I looked over at the clock and squinted. 3:04 am it stated clearly in its thick blocky font.

"Ohhhhh"

I had not had a good night's sleep since...it happened. I mean, could you blame me? He was my best friend for Merlin's sake! And the thinking-too-much-and-never-acting Dean just had to go and spoil everything. The worst part is I really did-really do-want something more. But our friendship is the most important thing in the world and I wasn't ready to risk that for a...crush? phase? misunderstanding? Whatever this is. Whatever this feeling that comes over me whenever I see him...whenever I hear his voice...whenever someone mentions his name...is.

Well, it's too late now. Now I have nothing. But one thing still confuses me...I mean, he was joking...wasn't he? Then again, if it was a joke, why would he have gotten so upset? Why would he have spoken like that?

"Well, there's no way I can go back to sleep now."

I moved slowly down the steps, careful not to wake anyone. When I entered the common room, I saw something I had never thought I would see...ever. The sound broke my heart. Seamus was sitting on the sofa in front of the fire, his knees held to his chest...crying.

What?

"Shay." I quickly made my way to the other side of the sofa. "Shay, are you okay?"

He spun around and left me staring at his back.

"Wha-at," his voice broke. He took a deep, shaky breath.

"What are you doing here?"

"Well, Shay--" I looked around. "this is the common room."

He spun back to face me.

"I know that, Thomas," he spat.

He called me Thomas. I stifled a sob.

"Seamus, what is going on?"

"Nothing, thanks to you."

"Shay, look--"

"Don't call me that! Why are you always calling me that?" he asked, his voice rising.

"Oh. Well...well, I didn't realize--"

"Yeah, that seems to be happening a lot lately."

"Sha-Seamus-I really didn't mean what I said earlier--"

"Then why'd you say it?" He wasn't angry anymore. He was completely void of emotion. I liked it better when he was angry.

"Well, I honestly just thought--"

"You know what? I really don't care what you 'just think' anymore."

And for the second time in less than a fortnight, my best friend and----left me sitting in the cold, dark night.