S!CK
By Candied
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Chapter nine: Within you
"MOM!?"
I took a step back, looking into her eyes, which were as blue as my own.
"Oh," Reno interrupted with a sly grin crossing his lips, "You two know each other?"
Axel was glaring harshly at his father.
"Oh, Roxas!" the woman put her arms around me and held me close. "I'm so glad you're alright!"
My wits came back to me, and I scowled, not returning the embrace.
Yeah, you must have been terribly worried. Between your dating life that is.
I frowned, and put my hands on her shoulders, peeling myself off.
"I left you messages, Ma, but now I see that you were out with Reno and may not have gotten them."
She frowned and looked to my face. "Oh, I got them honey, but I just worried."
"Yeah, I can tell."
The woman sighed, and gave a weak smile to Axel, "So, are you the one who has been... er... taking care of my son?"
I could tell that wasn't the question she really wanted to ask.
"Uh, yes, Mrs... Oh, I never caught your last name." Axel replied.
"How rude of me! My last name is Hikari, same as Roxas', but you can call me Rita."
I hadn't realized that I had never given Axel my last name, but then- I didn't know his either.
"Rita, got it."
"Well then, Reno, Axel, hun, shall we sit down?" she was faking being polite and proper. I couldn't stand it.
Everything- her red dress, her fresh-looking make-up, her smile; it was all fake.
We took seats at the table and ordered our drinks.
"So, Axel, where do you live?" my mother asked him.
"Downtown." He replied cooly, placing his hand over mine under the table. I was thankful for the comforting touch.
My mother's face grimaced for the slightest fraction of a second before regaining that fake smile she showed.
"And what do you do for a living?"
"I'm a construction worker."
She laughed, and put her hand on Reno's chest. "It seems that all the males in your family are tough-guys."
"I take it you've met Seifer?" I said, gritting my teeth.
She nodded. "I know you don't like him honey, but he just needs a mother's love."
"I guess Reno will have to find a different girlfriend, then." I retorted before I knew what I said.
The table went silent, until my boyfriend spoke as we recieved our drinks.
"So, Ms. Hika- Rita, what do you do?"
"Oh, I work an office job in the same building as your father. Strange that we never met until just a few days ago."
Reno grinned, "Well, our children met, and then we bumped into each other in the hallway. Maybe it was fate."
My and Axel's fate. Not yours.
The waiter gave us our menus, and we started to look them over.
"It's on me you two," Reno said to Axel and I, "So order anything you want."
The way Axel looked over everything, I thought he was trying to decide the most expensive meal he could eat.
I looked over my own, trying to avoid eye contact with Rita.
"Roxas, honey, have you been going to school?" she asked, though I didn't look at her.
"Er... no."
"Oh. Well, when are you coming home?"
"Y'know, I don't think I am."
I squeezed Axel's hand, but Sora caught my attention out of the corner of my eye. He and Riku were dancing happily on the floor provided. Riku seemed to be dancing well, but Sora was doing 'the monkey'.
I couldn't help but chuckle.
"That's funny to you, Roxas?"
I looked toward my mother, who wore a hurt expression on her face.
"Huh?"
"You don't want to come home, and somehow that's funny?"
"No, no! It was just... a thought that popped into my head. I'm sorry."
The woman sighed, and looked into my face with concern. "Why don't you want to come home?"
"I... just..."
I want to stay with Axel.
"Theres some things I have to do."
"Are you on drugs?"
"What!?"
Axel stroked my palm with his fingers, and looked at me from the corner of his eye with a grin.
"No, I didn't think you were." Rita continued.
"Well, isn't this nice," Reno blurted, "All of us here- one big, happy family."
Axel chuckled, and I bit my lip.
"You know," Reno went on, "If Rita and I get married, you two will be broth-OW!"
He grabbed his knee and looked at his son, who whistled and flipped a page of the menu. "Sorry, my leg twitched."
Reno's hand went into a fist, and he shook it slightly, but he let it drop and instead scowled at his son. "No problem,"
"Are you alright, dear?" Rita asked.
"Yeah, yeah. It probably won't even leave a bruise."
I wanted to kiss Axel just then.
What if Rita and Reno did get married? Axel and I would be step-brothers! I had just gotten over the fact that Axel was a guy, but I didn't think I could handle it if he were legally my brother.
I mean, I'm sure that Reno and my mother deserved happiness, but what about me and Axel? Shouldn't it be a first-come first-serve kind of deal?
"Do you live alone, Axel?" Rita asked.
"I did before Roxas, but two of my friends live just next door. What about you?"
"Well, before Roxas left it was he, my boyfriend Rick and I. But, Rick and I broke up shortly after Roxas left."
"I was wondering what happened to him." I mumbled.
"What was that, honey?"
"Nothing."
The waiter came back, and the four of us ordered. I looked to Axel and told him that we should scarf down our food and get out of there, only it was with my eyes. He grinned, so I assume he heard my plea and agreed.
I picked up my drink to take a sip.
"Axel, let me know if this is too personal," my mother said, "But, uh, are you active?"
I spit out my drink onto the tablecloth.
"I-I have to go to the bathroom!"
I ran into the men's room and pressed myself against the door. My mother was giving my boyfriend the talk. She had never known I was gay- not that I had either- and she never asked any of my female friends questions like that!
I looked into the mirror opposite me, and saw my burning cheeks and sweaty forehead.
I wiped my brow and moved to the sink, now looking into that mirror instead.
Why? Why did Reno have to be dating my mother? It wasn't fair!
My thoughts were interupted by a knock on the door.
"Roxas? Can I come in?" It was Axel.
"Yeah."
He did, and leaned against the wall with his arms crossed. "You alright?"
"Axel, she just asked you if we had sex as politely as she could!"
"Yeah, and I rushed out here after you. We sucessfully avoided the question."
"Axel, if your dad and my mom get married-"
"I know."
"But, wouldn't that change things?"
He walked over to me, and put his hand on my cheek.
"Roxas, my feelings for you are not going to change- no matter what happens."
How he could make me feel so much better.
"Truth is, Roxas, our relationship is going to be hard. Very hard. There are lots of people out there who don't agree with homosexual relationships, and some of those people are going to give us trouble. If our parents get married, we will have double the problems. You know what, though? I don't care. This isn't about everyone else, this isn't about what people think of us or even say. It's about you and me, Roxas. Just you, and me."
I smiled. This was perfect, he and I standing here looking at eachother like this. I didn't care that it was in a bathroom, all of that had faded away when he spoke to me. There were no walls, there was no floor or ceiling, no parents waiting for us to come out and have dinner with them. It was just Axel and I together, like we would always be.
He placed a gentle kiss on my forehead, before looking down into my eyes. I felt like I was swimming in his bright green orbs, covered in his affections.
He kissed my lips, and I felt the rush of our feelings combine within me and I felt as if I would explode.
Everything about him enticed me; the way his cologne smelled, the way his lips still tasted of cigarettes, the way his soft skin brushed against my nose as we kissed. It was enough to make me melt.
Axel, I will live forever within your eyes.
After the kiss, he coaxed me out of the bathroom and guided me back to the table.
Reno grinned at the two of us, and we took our seats.
"This place has wonderful music," my mother commented, hoping to change the subject.
I looked to Axel. "Do you think they'd let Demyx play here?"
"Maybe. He'd have to tone it down a bit and dress up, but we both know he's good enough."
"Is this Demyx a friend of yours?" my mother asked.
"I met him through Axel, but he told me they've been friends since they were practically in diapers."
"And he's a musician? What does he play?"
"He plays the sitar," Reno interrupted, "He's quite good."
Our food arrived, and we fell silent temporarily, savoring the food we were served.
"Oh, this duck is delicious, Roxas, you should try some."
I wanted to scrunch up my face and stick my tongue out like when I was younger.
"No thanks, mom."
I hated duck.
We continued our dinner, making small talk, until we again fell silent. It was hard for us to talk, given the situation.
Finally, my mother slammed her fork and knife down on the table and looked at me.
"Roxas, you're GAY!"
I coughed, as I was in the middle of taking a drink, and patted a napkin on my lips.
Thanks, mom. I wanted the entire restaraunt to stare at me.
"Excuse me?" I squeeked.
The woman put a hand to her forehead, resting her elbow on the table and looked at me.
"When did you become gay, Roxas? There's still pictures of girls in bikinis on the walls of your bedroom!"
"Well... I don't really know when..." I managed to choke out.
"You were always so normal!" her voice cracked, and it looked like her eyes were tearing up.
"I-I..." I couldn't force out any words.
"When Reno told me that his son was gay it didn't bother me at all, but you're my son!"
Axel again took his hand in mine, and he spoke for me.
"He's still the same person, Rita. Nothing's changed."
She put her face in her hands and started to sob. "He's gay."
Why does the earth never open up and swallow you whole when you want it to? Is that really so much to ask?
Reno put his arms around my mother. "Honey, it's alright. It doesn't change anything."
"I'll never have any grandchildren!" her voice cracked through her sobs.
"They can still adopt," Reno assured her, but her sobs only grew louder.
Everyone in that place was staring at our table.
"I'll never get to show pictures of Roxas as a baby to my daughter in law!"
"You could always show them to Axel..."
The woman's tears wouldn't stop.
I stood up and looked to my boyfriend. "Maybe we should go?"
He nodded, and looked to Reno. "Call me later, so I can relay to Roxas how she's doing."
Reno agreed, and Axel led me out of the restaraunt towards the station.
Everyone in there had looked from my mother to me, and then looked at me as if I was some kind of freak. Was I a freak? Were Axel and I freaks just because we had feelings for eachother and we were the same sex?
I looked at Sora, walking next to me, hand in hand with Riku as I was with Axel. He seemed to be wondering the same thing.
"Axel?"
"Mmm?"
"Are we freaks?"
He laughed and continued walking. "Some people think so. People are afraid of things they don't understand."
"But are we?"
He stopped walking, and turned to me. "No, I don't think so. We truly care about eachother, and I think that's one of the most pure and normal things you can find."
We continued down the street, and boarded the subway. There were no empty seats, and so we stood. Axel draped his arm around me and planted a kiss on my forehead.
I tried to pry myself free, but he wouldn't let me go.
"Axel, people will know!"
"I don't care. It's nothing to be ashamed of."
He was right. There was no reason for us to hide who we were. Heterosexual couples could kiss and hold hands in public, so why couldn't we? Didn't we have the same rights as everyone else?
Riku and Sora were snuggling at the other end of the compartment, and Axel and I grinned. That was us, over there.
I looked back up at my boyfriend, and pulled his head down to mine, sharing a tender kiss. I knew that people were staring, but I didn't care. We were together. We were lovers. No, we were in love, even if niether of us had admitted it yet.
When it ended, and rested my head on his chest for the rest of the ride. Being with Axel made me happy. I had meant what I said to him, what seemed like ages ago but was really only a few days.
He really did show me how to live again.
When we arrived back at Axel's apartment, he digged for the keys in his pocket, and put them in the lock, opening the door.
"Axel?"
He looked to me.
"Yeah?"
"I... I love you."
He turned to face me and smiled.
"I love you too."
I put my arms around him, and brought him into a passionate kiss. I couldn't hold it in any longer. Our lips locked, and he picked me up. I wrapped my legs around his frame and he carried me into the room, shutting the door with his foot. He brought me over to the bed, and I fumbled with the buttons on his coat. When I had finally wrenched them free, he flung the cloth off himself, breaking the kiss. I brought him back to me with his tie, and he pushed my jacket off and to the side. Our tongues met, and I pulled his tie off from around his neck as he quickly undid the buttons on my shirt. We flung said items around the room, and switched.
My breath was quickening now, as we rolled over on eachother on Axel's bed, never breaking our kiss. I was filled with excitement and anticipation as I felt the skin on my chest brush against his. Finally, I reached down for the button on his pants, but he broke the kiss.
"Roxas-"
"I'm ready."
"Are you sure?"
"Absolutely."
He again brought his lips to mine, and his tongue mingled with mine as we took off eachother's pants and got under the sheets. Our bodies pressed together, our hands running over every inch of each other in exploration. Every curve of his body felt like heaven under my palms, and Axel flipped us over so that I was under him. I felt him pressing for entry between my legs, and my body shivered, knowing what was about to happen.
"It might hurt," he whispered to me.
"I know."
"I'll try not to make it so bad."
"I trust you."
He slid himself into me, and my nails dug into his back as a gasp escaped my lips. There was pain, but it was far surpassed by the pleasure I felt not only physically, but on the emotional standpoint of Axel and I becoming one. He started to move his hips gently, and I panted, scratching his back and moaning. I heard his sounds of pleasure as they brushed past my ear, the warmth of his breath only further enticing me.
I ran my hands along his back, and he started nibbling and sucking on my tender neck. I loved the way his thin muscular body covered mine with warmth and pleasure. He brought his lips to mine, and I licked at his lower lip until he let me in.
We rolled over and I was on top, in charge of our motions. I ventured farther than Axel had, because he was worried he would hurt me, but I didn't care. I wanted to know what it felt like when he was completely inside me.
We both gasped at the motion, and I moved down to give sweet kisses to his chest and neck. He put his hand into my hair, as I moaned through my kisses to his body with moans of pleasure.
It may have been hours, but to me at least, time had no meaning in that moment. When we finally came it was together, and- since Axel had ended up on top again- he rolled over onto the bed, and put a hand through his hair. We were both panting, and covered in sweat.
I took a deep breath, and heard Axel chuckling. My eyes turned to him, and he grinned at me. "It didn't hurt too much, did it?"
I smiled back, and moved so that my head rested on his chest. "No, it was perfect."
"I love you, Roxas."
"I love you too, Axel."
Shortly after that, we fell asleep.
Author's note: So, how much do you love me now? Worth the cliffhanger or what, guys? I'm very sad to say that this may have to hold you over for a few days if I can't get a hold of another computer, 'cause my mom's is making weird noises and she has to get it fixed. (Who even knew that shit like that happens?) I promise to try my best though, so review and let me know how you feel! Also, Ladyameena22 was my 50th reviewer, so I ask that in her review she let me know either a plot line or pairing that she would like me to base a one-shot on special for her! When we hit 100, I will do another one shot. CONGRATS, LADYAMEENA22:D