Sasuke took a deep breath and pushed open the door. 'Don't be there…don't be there…please, please don't be there!' he silently begged. He looked downstairs, and after finding no trace of the blonde there, checked his room.. He let out a sigh of relief finding that Naruto had gone. He slumped onto the bed. Sasuke closed his eyes, breathing in the smell that was completely unique to Naruto. The raven sighed and imagined how it would feel to have the blonde lying next to him. His eyes shot open. This was just making things worse. He couldn't pretend Naruto was here, like none of this had ever happened. It would just hurt more in the long run. "I suppose I could just stay here forever." He muttered. He let his eyes close again, only to be greeted by Naruto's face, tears spilling from his beautiful blue eyes. "Damnit!" tears of his own began forming as the memory played back. He knew that moment was going to haunt him forever. Every dream, every thought would be plagued by that painful moment. On his list of worst days, this had to be on the top.
Naruto had gone straight home. He just locked himself in his room, not wanting anyone to see his tears. A knock on the door was his answer to wanting to be alone. "Naruto?" the blonde's heart clenched as he recognised the voice. "Hey, are you in there?" Sakura. Naruto knew he should be angry with her. He knew that it wasn't Sakura's fault she happened to be pretty, kind, clever and also…the object of Sasuke's desires. Another knock. Naruto had never been so envious of anyone in his life. The blonde decided to keep quiet and pretend he wasn't in. "go away…" he whispered. "Naruto!" came another impatient yell. He pulled his legs up to his chest and let his chin rest on his knees.
A frustrated huff, then footsteps began fading away. Naruto felt like nothing would ever be the same again. He had loved Sasuke more than anyone. Any feelings he had felt in the past for other people were nothing compared to how Sasuke made him feel. Kyuubi was feeling more and more guilty with each passing moment. Naruto pulled the ring from his pocket. He decided he would keep it. After all, its not like Sasuke would be using it anymore. He twirled the small gold ring between his fingers and read the small inscription again. "Why…why would he…" Naruto couldn't understand. If Sasuke really liked Sakura and had done all along, why would he plan on proposing? It made no sense to the blonde. Sasuke's actions told a different story to his words. Naruto clenched the ring tightly in his hand. He had to talk to Sasuke.
The raven was feeling worse. He got off the bed and opened his drawer. He pulled out his weapon pouch, wondering if he did some training he could literally exhaust himself so much he couldn't think. He pulled out a kunai, but dropped it. The sharpened knife slipped across his wrist, drawing a little blood as it fell to the floor with a clunk. The relief was instant. His thoughts suddenly focused on the physical pain, all memories of Naruto flying away with ease. Sasuke picked up the knife and dragged it across his wrist again, making a deeper mark under the first shallow one. He knew he shouldn't, but it seemed to be the only thing that helped. He sighed with relief and tightened his grip on the kunai, wondering how far he should actually go. I mean, its not like anyone would miss him.
Kyuubi would celebrate. He doubted he had every really had anyone's trust since he abandoned Konoha. And…Naruto hated him now. Sasuke made another cut. That was something he didn't want to dwell on. Yeah, nobody would even notice.
Naruto didn't even bother knocking. He stormed right into the house, and immediately found Sasuke. He gasped when he saw the raven, slumped against the wall, his right arm bleeding badly and a kunai in the other hand. It didn't take a genius to understand what Sasuke's had done. Naruto was instantly by the raven's side. He ripped the kunai away from Sasuke and flung the offending object across the room. "Sasuke!" the raven looked up at Naruto. This couldn't be happening. Why wouldn't he just leave? Sasuke's throat closed up. He knew, just by Naruto being here, Kyuubi would be angry. Sasuke knew the fox would blame it on him and perhaps put Naruto in danger again.
"Get. Away." he hissed, trying to sound as threatening as possible. Naruto looked at Sasuke's arm and took it gently in his hand. It was then Sasuke saw what he had done. As he was cutting he had been spelling out Naruto's name without even noticing it. He had become too faint to lift his arm after the fifth letter and had allowed his arm to drop. The blonde stared at the jagged writing. He quickly ripped a sleeve from Sasuke's jacket that had been thrown on the floor and tied it around the raven's wrist, effectively stopping the bleeding. Sasuke was coming out of his fuzzy haze. "I thought I told you to get out Naruto! Just fucking accept the fact I don't love you and I never…" Sasuke trailed off as Naruto pulled a small object from his pocket. "You dropped this when you left." He said triumphantly. Sasuke recovered instantly. "Its not for you." He lied quickly. Unfortunately it was probably the worst lie he had ever told, and the least believable. "Naruto, the one I truly love. Forever yours, Sasuke." Naruto recited. "Well, I don't know any other Naruto's around here, so why-"
Naruto was cut short as Sasuke jumped up with a new found energy. "Stay the fuck away from me." He snarled, and jumped out the window. Naruto refused to let the raven go so easily. He followed Sasuke, until the raven finally came to a halt. "Could Naruto possibly make this any harder?" Sasuke whispered angrily to himself as the blonde came up behind him. The raven could stand it anymore. Kyuubi had forced them apart, but Naruto wouldn't accept that. It was getting harder and harder to keep up the act as Naruto constantly came up with reason after reason, proving that Sasuke was lying. It was too dangerous being around Naruto; Kyuubi could jump out at any moment. Naruto grabbed Sasuke shoulder just so he couldn't escape again.
He pulled Sasuke around to face him. "Sasuke, what's going on?" he asked softly, his blue eyes filled with understanding. Sasuke screamed inwardly. This would be the third time he had to hurt the blonde. "What part of it don't you get? The part where I'm not gay, the part where I like Sakura, the part where I don't love you, or the part where I can't fucking stand you!" Sasuke shouted. Naruto didn't seem upset at all.
"You don't mean that. I know you don't." Naruto held up the ring again. "What happened Sasuke?" he asked again.
"Why can't you just get it Naruto? I already knew you were dense, but this takes the fucking biscuit!" Naruto still, much to Sasuke's displeasure, didn't let go.
"Don't, Sasuke. Don't say things like that when you don't mean them. It still hurts." Naruto said quietly. Sasuke let out a shaky breath. "Naruto, please." He tried moving from Naruto's grasp, but the blonde still held on. "Naruto, please let me go." He asked. In response, the blonde leaned in and tried to kiss Sasuke. The raven jerked away, the arm he had been cutting earlier twinged painfully. "You don't understand what your doing! Just stop it!" Sasuke shouted.
"I'm not giving up Sasuke. I know something or someone had made you act like this." Sasuke felt helpless. Nothing he did was the right thing to get Naruto to leave him, and Kyuubi was probably getting angrier and angrier.
Sasuke pushed Naruto to the floor with his good arm and darted off again. This time he was going to use as much chakra as possible to escape quicker and lose the blonde. Eventually Naruto lost sight of Sasuke and, finding the raven had masked his chakra, couldn't see where he had gone.
Naruto finally came to a halt. There was no way he would be able to find Sasuke now; the raven could be anywhere. In fact, the blonde thought, beginning to panic, he might not even be in Konoha. This thought scared Naruto. Perhaps he had made Sasuke so angry he left Konoha? Then again, Naruto didn't think Sasuke sounded too angry near the end of their conversation.
The blonde knew he had been on the right track when he mentioned that something had happened to make him be this way; Sasuke's reaction had told him so. Before he left, Sasuke had been almost pleading with Naruto to leave him. 'Perhaps…someone threatened him?' Naruto guessed. Suddenly, a clone appeared in front of him. A clone of himself. "Kyuubi?" Naruto asked. The fox sighed and looked at the floor guiltily. "Yeah. I…erm…have something to tell you."