…Syaoran!'

Eriol frowned at first and then clapped his hands together, 'that's right. You're right. She might be there and even if she isn't we must let him know that we can't find her. Oh my god, yes, you are brilliant.' And with that Eriol took Tomoyo in his arms and kissed her hotly in the middle of the crowd.

Tomoyo parted and felt breathless as she stared at Eriol with flushed cheeks. 'Come on let's go,' Eriol smirked and took her hands. Tomoyo felt eased after his hot kiss and followed him with pink cheeks.

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The loud knock on Syaoran's door made him almost spill his coffee. He uttered a small curse and nodded apologetically to the dark haired woman who was sitting on the kitchen stool. 'Damn it, I'll get that in a sec,' Syaoran said, wiped his hands and walked to the door.

'Let me pour the coffee. Here,' the young woman offered and took charge of the coffee carafe.

When Syaoran opened the door, he was startled to find two breathless and flushed individuals. But what surprised him more was the combination of those two. 'Eriol? Tomoyo?'

Tomoyo walked into the room briskly and tore off her jacket, 'we don't have time to explain things. We need your help,' Tomoyo said as she looked at Syaoran.

Syaoran watched in a confused expression at Tomoyo and then he glanced at Eriol, which made him fidget. The both of them haven't yet made up on what happened yesterday and he wasn't sure meeting Eriol was a good thing.

'Listen,' Eriol started awkwardly, 'I'm sorry for yesterday, it was all a big misunderstanding.'

Syaoran gulped and bowed his head, 'I'm sorry for hitting you when you don't know what the real deal was.'

Both young men nodded foolishly, ignoring all this fight was not worth it.

Tomoyo smiled briefly, enjoying the two as they made up. Then snapped out of her thoughts and quickly explained the situation. Syaoran felt his heart tendered when Tomoyo explained Eriol's effort to go to Sakura's apartment and apologized. That was all he could do not to get mad at Eriol anymore.

'So you have no idea where she is now?' Syaoran frowned.

'So is this person you are talking about… Sakura Kinomoto, Syaoran's boss?' a voice interrupted behind them. When they turned around, they saw a beautiful young lady with long dark hair.

'Oh, I'm sorry Rae,' Syaoran nodded apologetically, 'this is Tomoyo. She's working partners with Sakura-san. And you know Eriol,' Syaoran nudged at Eriol. Eriol gave him a look, not wanting Tomoyo to know that he used to have a crush on Rae.

Rae walked forwards and gave Tomoyo a pleasant smile, 'hi, I'm Mei Lin Rae, Syaoran's half sister.'

Tomoyo beamed a little and smiled, 'hi Mei Lin. It's nice to meet you but we can't stay here long, we have something to do.'

'I'll go get my coat,' Syaoran stated.

'I'll help you,' Mei Lin offered as she set down the coffee.

'Do you know who she is or how she looks like?' Eriol asked and blushed when he noticed the intensifying eyes.

'I've seen her picture Eriol. Syaoran had explained everything to me,' Mei Lin said and looked at Eriol's flushed face. Tomoyo frowned at Eriol's change of attitude but didn't stress it.

'Come on, we'll spread out to different places. We might find her quicker that way,' Tomoyo said out loud and walked out of the room, followed by the still flushed Eriol, the stranger Mei Lin, and the worrying Syaoran.

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I would hold you in my arms

I would take the pain away

Thank you for all you've done

Forgive all your mistakes

There's nothing I wouldn't do

To hear your voice again

Sometimes I wanna call you

But I know you won't be there

I'm sorry for blaming you

For everything I just couldn't do

And I've hurt myself by hurting you

- Hurt by Christina Aguilera

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Rika was fumbling around with two bags of pasta in each hand, thinking which she should buy. Finally deciding to buy the ones that looked like 'pretty bows' to her, she glanced into her watch and realized she was late to meet up with her future husband. That's right, Rika giggled into the crowded alley of a grocery store, Rika was engaged.

Rika smiled to no one in particular and hummed a song while she paid for the items. Rika remembered that night to be warm and romantic. He had brought her flowers and they both had a romantic candlelight dinner. It was all too surreal.

Rika picked up her groceries and walked out of the shopping center. She was going to meet him today at the park. She would do anything to get his time, because he was so busy with work, he barely has the time to visit her.

Rika placed her groceries on a bench and sat down. There were small children playing with a ball as they laughed and yelled. Rika smiled to herself. Soon… soon I'll be able to have one.

The park was not as crowded as it used to be. There were people riding bicycles, walking their dogs, carrying a carriage for their baby to walk in the park. The soft wind blew and pieces of Sakura petals flew with the wind.

As Rika glanced around at the passer-bys, she noticed a familiar figure. Squinting her eyes to see better, she noticed that particular silhouette and golden brown hair. She looked at her watch again and decided to greet her.

As she approached, the young woman was leaning against a Sakura tree, the soft white and pink shaded the lady in red.

'Hello Sakura-san,' Rika greeted and the figure turned around.

Rika was stunned to see such defeated facial expression. He clothes were not neat and proper like she thought it would. Her face was a disaster, unlike the last time she saw Sakura. Rika dropped her grocery bags to the green grass and walked towards Sakura and held her hand. 'What's wrong? Are you okay?' Rika asked worryingly when she saw the large bags under Sakura's eyes. She had been crying.

'Oh Rika,' Sakura stammered, completely taken aback by her presence. Sakura cleared her throat and forced a smile, 'I'm alright. I'm just… here to look at the scenery.'

Sakura gave a nervous laugh but she knew it was useless. She couldn't hide her emotions anymore, now that she seemed to have destroyed the cold barrier of her heart. But Rika did not falter. She gave Sakura a deep look, as if giving her some comfort.

Sakura stopped smiling and sighed. 'I can't do this anymore Rika,' Sakura said in a broken and low voice, as if forcing her cries in, 'I'm confused. I thought I was going to do the stupidest mistake of my life.'

Rika gave her a small smile, as if understanding quietly just how much she knew what her dilemma was. Rika sighed and followed suit with Sakura and leaned back against the tree, '...I'm listening.'

Sakura pondered on the problem that lingered in her mind. She settled on her story as she begun to tell her dilemma to Rika, who was listening intently. The sun began to set when Sakura finished telling the story of what had happened at Yuuki's house.

'So you ran away from him?' Rika questioned Sakura, who now had dried her tears.

'Yes Rika, I told you I was about to make the biggest mistake of my life. Sleeping with Syaoran was also another drunken mistake, I don't want to repeat it again,' Sakura said and groaned as she took out another tissue from her small Yves Saint Laurent purse.

Rika gave a small giggle, 'I never thought I would say this but… I'm intimidated by you miss Kinomoto.'

Sakura glanced back at Rika with a confusing look. 'It's just that you have gained what you have through hard work and struggle. You have sacrificed your own happiness for the future of your company and you still have the strength to stop yourself from sleeping with Yuuki Edwards, the man you were supposedly betrothed to.'

Sakura looked down to the green grass that was lightly caressed by the soft wind. Sakura sighed and whispered along with the gentle wind, 'don't think too highly of me.'

Rika bit her lip, 'I don't think it's my place to say this but… can I offer you a piece of advice?'

Sakura chuckled lightly and nodded, watching Rika with her brilliant olive eyes.

'I think,' Rika started with a low voice, 'you should give yourself a chance to find the happiness that you've been seeking all this time. What made you happy? You've sacrificed yourself too much already, it's time to let the past go and open a door for another light to enter.'

Sakura made a small smile, 'thank you Rika. But I have already made my decision.'

Rika didn't say anything. She didn't sound as convinced as she thought she would. There was another part of Sakura that Rika could see where she was still pursuing her happiness. And yet her standpoint was to stay on the ground. She didn't want wings to bring her higher to the top.

A bird may love a fish… but where would they live?

Rika only sighed and joined Sakura as they both watched the sun disappear behind the clouds as the sky darkened and the sound of a distant rumble could be heard from afar.

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Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit

Sometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I miss

And it's so hard to say goodbye

When it comes to this, oooh

Would you tell me I was wrong?

Would you help me understand?

Are you looking down upon me?

Are you proud of who I am?

There's nothing I wouldn't do

To have just one more chance

To look into your eyes

And see you looking back

- Hurt by Christina Aguilera

Syaoran was troubled. He couldn't keep himself from being uneasy. Where is she? Where the fuck is she?

Syaoran swung his hand and crushed it into a lamp post nearby. He was standing in front of his apartment building. The sun was starting to fade and the sky had darkened by clouds forming a brilliant grey sky.

'Shit, Sakura, where the hell are you?' Syaoran wanted to scream out loud. He just had a call from Tomoyo, signaling she was nowhere in sight. Is she trying to drive everyone crazy?

Syaoran walked away from his apartment building and started to walk to the park. It looked like it was going to rain soon, but he didn't care. As long as he knew that she was safe and sound, a little bit of rain won't hurt him.

In all his anxiety and pressure, he accidentally bumped into a young woman who was walking in front of him. Cursing silently, Syaoran quickly apologized to the person he bumped into and was surprised to find the woman who worked in the gallery where his winning piece was installed.

'Oh, Shiorii-san,' Syaoran bowed politely, 'I'm sorry. I was in a rush.'

'Oh that's alright Li-kun, the streets are just so busy it's hard to make way around these people,' Shiorii said with her sparkling blue eyes strained on Syaoran, 'please come by to the gallery and see your work. There were many people who were pondering the whereabouts of the photographer. There were many who wanted to hire you.'

Syaoran wanted to smile. But his desperate and fraught situation did not support the good news. 'That's great news Shiorii-san,' Syaoran nodded in appreciation.

Shiorii-san chuckled, 'and if I remembered correctly, there was a young woman who visited the gallery this morning and she reminded me of that woman you portrayed so perfectly in your photographs. Was it her? Because she was asking the location of Li Syaoran's work, I presume it was her'

Syaoran felt his breath stop a sudden beat. Shiorii's words made him stop in his tracks and numbed his mind. Sakura visited the gallery? Syaoran was dumbfounded and couldn't answer Shiorii's worrying look.

'Are you alright?' Shiorii frowned, 'you haven't said anything for a minute there.'

Syaoran gave a nervous chuckle, 'oh I'm sorry Shiorii-san. Yes, um, so you saw her this morning?'

'Yes, I was about to have my lunch when she came in looking a little puzzled,' Shiorii explained, 'it was her wasn't it? I knew it. She looked so familiar. What beauty you have captured Syaoran-kun. You really did deserve the award.'

Syaoran blushed and bit his lip, 'thank you. I really appreciate that.'

'Oh and just so you know, she seemed appalled when she was looking at her own photograph,' Shiorii said and placed a finger on her mouth, 'she was crying when she walked out of the gallery. I was wondering what on earth had she seen that made her so emotional.'

Syaoran gulped and whispered the question, not completely trusting what he was hearing, 'she was… crying?'

Shiorii gave a sudden laugh, 'well, if she wasn't crying then why did she have tears flowing down those pretty pink cheeks of hers?'

Syaoran could feel a strange emotion took over him. He felt the desire to see her. He needed to look for her. 'Okay Shiorii-san, it was nice talking to you. But I've got to rush.' And with that Syaoran waved goodbye and ran as fast as he could, avoiding passer-biers along the way.

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Rika had said goodbye a few minutes ago to meet her fiancée. Sakura had insisted that she stayed under the Sakura tree, watching the darkening sky as the air grew cold and the wind blowing waves of bitter rainy air.

Sakura could feel a drop of rain water on her cheeks as she glanced up the sky. Sakura wanted to cry her heart again. She wanted to spill all the anger, humiliation, confusion and the feeling of hurting herself.

Sakura recalled Yuuki's hungry face. Sakura thought he had called off the wedding. But deep inside him Sakura found a place where he wanted to take her hand. But Sakura could not find the idea of love.

Sakura felt Yuuki's lips on hers and when he parted, Sakura could see a deep hunger in his eyes. There was a strange yearning wish to make Sakura his. Suddenly, without warning, the image of Syaoran popped into her head and instead of Yuuki's face before her, she stared at Syaoran's lovable face. Those fine features she remembered to relish, those amber flaming eyes, intensifying the heat that was stirring in her heart. She could see those soft lips that burned when he pressed it against Sakura's skin.

Sakura could feel the emotions flooding out together with drops of tears that fell to her flushed cheeks. Yuuki ignored her pleading look and was about to kiss her again when Sakura pushed him softly.

It may be anger, it may be jealousy, but Yuuki did not like it. His face twisted into an angry look and took Sakura's hands and pulled her towards him. Yuuki forced his lips on Sakura as she squirmed under his grasp.

You're not Syaoran! Sakura kept on screaming in her head as Yuuki nearly tore apart her fine blouse. The image of Syaoran in her head wouldn't cease to disappear. Sakura felt her heart beginning to thunder as Yuuki touched her chest as he forced her against the wall, pinning her body between himself and the wall.

Sakura wanted to scream in alarm, her head spinning wildly uncontrollable. She pushed Yuuki with all her might and threw a mighty slap across Yuuki's face.

Before she knew it, she ran away from him. She ran as fast as her feet could carry and escape his mansion. She wouldn't look back. She couldn't care less what would happen if she hadn't gone back and begged for mercy. She didn't care if her brother was disappointed with her. All she wanted to do was to run. Escape.

The sky thundered and Sakura felt the drops of water against her cold skin. Sakura shivered as more rain started to pour. It was dark and misty as Sakura glanced around her, the rain drifted upon her eyelashes. No one was around. She was alone. As always.

'I finally found you,' a voice yelled behind her.

Sakura opened her eyes in shock as she turned to find a wet and shivering Syaoran standing in the rain. He gazed upon Sakura with a face she had missed to see. Look what you've done to me Syaoran! Sakura screamed in her head.

Sakura turned away and heard a thunder in the distant. The rain poured madly, but she stayed but. 'What do you want?' Sakura yelled back, making sure he heard her from the sound of the pouring rain.

'We were all looking for you,' Syaoran yelled again and stepped forward so as to face her.

Sakura bit her lip. She remembered those hands, those arms that circled her body for warmth, that mouth that was so soft caressing her lip, and those eyes, those intensifying and fiery chocolate eyes that she felt being sucked into that pool of deep reassurance.

'What do you want? I don't want to be searched for,' Sakura replied back, not daring to look into his eyes.

Syaoran paused and fidgeted in the rain. He glanced around and spoke again, 'listen, you're going to catch cold. Let's get out of here.'

'Get off,' Sakura yelled when Syaoran took her by the arm. Syaoran stared at her in surprise.

There was a built up energy and consumable emotion in Sakura and she couldn't understand what it was doing to her. 'I am… I am frustrated,' Sakura yelled back but her eyes gazed to another direction, 'leave me alone.'

With a frustrated groan Sakura started to walk away before Syaoran caught up to her, 'listen! Everyone else is worried about you. Let's go back home before you get sick.'

Sakura turned back to look at him angrily, 'and why do you care so much?'

Syaoran was silent.

'Why do you have to put in all the effort just to look for me? Why do you care?'

Syaoran looked hard at her. 'Is there a reason?' Syaoran spoke in a low tone, barely audible amongst the heavy rainfall.

'What?' Sakura shouted back.

'Is there a reason for me to look for you?' Syaoran stormed.

Sakura bit her lip. She stared at his hard expression, rain dripping from his hair, wavering across his handsome face.

'Is there a reason for me to care?'

'Then there is no reason for you to be an obstacle in my life,' Sakura shouted back, shivering from the cold rain, 'I had never had any problems in my life until you came along.'

Syaoran didn't falter. He kept staring hard at Sakura. 'I made a mistake of hiring you. I made a mistake for ever getting close to you. You used me and now you have gotten your way…' Sakura chuckled sarcastically, 'and hey, congratulations. You screwed my life and hell with it. You are probably laughing at me right now.'

'That is so untrue,' Syaoran yelled back, a fiery depth in his eyes.

'What is untrue? Tell me straight to my face that that is untrue.'

'That is not true,' Syaoran repeated.

'Not true?' Sakura screamed.

Syaoran fell silent, his face rigid but his whole body was shaking. Finally he spoke.

'Alright do you want to know the truth?'

'What?' Sakura spat.

'I never intended to hurt you… you know why?'

'Why?'

'Because I love you Sakura'

Sakura did not expect this comeback. She fell silent, startled by his sudden move.

'I love you SO darn much it was impossible not to think of you. I tried so hard to get rid of you from my fucking mind,' Syaoran yelled, his voice shattered across the rain.

'I took that picture because I knew we could never be together. I wanted to keep a memory of you. Just that one amazing memory that I finally got to be together with this amazing person. I know that that's dumb and fucking stupid, god damn it, it was so stupid of me to do but do you have any idea just how much it hurts me to see you with another man?'

Sakura found it harder to breathe when he spoke those words she never expected. She could see his hard breathing from the amount of vapor escaping his mouth. She felt the tears trying to escape her eyes. 'Well then you and I aren't all that different. I know how much it hurts to see YOU with another woman?'

'What?'

'Yes, that's right. Stop telling these lies and bullshit when you are happily embracing another woman!'

'Wha---'

'I know what I saw back at your apartment. You were hugging and embracing another woman when I thought we could patch things up.'

'You're mistaken---'

'Am I? Am I?' Sakura screamed

Syaoran sighed and fell silent for a second before he chuckled quietly to himself.

'And you think that's funny?' Sakura said angrily.

'You're mistaken… she's not my woman… she's my sister.'

Sakura could feel her heartbeat stop. She felt it even harder to breathe as if her rib cage is pushing in deeper into her lungs. Words failed her when she tried to speak.

Syaoran turned away from her and said, 'there are too many misunderstandings between us…' Syaoran stopped short as the rain kept falling down. 'But what I said earlier… before… about my goddamn luck for falling in love with you… are all true.'

Syaoran spoke with such passion and without a slight of tremor in his voice. Sakura could only stare his back, seemingly defeated and vulnerable. She wanted to scream just how much she felt the same way about him. But words could not escape her prison cage.

As Syaoran took a few steps away from her, Sakura shouted back, 'how do I know if what you said was true?'

Syaoran stopped in his tracks, his back still facing Sakura. 'When you question me why I care, well that's because you mean a lot to me. A whole damn lot,' Syaoran spoke again with a hard tone, sending shivers down Sakura's spine.

'I have no reason to lie to you about this,' and with those final words, Syaoran walked away again, slowly getting further away from Sakura.

Sakura had never been in love. In all her life, she knew that love was just a word we humans use to defeat our sins and weaknesses. Sakura had no effort to learn about love. But all seemed different at this very moment. Sakura felt her chest hurting as if a huge knife was struck at what she thought was the safely secured. Her heart wouldn't stop beating like crazy. Her eyes were streaming down along with the falling drops of rain as it flooded the ground before her.

She shook her head.

And ran…

Syaoran felt Sakura's arms encircling his waist and he came to a stop, surprised by this sudden movement. They were both soaked and shivering. But her sudden appearance brought him warmth. Syaoran looked down to the ground and stared at Sakura's hands on his chest.

'Why are you doing this to me?' Sakura yelled behind him.

Syaoran said nothing. He closed his eyes and relished the feeling of their body together.

'Why are you doing this to me?' Sakura yelled again, the sound of her cries could be heard through all the hard pouring rain.

Then the warmth around his back disappeared. Syaoran turned slowly to greet her wounded expression. There were tears falling down her cheeks, to Syaoran's astonishment.

'You think I wouldn't ask the same thing?' Syaoran yelled back, gripping his hands.

'Why are you being so wonderful?'

'Why?' Syaoran spat, 'what's wrong if I care so much about you. I swear after this you won't be seeing me ever.'

'Don't'

'Why?' Syaoran yelled.

Sakura walked towards him and took his hand in hers. Sakura planted a passionate kiss on Syaoran's lips. It was an impulsive act when he felt Sakura's soft and cold lips on his. She held his cheeks with her hands as she slowly parted away and held her face close to his and closed her eyes.

'Because I also love you too,' Sakura whispered loudly enough for him to hear. Syaoran knew he was dreaming. It was too real to be true.

'So how could you affect me so much?' Sakura said in a broken voice as more tears fell down her cold cheeks.

Syaoran swiftly put aside his troubled thoughts and his astonishment and grasped Sakura's hands. He brought his lips to hers and hungrily kissed her dear cold lips. It never felt more right to have Sakura in his arms as she kissed him back. They held each other, grasping their soaked garments as they poured each others feeling into a wordless poem.

If I had just one more day

I would tell you how much that I've missed you

Since you've been away

Ooh, it's dangerous

It's so out of line

To try and turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you

For everything I just couldn't do

And I've hurt myself by hurting you

Hurt by Christina Aguilera

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This is the end of chapter 10. Songs are 'you and me' by life house in the Spanish version while the other is 'hurt' by Christina Aguilera, a wonderfully talented singer. Next song I want to bring is 'the way you look tonight.' It is one of the best romantic songs ever.

Thank you for reading up until this chapter. Please do REVIEW; I look forward to what you think. BIG HUG

p.s. it is quite descriptive… but hey… it's my style of writing.

p.p.s I might edit it… lol. BIG HUG

p.p.s.s. I want to see whether the total reviews can go up to 200… ciao!

With love,

FreyA-wings