What if I fell to the floor?

Couldn't take this anymore

What would you do?

Shadow of my Former Self

Sora poured two glasses of cool lemonade he'd made that morning and handed one to Riku who gave him a grateful smile before sipping at it. Both sat silently at the dinner table and were pointedly ignoring the banging on their door.

"Sora! Riku! Open up!"

"Look, Kai, it doesn't matter how loud you yell; those two are not coming out!"

"Shut up Tidus, that mouse King wants to see them and-"

"I don't blame them one jot for not wanting to see that damn rat."

"NAMINE?!"

"What? She's right. If it wasn't for him Sora and Riku wouldn't have been put through hell and probably neither would we."

There was silence for a moment while the four owners of the loud voices considered that and then Tidus asked, probably to Kairi, "Why are we here again?"

"Oh for the love of… look, they don't have to do one thing Mickey says. I just want them to listen. He's taken up residence on our beach again and he's stupid ship is directly beside my house. I can't use the bathroom without some perv spying on me."

There was another pause and then Tidus yelled, "RIKU, SORA! OPEN UP AND GET RID OF THE FECKING MOUSE!"

Riku sighed heavily and made to move to the door when Sora took a little sip of his own drink and set the glass down, "Open the door and I'll not have sex with you for a month." Riku sat back down.

"Sky… we only have to listen." Riku knew that begging was useless. Whereas it would have worked on Sora before the little war fiasco, now Sora had dark powers and his innocent naivety was long gone and nothing like a puppy face worked anymore.

"Forget no sex for you; I'll go sleep with Roxas and Axel. I know they have the room." Sora took another sip.

Riku shut his mouth with a pathetic whine. Sora smirked; he had his lover wrapped so tightly around his finger he could do anything. Suddenly, there was a loud crash from the front of the house and Tidus stormed into the kitchen, Kairi, Marluxia and Namine trailing behind. Since their return to the islands, Tidus had become another member of their group and no one had questioned why although it concerned his relationship with Kairi.

Before anyone spoke Sora took another sip and looked up at the fuming, sandy-haired teen about his age, "You'll be fixing that door today."

Tidus folded his arms, "Right after you get that rat off our island."

"Deal."

All in the room gaped at Sora and a unanimous cry went up, "WHAT?!"

Sora finished the last of his lemonade and then got up from his seat, glass in hand, "I said: deal."

"You… I… we…" Riku was beyond coherent thought.

"Why do you have to be so difficult?" Marluxia ran a hand distractedly through his hair and sighed heavily, "Why Namine bothers keeping an eye on you two, I'll never know,"

Sora smiled brightly, "Cos she loves me!"

Namine laughed and gave him a hug, when she drew back her face was deadly serious, "Sora… what are you going to do when you see Mickey?"

Sora looked down at her, picture of innocence (Riku inwardly rolled his eyes, along with his naivety he'd lost his ability to look innocent), "Just talk." Namine gave him a hard glare and Sora visibly deflated, "No dark powers I promise."

"You're link to Roxas may have been broken but we can still feel it every time you use your dark powers and it's been a lot recently." Sora scowled childishly, "Listen to the people who know; we Children of Dark know what a temptation dark powers are and we also know how easy it is to fall into the darkness."

"But you all use your powers daily!"

"We know how, born of darkness means coming with the manual. You weren't meant for darkness and thus you could fall so easily." Namine sad the last part quietly and the silence that fell irritated the brunet.

Riku slung an arm around Sora's neck and pressed his cheek against Sora's forehead, "I'll never let him fall!"

The little brunet 'hmphed' and wriggled out of Riku's hold, "Whatever…" He held a finger to Riku and pointed it as he spoke; it was more threatening now that there was power behind it Riku realized. "You aren't coming."

"Why not?!" Riku glared at Sora, "I am not letting you alone with that mouse; you'll kill each other."

"Walking doer of good like you? You'd fall headfirst for whatever B.S. sop story he comes up with first." Sora moved past them and to the door, reaching for his jacket when a hand bigger than his laced into his.

"You give me far too little credit and I'm hurt." Riku whispered into Sora's ear.

The smaller turned round and was surprised to see genuine hurt emanating from Riku's eyes, "Ri… it's not like I mean you're weak… I just don't want to lose you again." He pressed his forehead against Riku's, "Once was quite enough thank you."

Riku snorted and bestowed a light kiss on Sora's nose, "I told you: I'm going nowhere without you." Sora nodded and kissed Riku's nose. "Good response." Sora kissed Riku's lips. "Getting better." Sora gave a gentle lick at the area of skin between exposed from Riku's t-shirt at the base of his neck that sent a shiver down the elder's spine. "If you were a lawyer I would plead guilty."

Sora grinned and rolled his eyes, "Coat, now. We have a mouse to kill." He spotted Namine watching him from the kitchen doorway, "I meant 'talk to'." They left quickly.

Mickey looked up as the large, double doors to his quarters were thrown open, preceded by indignant cries of 'hey' and 'you can't do that'. It left no doubt in the four foot mouse's head who was coming. Even as the doors opened he wasn't surprised to see a spiky-haired teen of about eighteen who looked ready and capable to kill accompanied by a face he remembered vividly and had kept him awake all hours of the night until three days ago. Nightmares of the younger looking teen's face (even though it had only been about six months in total but war does that to you) bloodied and terrified, left to die on a cold, unforgiving landscape had haunted his mind upon sleep and tear-streaked faces of the lover he'd not been brave enough to face followed shortly after the dreams and stalked him through waking.

The small King blinked and realized both were now stood before him and neither with a cut anywhere. Admittedly they were clothed in loose jeans and long sleeved jackets but Mickey was content to let his mind believe they had escaped unscathed.

He was ready to speak to them, all pretence of sorrow forgotten and looking for the future when he looked up and saw the venomous hatred coursing through cerulean eyes from the lover, he presumed. Mickey paused, venomous didn't quite capture it, it ran deeper and gave him instant fear. The mouse turned his attention to Riku instead who seemed less violently inclined but definitely not welcoming.

"Please, sit." His voice was clearly strained as he tried to maintain a semblance of composure in the faces of horror and indifference. Sora made no move; Riku glanced at his boyfriend but remained firm. Mickey put a hand to his forehead and sighed, "I'm sorry Riku. This must be very difficult for you but I must ask you to leave." Both pairs of eyes widened in surprise but neither moved. Mickey sighed again, "Please, Riku."

The silveret made no move but Sora seemed about to speak when Riku cut him off, "I'm not going anywhere. I left you once and I nearly lost." He didn't take his eyes off Mickey but laced his hand with Sora's, "I'm right where I belong."

Sora looked down, "I know. I know you won't leave me ever again, but if speaking to me will make him leave, I think you should wait outside."

Riku frowned but nodded slowly, "I'll be right outside."

Sora nodded as the door closed. Silence fell as he turned back to the mouse king who gestured to a seat which Sora took this time. He reclined fully as though he could somehow meld with the chair and disappear. Sora was uncomfortable, but he bet Mickey was twitching beneath the desk.

"Sor-"

"Why are you here?" The brunet snapped.

"Straight to the point, I'd expect no less from the man Riku chose to love." Mickey smiled as though he were benignly all-knowing.

"Don't act as if you know him."

"I spent three months on a battlefield with him, I expect I should know hi-"

"Why are you here?" Sora repeated, "I have things I want to do."

Mickey sat back and sighed, "There's no easy way to say this… Sora, have you noticed… anything odd about your behavior?"

"Excuse me? Well, now that you mention it, I am sat here listening to you when I should be killing you for what you did so maybe." His voice was dripping with sarcasm.

Mickey groaned and rubbed his face tiredly, "I mean, we've had reports of dark powers; dark powers that don't belong to any of the Children of Dark. We fear that you may be contaminated, so I'll say it again. Have you been exhibiting different behaviors than before you left Destiny islands last week." Sora said nothing. "Look, we all thought you were dead. There is no possible way you could have survived and come back in one piece without dark interference."

"It couldn't have been light interference?" Sora shook his head to silence the mouse's reply, "If that's all you came for, then yeah. I have dark powers."

Mickey's mouth fell open, "…no."

"Er…yeah."

"You're lying!"

"Oh for goodness sake!" Sora jumped to his feet and briefly disappeared in a dark bubble which melted away to reveal him in shadow form, his clothes all black to match his ebony skin, his hair as black as night and the only colr change being his glowing yellow eyes as bright as headlights.

Mickey gaped at the new form Sora presented and was completely unable to move as Sora made a nonchalant gesture with a flick of his now clawed hand. He was unable to speak or rather he could make snarls and hisses but no words. He vanished again in the dark bubble and reappeared as normal.

"Proof enough for you?"

"Sadly, yes." Mickey sighed and sank into his chair, Sora quirked an eyebrow. "Sora, the reason I asked was because… Riku was one of the few of about the thousand keyblade warriors who fought to actually survive. We need him safe and completely focused to the side of light." Sora showed no signs of comprehension, "That means… we can't allow dark interference."

Sora jumped, his hands immediately readied, fingers splayed as he snapped onto high alert, "What?"

"I'm sorry, but boyfriends, lover or not… we need Riku as he is." Mickey snapped his fingers and two hidden doors slid up from behind the mouse's chair and ten armored guards rushed into the room, swords ready. "I'm so sorry, Sora."

Two guards leapt at him, dropping their swords and rushing him against the wall. He cried out and started kicking and screaming for Riku.

"RIKU!" HE had no idea why, but he was crying. The mere threat of being apart from Riku after what they had been through frightened him.

"Sora?!" Riku was on the other side of the door, Sora could hear him banging on the door which he presumed someone had sealed. "OPEN THE FUCKING DOOR, MICKEY!"

"RIKU! HELP ME!" Sora's body was being torn at by gusts of dark wind as his panicked mind fought for freedom. More guards descended upon him to restrain him as his body began ti flicker from his normal appearance to his shadow form. He couldn't focus hard enough to change fully and the four or five men pinning him back didn't seemed troubled by the strength he tried to use to throw them off.

"Sora!" Riku's voice was screaming through the door but the grunts and clinks of amour that surrounded the struggling brunet he could barely here his lover.

"Mickey! Don't do this, you fucker!" Sora was forcibly lifted from the ground and four more guards took firm hold of his legs and the began to take him away through one of the doors the guards had come in from, "If you think getting rid of me will make Riku happy, you are wrong!"

Mickey steepled his hands and put them against his face thumbs tucked under his chin as he tried to block out the screams from his mind. An old hand much formed but less so beautiful placed itself on the mouse's shoulder. Mickey jumped with surprise. He looked up into the age old face that held much wisdom but less mercy and compassion.

"You shouldn't sneak up on me like that, Ansem." The mouse chided gently, the toil of doing what he had clearly showing on his trained face as the screams became distant and Riku was quieted on the other side of the door, presumably a few guards had taken it upon themselves to shush the silveret's disturbance. "I have done as you recommended. I fear what Sora says may be true, however. If we anger him, he may turn away from us."

"You needn't take much council from the words of a shadow; they are much less in existence than those damned abominations the Children of Darkness." The old man's voice was raspy but firm as he spoke, "Dark creatures hold no form of interest to anyone from the light."

"He didn't seem much like a… creature." Mickey sank further back in his chair feeling disgusted with himself as he remembered the frightened face of the teenager as he was taken from Riku, "He seemed very much a young person being taken from his love. He seemed frightened." Mickey rubbed his face.

"He seemed, but things are never what they appear." The man named Ansem moved away from Mickey and followed through the door Sora had gone, his back to Mickey and the door he had come through, "You listen to my advice because you trust it, do not doubt me now."

"I don't, old friend." Mickey nodded to his conviction as Ansem disappeared through the door.

Axel handed Roxas the remote control and curled the blond even closer into his side as they watched the TV, a bowl of cherry flavored popcorn between them. Roxas refused to eat anything Axel hadn't made so, being the caring lover, Axel had made his own brand of nearly everything including popcorn in Roxas' favorite flavor.

Roxas' thumb paused over the channel number he wanted and his eyes widened, Axel felt a shiver through his heart and down into his gut. He knew that feeling all too well.

"Oh buggar…"

"Something's wrong." Roxas stated.

What if I wanted to fight?

Beg for the rest of my life

What would you do?

I was just curious, if anyone out there saw Doctor Who recently (bbc one yesterday for those in america) and saw the odd messages between The Doctor and The Master, incidently, if anyone would write a fanfic for the two of them, I'd be very happy. PM me about it. Hoped you liked the update. The lyircs are from The Kill by 30 Seconds to Mars.

Akaiba xxx