"What?" Mom stumbled, and grew nervous. I sat there in shock, "Where?"

"The cerebrum," the doctor talked calmly, and I felt myself getting dizzy. "It's located at the back of the brain, above the brain stem," he pointed to his head. "There," he showed my mom. "At this point, we're not sure whether it's grown to other parts of her brain."

"Well," my mom said in her no nonsense voice. "I think you better find out then."

The doctor nodded, and took his first glance at me since revealing the news, "We'll have to get Lily an MRI." Mom nodded, "We'll suggest you to another office, and arrange an appointment for this afternoon, does that sound good?"

Mom nodded again, unable to say anything else. She was paralyzed with fear, and I knew we were never going to be the same. I myself had no idea how I was going to handle this. Was I going to lose my hair? Would I have to tell my friends?

"Are you sure it's a brain tumour?" My mom asked weakly as we attempted to walk out of the doctor's office, she was holding Blake's hand – who had been trying to drag her out unaware of what was happening. Mom took one quick glance at the doctor, with hope that this wasn't happening, but both of us were slammed back down to earth as the doctor nodded his head.

It was a quiet drive to the next doctor's office, even Blake wasn't talking – and that was unusual for her, it was unusual for all four year olds. But I think Blake, although she didn't really understand, knew that something was happening and that mom would rather not talk about it.

Obediently, she followed my mom and I when we walked into the doctors office. And Blake calmly went over to the toy table when I had to go in for my MRI.

"It will be okay," my mom said before the nurse led me towards the machine. Mom wasn't allowed to go with me, and she knew I was scared. "It will only take a short while," mom had said before she went to sit down next to Blake.

I nodded, hoping that she was right, and lay down on a long padded table as I was instructed to. "Stay still," the nurse told me, and went to the controls of the big machine I was lying under. "Do you have anything metal on you?" I shook my head, having already taken off my clothes and dressed in a hospital gown. "Good," the nurse smiled. "Now this won't hurt, we're starting the MRI now."

It was hard keeping still in the end, who knew that an MRI could last for a whole half an hour? But in the end, I thought to myself, it was worth it. Knowing whether my tumour had spread could even save my life.

"All done?" My mom asked, once I was back in the waiting room. By this time, she had been reading a magazine over Blake, who was asleep on her lap. "Alright," mom smiled and got up, bringing Blake into her arms, "let's go."

I nodded, and followed my mom out of the office and to our parked jeep on the other side of the parking lot. Again, we all got into the car silently.

"Mom," I broke the silence that had been hurting my ears. My mom looked at me in a rush, in hopes that I wasn't about to tell her that I was in pain. "What's going to happen?"

Without me saying another word, my mom knew what I was talking about. "You'll probably have radiation," mom sighed and didn't take her eyes off of the road. "Or surgery, depending. It could even be both."

I nodded again, "Will I lose my hair?"

My mom looked at me for another brief second, and I could see hurt in her eyes, "I'm afraid so Lil." She told me. "But we could go buy some more of those nice hats you like, if you want."

"Really?" I asked, glad that my mom was being so helpful.

Mom nodded, and turned the car down another street towards the mall, "we'll go right now." Mom smiled, parking as close to the entrance as she could get. "You might not want to do this once we've got you to treatments and all." Mom explained.

I nodded, and smiled back, "thanks mom." I whispered, twitching as another headache come on. "You're the best."

"We'll get you some pain killers as well," mom noted, fully noticing my ever growing headache. "You'll need them in the long run anyway."

I laughed and nodded my head at this, as my mom ran to the back of the car to unbuckle Blake and put her in an old stroller we had in the trunk. And with that, we all walked into the mall and straight to the pharmacy when my mom insisted that I needed the pain medicine now and not later when the headache will get worse.

"Lily?" I heard a familiar voice behind me as I walked through the make up section, but I didn't dare to turn around. "What are you doing here?"

I turned around slowly to face my best friend Miley, who was there picking up eye shadow that was probably for one of her Hannah Montana concerts, "Hey Miles," I said nervously. "I'm just here with my mom and sisters – picking up some Advil and stuff."

"Advil?" Miley asked, "Are you okay?

I nodded, "Just a headache," I laughed, making it seem better than it actually was. "Plus, I needed some more hats, you know – for the summer and all."

"Right," Miley smiled, agreeing with me. "I'm just here picking up new make up for tonight. I ran out the other day and almost had to go on stage without make up on. It would have been horrible, you know," Miley said casually.

I nodded, suddenly missing all those concerts with Hannah Montana. "What's tonight?" I asked, mostly in interest, but also with the slight hope of being able to go.

"Oh, just another concert in LA," Miley smiled nervously, and just then I noticed, how red Miley's eyes were, had she been upset? "Would there be any chance Lola will be there?"

I smiled, and nodded. "I'll have to ask her," I turned towards my mom, and pointed indicating that I would have to go through her first, "Be back in a sec."