love is hard sometimes Chapter 5, an avatar: last airbender fanfic

Recap: You watched him for a second; you had been lost in his amber eyes when he helped you up. You shook your head to clear it and then took off to follow him to the control room.

You followed zuko down the corridors, hoping you wouldn't lose him cause you had no idea how to get from your room to the control room. Finally he stopped at a door and went in, you followed. You've bin in the control room twice before. Both times had been when uncle had been teaching you shoji.

"you see, prince zuko," iroh stated. "I have misplaced my lotus tile. Most people do not believe the lotus tile has much value, but I know what it is capable of doing. We will go back to the local port so I can get my lotus tile and be at peace."

You couldn't help but giggle at this. Zuko, however, didn't seem amused. He blew fire out of his mouth in frustration.

"I'm so fortunate to have such an understanding nephew," iroh said. This made you laugh harder. Zuko glared at you.

"there you are," a small voice said from the doorway. You turned around to see aya coming towards you. "I was looking for. You didn't come to this mess hall like you said you would."

"sorry you told her. I got caught up," you told her.

Then aya's attention turned to zuko. "why is the prince mad?" she asked, tilting her head to one side.

Zuko groaned and stormed out of the room. This made you and iroh burst out laughing, but aya just seemed confused. She turned around to follow zuko.

"aya, what are you doing?" you asked her.

"papa always said that if someone is feeling bad, you should try to help," she said. "I'm going to help the prince." With that, she left after the prince.

You followed her. She was running, obviously trying to keep up with zuko.

After awhile they turned a corner. you heard zuko yell. "WILL YOU LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE!"

Then you heard aya whimper so you hurried forward to see zuko kneel in front of her. "I'm sorry. Please don't cry," he said, trying to get her to calm down.

You kneeled down behind her and touched her shoulder. She turned around and buried her face in your shoulder. "the prince yelled at me and threw fire at the ceiling," she whispered.

"shh. I know," you cooed softly in her ear. Then you glared at zuko.

Aya pulled away from you and turned to zuko. "I'm sorry," she whispered. Then she looked back at you, as if asking for something to occupy her time.

"why don't you ask iroh to teach you more about shoji?" you told her, distracting her from the current situation. She nodded and hurried back to the control room.

You turned to zuko angrily. "did you have to yell at her?! She was just trying to help damn it! You scarred her! She is afraid a firebending! You jerk!" you screamed at him, forgetting to be shy around him; forgetting that he could make you his prisoner.

He looked down, ashamed. This surprised you; you never before saw him like this. "I know," he whispered. Then he looked back up at you. "will you tell her I'm sorry?"

You looked into his amber eyes, getting lost as usual. "yes, I will. Not now though. I'll wait till she calms down a little," you told him.

Zuko nodded. "thank you."

You turned around to go back to iroh and the shoji board, but zuko grabbed your arm, stopping you. You turned around to see what he had to see. He seemed nervous so you couldn't help but smile. "I'm going to mediate," he told you. "would you like to come?"

Your grin spread. "of course!" you said, forgetting to be angry with him.

he smiled and pulled you down the corridor to your room. He indicated for you to sit on the floor; you did. Then he took numerous candles and set them in front of yours and his spots. "do you remember how to clear your mind?" he asked. You nodded. "good," he said as he sat down beside you.

You breathed as he did, clearing your mind.

Zuko's POV

Aya followed me out of control room, asking me what was wrong. It was so annoying. I was already pissed that we had to go back to a damned port for a lotus tile! Finally I couldn't take it anymore; I turned and yelled at her, "WILL YOU LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE!" and threw fire at the ceiling.

Then she started to cry. "damn it," I whispered under my breath, kneeling down in front of her. "I'm sorry," I said. "please don't cry."

Then I saw miri kneel down behind her and touch her shoulder. Aya turned to her and cried. "the prince yelled at me and threw fire at the ceiling," she told her sister. That only made me feel more guilty.

"shh. I know," miri told her, glaring at me; she was pissed. And why wouldn't she be?

Aya turned back to me. "I'm sorry," she said. I was stunned. Then she looked back at miri.

Miri told her to go back to uncle to play shoji. Once aya was out of ear shot, miri turned to me. "did you have to yell at her?! She was just trying to help damn it! You scarred her! She is afraid a firebending! You jerk!" she yelled at me.

I looked down, ashamed. I didn't mean to make her sister cry; I was just angry. What is it about this girl that makes me so damn guilty. "I know," I whispered. I looked at her. Her gray eyes were full of anger. "will you tell her that I'm sorry?" I asked softly.

Her eyes seemed to soften as she answered. "yes, I will. Not now though. I will wait till she calms down a little."

I nodded. "thank you," I told her, trying to make her less angry at me.

She turned around to go. Out of instinct I grabbed her arm, not wanting her to leave. She turned back to me, waiting for me to say something. i got nervous, trying to make up an excuse for her to stay with me. She grinned.

"I'm going to mediate. Would you like to come with me?" I asked, hoping the answer was yes.

Her grin widened and she nodded. "of course!" all her anger over me dissolved. I sighed in relief and led her back to the room.

Once there, I indicated for her to sit down. She did and watched me as I placed candles in front of our areas. Her stare made me blush and I hoped she wouldn't notice. "do you remember how to clear your mind?" I asked her.

She nodded. "good," I said. I sat down next to her, breathing with her.

I got lost in my own world as I meditated. After about a half hour, I felt miri's head drop on my shoulder. I glanced at her and noticed she had fallen asleep. For a few minutes I just sat there, staring at the angel next to me. I sighed; so much for not falling for her. Careful, not to wake her, I lifted her up and set her on her cot. She stirred, but did not wake. I watched her for one more minute before I silently left.

Your POV

You woke up and found yourself in your cot. You looked around and realized aya and zuko were not there. This confused you at first; then you remembered you had been mediating with zuko. You realized you must have dosed off. Zuko must have put you back in the cot.

You got up and went to the mess hall. To see almost the entire crew eating dinner. This surprised you when you realized how long you must have slept. You saw iroh, zuko, and aya sitting at a table. Aya was waving you over, iroh was smiling, and zuko looked annoyed. You went over to them.

Zuko eyed you worriedly. "are you alright?" he asked.

"ya," you answered. "why wouldn't I be?"

"well, you slept almost the entire day," he stated blankly.

You blushed. "I'm fine."

Zuko got up. "we'll reach your port tomorrow, uncle. I have to go." With that, he left the mess hall.

Zuko's POV

Uncle came up to me after I left. "it was nice of you to ask miri if she was alright. But it was very unlike you," he told me, raising an eyebrow. I knew what he was hinting. Damn it, I didn't want anyone to know about that, so I just nodded.

"she is pretty," uncle talked again.

This made me blush. "I guess," I mumbled. Iroh smiled, but left me alone.

I sighed and sat down.

Your POV

You went on deck. The cool ocean breeze wrapped around you. You smiled; remembering your parents. One day they had taken you to an ocean. You were only eight years old. Your mother had taught you a song. It was one of your favorites. Unconsciously, you began to hum it. Humming soon turned into singing.

Well she never was the best
Yeah at following the trends
Stayed one step above the rest
And even though it seemed

Like the world was crashing on her
Didn't let it hold her down
Didn't hold her back oh no

Don't worry you'll show them

There's a fire in your eyes
And I hope you'll let it burn
There's a scream in your voice
And I hope you will be heard
There's a fire in your eyes
And I hope you'll let it burn
Until you're heard, you're heard

Seventeen is just a test
Yeah and I would recommend
That you live with no regrets
And even if it seems

Like the world is crashing on you
You shouldn't let it hold you down
Shouldn't hold you back oh no, woah oh

Don't worry you'll show them

Relax girl, turn down the lights
No one can see you shining
Relax girl, it'll be alright
No one can stop you if you try

Point of rhythm is to follow it in time
To listen to the beating in your mind
Remember if you seek then you shall find
Woah oh

Until you're heard

[(song is seventeen aint so sweet by red jumpsuite apparatus. An AWSOME song)

By the time you finished, you had a tear running down your cheek. "damn it," you murmured and brushed it away angrily; you absolutely hated when you cried.

You felt a hand on your shoulder, causing you to jump. Then you realized it was zuko.

"that was beautiful," he whispered.

That made you smile. "thanks. My mother taught me it. I think its hopeful."

He smiled. "that it is."

The two of you looked out at the ocean for awhile more. You smiled, happy at the moment. You liked being with zuko; he made you feel safe.

After a few minutes he turned back to you. "come one, you look cold."

You shook your head. "no, I want to stay here."

He scowled. "you'll freeze to death."

"then I'll die happy." She told him, grinning.

He sighed. "fine, but you have to sing."

You looked at him, raising an eyebrow. "what?"

Even in the dark, you could see his blush. "you can stay out as long as you sing."

"oh," you said. "ok." [(A/N: sorry about all the lyrics. I always am into pairing lyrics with charters)

You sink your teeth in.
Bite the blood that drains the life inside of me and fills your soul with love and hate and all those things you need to breathe.
My body dies,
But still my soul remains eternally in search of Caspian waves and shallow graves.
Explain, why me?

This nightmare (This nightmare) won't last long.
Are you scared? (Are you scared?) To sing this song.
I'm right there (I'm right there) by your side.
Tonight we've got a chance.

I watched the sky bleed grey with see-through shades of violent
Bloody stains and felt the evil prime and wicked start a course straight through my veins.
I'm so alive
My skin so cold and fake.
I close my eyes
I know that now's the time to take my chance with death and realize.

Sunrise, sunset, will you wash away the rain?
Sunrise, sunset, can you wash away the pain?

This nightmare (This nightmare) won't last long.
Are you scared? (Are you scared?) To sing this song?
I'm right there (I'm right there) by your side.
Tonight we've got a chance.

So mute and beautiful to me
A promise kept on high
An angelic look at life through open eyes.
Don't be scared
We'll make it work.
We're right on time
Don't make things worse.
Now I'm right there by your side.

(Sunrise) I will avenge
(Sunset) I can't pretend
(Sunrise) I won't forget this vain
(Sunset) attempt and promise kept.
Just one more night to make up for the loss of love and time.
Here comes the sun to rid this world of see-through blood and swollen light.

Sunrise, sunset, will you wash away the rain?
Sunrise, sunset, can you wash away the pain?

This nightmare (This nightmare) won't last long.
Are you scared? (Are you scared?) To sing this song?
I'm right there (I'm right there) by your side.
Tonight we've got a chance

Sunrise.
The last sunrise.
The last sunrise.
The last sunrise.

[(lyrics are the last sunrise by aiden)

As soon as you finished the song, you yawned. Zuko noticed and grinned. "beautiful. Now are you tired?"

You shook your head stubbornly, but you yawned again. This time zuko laughed. "I'm sure."

You began to sway; you were that tired. So you gripped zuko's arm to steady yourself. "can I just sleep here?" you asked. "I'm too tired to go to bed."

Zuko grumbled and picked you up bridal style for the second time that day. You giggled. "thankies," you whispered.

"you're such a hassle, you know," he told you, but even with your eyes closed, you knew he was smiling

"I try," you told him. you heard him chuckle before you drifted off.

Zuko's POV

"can I just sleep here? I'm too tired to go to bed," miri said.

I sighed at her stubbornness. Then I looked at her; she was clinging to my arm to keep herself balanced, she was so tired. I knew that if I didn't take her to her bed she WOULD sleep here. I sighed again and picked her up bridal style, not that I minded though. Damn shes cold, I thought. She giggled.

She unconsciously snuggled up to me, making me blush. I was glad her eyes were closed so she couldn't see. "thankies," she said.

I smiled. "you're such a hassle," I told her.

She smiled. "I try."

I laughed lightly at that. She didn't say anymore, so I guessed she was asleep. I took her back to the room and put her in her cot, careful to not wake her. Aya slept soundly in her own bed.

I crawled under my own covers. I watched her sleep as I drifted off into my own dreams. My last though before I was fully asleep was; damn it, I like her.