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Chapter 9
Matthew sat in his living-room and stared at the dark TV. He stood up and went over to the window once again. It was eleven p.m. and he had been wandering around the room for quite a while. He was worried. Chris was out there at a party, high and probably drunk out of his mind.
His father had gone to bed twenty minutes ago and was probably asleep by now.
Matthew sighed. He wouldn't be able to sleep any time soon unless he knew, Chris was okay. He stood up and left the house as quietly as possible.
Someone had to make sure Chris was okay.
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It was the usual scenery that greeted Matthew when he entered the living-room of Jen's house. Dancing, drinking, drugs. Matthew looked around and was soon greeted by Kat, who seemed to be a little drunk, but was still able to form coherent sentences.
"Hey, Matthew."
The blonde only nodded at her in greeting. He once again looked around but it was quite difficult to really recognize any of the guests. "Where's Chris?"
Katherine shrugged. "Last time I saw him, he was dancing." She saw Jen in a corner and grinned at Matthew. "See you later." She vanished in the crowd leaving Matthew to cross the room and search for his brother himself.
He passed Kat and Jen, who were both giggling like mad at something two guys they were talking to had said.
He passed the dancing people who were already half naked.
He passed Jack Cole drinking shots of tequila with a bunch of his friends.
He left the living-room and entered the hallway.
He found Chris standing at the bottom of the stairs, leaning against the wall and heavily making-out with a guy from school that Matthew knew as Andy Baur.
Matthew watched Andy pressing himself against Chris who was moaning and grinding against his partner. He could see their tongues playing with each other in passion. He saw Andy's fingers travelling beneath Chris's shirt and stroking the skin he found.
Without a word Matthew turned around, stormed across the room and left the house. Once outside he started to take deep breaths. He closed his eyes.
Chris kissing Andy. Chris grinding against him. Chris moaning.
Matthew cursed and opened his eyes again. He couldn't get the images out of his head. He looked around, found a metal bucket lying around in the grass and kicked it. Again and again and again.
After full five minutes of kicking the bucket, Matthew just stopped and turned towards the house again. He ran until he reached the hallway and yanked Andy away from his ex-lover.
"What?" Andy exclaimed startled. He seemed relatively sober.
"I have to talk to Chris", Matthew explained and ignored the confused looks Andy gave him.
"Chris?" Matthew looked into Chris's eyes to find them still dilated and dull. "Chris?"
The Halliwell looked at him, blinked and then finally seemed to realize who was standing in front of him. "Matt?" He asked confused.
"Yeah", the blonde nodded. "Come on, let's go."
"Hey", Andy protested. "We were busy."
"Yeah", Matthew nodded. "'Were' is the keyword. Now you aren't. Because now I have to talk to him." He ignored Andy's new protests and just went up the stairs dragging his stumbling brother with him.
They had had a party at Jen's before so Matthew knew exactly where to go and only stopped when they stood in an empty bedroom. As soon as the door was closed behind them, Matthew turned towards his ex-lover and put a hand on his cheek. "Chris?"
The brunette Halliwell just stared at him and didn't even blink causing Matthew to once again say his name. This time the younger one reacted by looking up and meeting his brother's eyes. "Matt?" He asked obviously confused once again.
"Yeah", the blonde nodded patting his brother's cheek. "Are you okay? Do you feel well?"
Chris closed his eyes and nodded. "Yeah", he mumbled. "I'm okay."
"Good", Matthew nodded. "That's good." He caressed the skin under his fingers once again before taking a step backwards and glaring at Chris angrily. "Then what the hell were you thinking making out with Andy Baur?"
Chris gave a short laugh. "He's hot. And he kisses real good."
"Oh, and I bet you have a lot of experience to compare it with." Matthew exclaimed, his frustration over Chris's behaviour getting the better of him.
"What do you mean?"
"Oh, you know what I mean. I'm sure you've been getting around since we split up. It would be so like you to whore yourself to everybody who wants a nice shag."
Matthew really didn't see it coming and the next thing he knew was that his cheek was burning from the way Chris had hit him. When he looked back at his younger brother, he was standing directly in front of him and looked into his eyes.
"Just so you know", Chris started to explain calmly. "I didn't sleep with anybody since we two broke up. I didn't even think about it. Because everytime I kissed someone, I wanted it to be you. And everytime I opened my eyes it was someone else. Someone I didn't want. Because I wanted just you. But it can't be you. So don't you dare judge me for trying to go on with my life. Because it's hard enough as it is to do that when you're in love with your brother."
Matthew looked at him and raised a hand to carefully wipe a single tear from Chris's cheek and took a deep breath. "I'm sorry", he whispered finally. "I'm so sorry. For everything that happened."
Chris nodded, another tear running down his face. "I'm sorry, too." He grabbed Matthew's neck and pulled him near, letting their foreheads touch. He didn't even try to stop the new tears from running down his face. "Nothing of all this should have happened."
"I know", Matthew whispered. He carefully touched Chris's lips with his own a few times until he felt the Halliwell responding. The kiss got more heated as Matthew let his hands travel down the brunette's body until he reached his lower back and pressed their bodies together.
Chris groaned and opened his mouth to welcome Matthew's tongue. He slid his hands under the blonde's shirt and caressed the skin travelling up the body until he nearly touched Matthew's shoulder.
They seperated for a second, just long enough for Matthew to throw his shirt into a corner and for Chris's to follow. It was the last time they seperated for a long time that night.
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Chris was lying on his back as he slowly drifted back into consciousness. He felt an arm on his naked stomach and decided to stay the was he was for a while.
After a few minutes of enjoying the moment, he opened his eyes slowly and looked to his left where Matthew was lying on his stomach. Chris tried to ignore his headache and smiled at the sleeping body for a few seconds before he carefully pushed Matt's arm away so he could slip out of the bed.
He searched for his clothes and put them on before leaving he room. He looked through the quiet house until he found a piece of paper and a pen and wrote a quick note that he put next to Matthew on the bed.
After that he turned around and left the room after another quick glance at Matthew's sleeping body.
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Matthew woke up to the sound of a door closing. He looked around confused until the memories of the night before came back and he turned to the other side of the bed where he found a little paper. "We have to talk. Come by at noon. Chris."
Matthew smiled at the short note that was so typically Chris. Straight to the point.
He looked at his watch and realized that is was nine o'clock in the morning, so he got up and quickly put his clothes on before he also left the room.
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When Chris got home, his mother was standing in the kitchen making breakfast.
"Hey, sweetie", she greeted him. "You alright?"
"Yeah", Chris nodded and got himself a glass of orange juice. "Who are you making so much breakfast for?"
"Your cousins are coming over because Paige and Henry have to work and they're worried about the kids not getting any breakfast."
Chris snorted. "They overdo it with their care sometimes."
Piper smiled. "You think so?" She turned around and looked at her son for a second. "Let's talk about that again when you're a father yourself."
Chris laughed. "Oh, no, I'll never get like them."
"That's what Paige always said when I didn't want to leave you or your brother on your own. Oh, by the way, I invited Matthew to come over later."
The younger brunette nearly choked on his juice. "What? Why?"
Piper raised an eyebrow at him. "I wanted to talk with him about maybe getting his powers back."
Chris just nodded and turned around.
"Chris?" The sound of his mother's voice made the young one turn around to her once again.
"What?"
"You and Matthew, why don't you like each other?"
Chris smiled. "Mom, I like him, okay? I really do. We just had a little argument even before we found out that we're brothers and the truth didn't really help matters, but we're about to sort it out, so don't be worried, okay?" Chris had invented that story just after he had met Matt as his brother the first time, but nobody had asked him about his relation to Matthew until now.
"Oh, okay." Piper smiled.
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When Matthew got home, he realized that his dad was gone and instead found a small note on the kitchen table that told him that his father was at work and asked him to go to his mother in the afternoon.
Matthew just smiled at the second piece of paper that day that told him to go to the Manor.
He looked through the fridge for something to eat but found nothing that looked eatable. So he just sighed and sat down in front of the TV where he watched a silly talkshow. He didn't watch shows like that normally, but right now he didn't want to think about what was gonna happen later that day. He just wanted ro relax.
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When he entered the Manor a few hours later, all of his newfound cousins where sitting in the living-room and playing a game of Monopoly.
"Hey, guys", Matthew greeted them and smiled when all of them looked up to welcome him as well.
Chris was sitting next to Chloe, as the two of them were obviously playing as a team, and smiled up at his brother. "Hey."
"You wanna play with us?" Kate asked friendly. The cousins had become quite fond of Matthew during the last weeks.
"I'd like that", Matthew answered. "But I have to talk to mum first, okay?"
Kate nodded and turned around to go on with the game while Chris stood up from his place and went to Matthew for a moment.
"Do you know what this is about?" Matt asked the brunette quietly.
"Yeah", Chris nodded and raised an eyebrow. "You don't?"
Matthew shook his head. "No idea. Just found a note that told me to come over."
Chris grinned. "Another one?"
"Yeah", the blonde smirked. "All of the Halliwells seem to be quite fond of me at the moment."
The brunette let his eyes travel up and down Matthew's body for a few moments before looking into the older one's eyes. "I can see why." Without another word he turned around and sat down next to Chloe again.
Matthew laughed and turned around to follow the sounds of clattering pots into the kitchen, where he found his mother washing up.
"Hey mum", he greeted her.
"Hey, sweetie", Piper turned around smiling. "Good to see you. How's your dad?"
"Working", Matthew replied sitting down on a chair. "Like always."
"Didn't really change then since he was a whitelighter."
Matthew smiled. "I don't think he changed at all since then."
Piper nodded. "Maybe." She put the last of the dishes away and turned around. "So, let's talk, hm?"
"Sure", Matthew nodded and waited until his mother was sitting opposite him. "What's all this about?"
"Your father and I had a long talk and decided to give you all of your powers back. Only if you want to, of course."
Matthew blinked. "My powers?"
"Yeah."
"All of them?"
"Yeah."
"Wow. That'd be cool."
Piper smiled. "Yeah, cool." She got serious. "But it's also a lot of responsibility, okay?"
Matthew nodded still grinning.
"And that's why Phoebe, Paige and I will teach you some things about magic first, before we give you your powers back, okay?"
The blonde nodded. "Yeah, sure."
Piper stood up. "I'm sorry we can't start with it now, but I have to go buy some groceries or we're not gonna have any dinner."
"No problem."
"Good", Piper nodded. "Hey, maybe you can get Chris to tell you some things until I'm back."
Matthew grinned. "Good idea."
"Great", the older Halliwell smiled. "See you later." She grabbed her bag from the table and left the Manor.
Matthew got up from the table, too, and went over to the living-room, where Sarah and Emily, who had also played together, had just won the game.
"Hey, Chris", Matthew called his brother. "Mum suggested you could tell me some things about magic until she gets back and can do it herself."
Chris looked up at him and smiled. "Yeah, sure. Let's go to my room, shall we?"
"Oh, can we come?" Emily asked excitedly.
Chris shook his head. "Sorry, but I don't want him to feel stupid when I tell him things that you already know, okay?"
Emily nodded still pouting. "Yeah, sure."
Chris grinned at Matthew as he asked him to follow him up to his room.
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As soon as the door was closed behind them, Chris turned around and looked at the blonde. "I love you."
Matthew looked at his brother in confusion. "Uhm, okay?"
"No, let me talk. I didn't really have time to think since we found out the truth because I was either drunk or stoned, but after what happened last night, I started to think, so I could get a good explanation for all that happened, but everything I could come up with is that I love you."
Matthew smiled. "I love you..."
"Sshht", Chris interrupted him once again. "I'm not done. I know that us being together is wrong because , well, we are brothers after all. But I want this. I want us. Together. Because us not being together is fucking me up. And I know you want us to be together, too. And I know it will be hard because we can never tell anyone, but it will be worth it in the end because I love you."
Matthew looked at him in silence for seconds before slowly asking: "You done now?"
Chris nodded and blushed lightly. "Uhm, yeah."
Matthew smiled. "Good." He made another step towards Chris and leaned down to kiss him.
"Wait", Chris asked him and took a step back. "Aren't you going to say anything?"
Matthew laughed. "I think you said everything one can say about that topic. So all I'm gonna tell you is: You're right and now shut the fuck up and kiss me because I fucking missed you."
Chris started to grin. "God, it really turns me on when you're swearing."
Matthew raised an eyebrow. "Really?"
"Yeah", Chris nodded, still grinning seductively. "You have quite a bad tongue."
"Oh, I'll show you how bad it really can be."
Chris smiled as he put a hand at Matthew's neck. "I hoped you'd say that", he grinned and pulled the older one down into a passionate kiss.
TBC...