Okay, don't hate me. I know its really short but i got a queery about my grammar and spelling msitakes (i'm sure you all noticed them, hell theres loads simply in my AN's) so i wanted to take more time on the chapters. If you honestly don't care son long as its marginally understandable, tell me and i'll just type and update. Lol, its all about the audience folks! Love you and please Review.
Fears Keep Me Alive
Kairi folded her arms and pouted, "So I'm the only one who can't see Xikru?"
Roxas shook his head, "Nope." He thought for a moment then said, "It's easy to understand like this: we," He gestured to the Children of Dark, "Can see him. Riku can see him because it's his heart, of course. And… well, that's all we know so far."
Axel snorted, "Please, that's the least of our problems! Riku's on a warpath, Sora's gone mental and we believe he's been infected with darkness so most of our hearts have decided to come home." He growled and slammed his fist down on the table, "FUCK! I don't have any powers! In fact, there are only two of us here who do, I don't know about Xigbar, Xaldin, Luxord or Laxeaus because they've never told anyone who their Lights are. It's ridiculous! One of the most important times when our Light needs us and we can't protect him!"
"Riku being 'on the warpath' as you so eloquently put it, may be the only way Sora can be safe and don't doubt Namine's or my powers!" Zexion cried.
Axel leapt out of his seat and glared at the smaller man across the table, "I never said that!"
Zexion unfolded his arms and slammed them down on the table, hard, as he rose from his chair and matched Axel's stance, 'You were thinking it!"
"Prove it, short-ass!"
"Unlike some idiot, I still have my powers and I can smell what you're thinking!"
"Liar! You can sense what he's feeling not exactly what he's thinking!" Roxas cried.
Demyx made a noise of outrage and growled, "Don't call Zexy a lair and he's so good at his powers anyway he can tell what someone's thinking!"
"Either way I wouldn't put a dog's fate let alone Sora's in the hands of a psychopath who can blow stuff up and 'smell' people!" Roxas yelled back.
Demyx let out a battle cry and lunged at the small blond, catching him waist height and throwing both of them onto the kitchen floor. They'd spread out through the house to try and think but things were so tense due to the realization that most of them had lost their powers that it was impossible to control Axel at all. Axel depended on his fire power quite a lot, not like it was his sole purpose in life but without it he felt empty inside and he was becoming increasingly agitated.
Marluxia sighed and moved away from Namine's side as they both entered the kitchen and found Demyx and Roxas rolling around on the floor dead set on killing the other and Axel and Zexion having a stare-off with the occasional object near Zexion 'mysteriously' exploding as he got more angry.
Namine stormed up to the table and slammed her hands down on it. Kairi winced and murmured something about her poor table as Namine's pearly blue eyes darkened and the air around them became cold and heavy. A pissed off Namine was not good.
"Both of you stop it!" She shouted, neither moved, "I'll tell you this now, neither of you are helping the situation at all!" They both continued to glare at the other.
The petit blonde sighed dramatically and lifted both her arms elegantly, levitating both Axel and Zexion a little way off the ground to both their surprise and then swung her lower arms in an inward circle. The faces of the two males were priceless as they were suddenly encased in thick glass in the shape of a lotus. Namine sighed as the glass solidified and Zexion began to yell at her accompanied by Axel's cries of protest and the occasional banging on the prison. She ignored them and instead turned to Roxas and Demyx who Marluxia had successfully separated.
"You two should know better than this." They hung their heads slightly, "Sticking up for your boyfriend's is one thing but fighting childishly whilst one friend is in mortal peril? Can you really call yourselves Sora's friends?" She turned back to the man and elder teen in the glass shapes, "As for you two… Sora trusts all of us to look out for him. You both know as well as I that Sora wouldn't be all of your Lights if he hadn't willingly accepted it and to accept so many he deserves our protection!" She put her hands on her hips and scowled, "I don't want to hear another word pass your lips if it is not going to help Sora, do I make myself understood?"
They nodded and she released them, the glass melting away into nothingness as she left the room with Marluxia following.
"Maybe… maybe we can't help Sora. I mean, maybe he doesn't need my help." Riku mumbled to the sky.
Xikru rolled onto his side a little and gave himself a sad look. Riku had escaped through Kairi's bathroom window and made his way up and onto the roof, naturally Xikru followed but the heart was wondering whether he wanted a reply or maybe he should just leave Riku alone then he remembered it was himself he was thinking about he knew he'd want comforting.
"He does need your help; if he didn't then I wouldn't be here." Xikru pointed out.
Riku shook his head, "He escaped from Saix and Xemnas control without my help."
"He had your help." Xikru corrected, Riku gave him a confused look, "I was with him and I am you. Ever since you gave him your heart he's always had you to guide him. We have always been there for him and we will continue to do so." Xikru lifted a knee and propped his head on his arm with his elbow resting on his knee, "He must feel so alone…"
Riku shivered then sighed heavily, "He does… I can feel it." Riku lay back on the roof and curled up on his side. "I can feel how confused he is. Saix hasn't come to visit him because Saix is dead and Sora thinks its Saix he loves and he's hurting so much." Riku put his face in his hands, "He's hurting and there's nothing I can do to fix it." Xikru was startled by the sobbing noises he could hear coming from himself, "I want to see him so much!"
Xikru panicked, "You can't!"
"I know I can't! I'm not a complete idiot!" Riku snapped as he rubbed his eyes fiercely, "I can feel it in my chest where you should be, I heard him say he hated me once and I am still reeling!" Just as the words passed his lips he and Xikru jerked as the now familiar and despised pain ran through them like lightening. "Oh fuck!" Riku spat.
Xikru heaved a breath, a hand on his transparent chest as he tried to breathe, "Okay, let's promise never to think about that again!"
"Deal!" Riku gasped as he fell back again and lay stretched out on the tiled roof, "I want to see him but I know I can't." Riku turned on his side again, his back to Xikru to hide his rapidly filling eyes as he tried to control himself. He knew he couldn't hide from Xikru because the damn heart could feel what he was feeling. "I just want to hold him again, that night on the beach seems so long ago and we were so happy… so happy for such a short time."
Xikru laughed bitterly, no humor in his tone whatsoever, "Guess all the worlds are conspiring to tear Sora and us apart, huh?"
Riku nodded slowly. Xikru sighed and crept over to the other, Riku saw him coming out the corner of his eye and raised an eyebrow as the other rested his head on his shoulder and began to make himself comfortable on the solid male. "Comfy there?"
Xikru nodded. "I know you really don't like having me around and especially at a time like this, but I feel safer when I am near you and I know you feel the same. We are one and the same." Riku's mirrored reflection pointed out.
Riku gave a grunt of acknowledgement and put his head back down to sleep, "Just so you know, I still love Sora. Sorry pal but even if you are me, you stand no chance against him."
Xikru burst out laughing and Riku couldn't stop the grin that spread across his own face, "I still love him too, don't worry, I am not hitting on you at all and I don't want a date. I just want to sleep, 'kay?"
Riku nodded again, "Night, me, myself and I."
Xikru sniggered, "Oh don't tell me you've got some other body part wondering around here too?" The joke was bad and based on the fact Riku had referred to three people but Riku felt the need to reply in typical Riku fashion but of course, Xikru saw it coming. "Don't even bother." The ghost warned and the two fell asleep with faint smiles reflected on their faces.
Marluxia put a hand on Namine's shoulder as she opened her eyes, she smiled up at him and he returned the smile with a slight blush to his cheeks. Zexion looked over from the couch he was lying on, his back against one arm rest with a sleeping Demyx lying on his legs and head resting on his chest, a hand sneaked under the lilac-haired male's shirt to lie over his heartbeat.
"Did it work?" Zexion asked.
Namine nodded, "Seems Riku's heart is linked to us just as much as Sora's is because of its close proximity to Sora's heart. It seems to have grown rather used to having our hearts around and likes listening to me."
Demyx yawned as he opened one eye lazily, "Let's pretend I know what that means?"
Namine rolled her eyes and Zexion gave a half-smile at his lover's cuteness, "It means, we may be able to use Xikru without having to hurt Riku, the last time Riku saw Sora it left Riku in a lot of pain."
"Why?"
"Because Sora said the worst thing he could have possibly said to the person who had dedicated their life to him, he told Riku he hated him." Demyx gasped as Zexion continued. "That's why we can't risk Riku seeing Sora again until this is all sorted because now that Sora is under the influence of darkness, there's no telling what he could do and what repercussions it could have on Riku."
Demyx frowned, "Xikru's Riku's heart right? Isn't it more dangerous to let Sora near his heart than his body?"
Zexion let out a little snort, "This is Riku we're talking about, his heart is very strong and even if it's an unpredictable and often delicate thing never doubt its power. Its mere presence may snap Sora out of it."
Axel came into the room with drinks with Roxas and Kairi who were also carrying drinks. As they handed them out Axel spoke very softly, "Xikru was with Riku when they went in to see Sora, I remember seeing him there but I was more concerned with Sora at the time. Either way; don't count on it instantly fixing Sora." He sat down, back against a wall next to Roxas while he thought out loud, "I think… I think Xemnas may still be alive and he may just have more of a hand in this than we know."
Zexion gave a nod of his head, "Marluxia… that comment you made yesterday about Xemnas having the power to bring us back? I think it may be closer to the truth than any of us know." He sighed and Demyx shifted uncomfortably at the imposing words his lover spoke, "My only worry is, when he brings us back… are we the ones in control or is he?"
There was silence for a moment as everyone considered the possibility when Zexion became startled at the wetness he could feel through his shirt on his chest. He looked down to see Demyx shaking, handfuls of the elder's shirt clutched in his fists.
"Demyx?" Zexion asked softly so as not to catch too many peoples attention but that was pointless as they were all looking over anyway. At the sound of his boyfriend's voice his grip tightened until he was sure the shirt was either going to mould to the shape of hands or he was going to tear it. "Demyx? Demyx!" Zexion was beginning to panic, although he'd never admit it, when the blond failed to respond when suddenly Demyx spoke.
"I don't want to be anyone but me!" Demyx cried suddenly. He pushed his forehead against Zexion's chest and cried louder, "I don't want to be controlled! I don't want to lose my friends! I don't want to be dark!" He broke away from Zexion suddenly and leapt up from the couch, "I'm gonna go save Sora!"
As he made for the exit Zexion vanished with a loud 'crack' and then reappeared before Demyx, arms outstretched to catch the sitar player by his waist and restrain him, pointedly ignoring the cries of protest.
"Demyx!" Namine cried as one of the blonds' flailing hands caught Zexion's jaw hard and flung the lilac-haired man back a few feet and into a wall.
There was dead silence, Demyx had frozen deadly still and even stopped breathing as he watched Zexion whose hair had fallen into his face, shrouding his expression. Biting his lip and swallowing his fear Demyx approached his lover cautiously, "Z-Zex?"
The silence continued as Zexion took a breath and then faster a cat, Zexion had tripped Demyx and had him pinned to the floor and utterly defenseless. Demyx looked up into the dark purple eyes that seemed to constantly move and saw they were a raging whirlwind, then he noticed the trickle of blood running out of Zexion's mouth and down his lip and chin, a contrast of scarlet on paper white.
"Dem…" Zexion said softly, his hand tightening slightly around Demyx' wrists, "You can't go and even see Sora right now. You have no means of protection and he's likely to kill you. Even if the Sora we know would never, this one will." Zexion took a calming breath and blinked slowly as his temper calmed. "Leave it to me and Namine, we can handle him."
Demyx nodded obediently and Zexion backed off with a gentle kiss and reclaimed his previous seat on the couch without a sound. Everyone was in total shock but no one dared question the odd behavior. They reasoned that had it been anyone other than Demyx, Zexion wouldn't have hesitated to shove there head through a wall.
Sora looked out the window sadly. His mind burned and he couldn't sleep. He hasn't slept since the moment he'd woken the day before. He began to scowl, those stupid freaks of Light had to have something to do with it and why Saix hadn't shown up. Thinking about Riku and he's stupid groupies seemed to make his mind and chest hurt even more, had to be because Saix had been kept away by them.
His eyes gazed up at the stars and he found that try as he might, the hate he knew should have been there wasn't. There was no insatiable desire to destroy all of Light and have Dark reign supreme, not even the want to crush Riku was in him when he knew it was before. It had to have been, his mind was so foggy he wasn't sure of anything but his chest hurt like his heart was bleeding and he couldn't think about anyone for too long. Nothing was clear only the impulses to believe certain facts but he was at a loss for what he was supposed to think when even his mind didn't know why.
He jumped when there was a faint clunk at the door of the room but in the silence of the hospital, it sounded like a drum. Sora's head whirled round to peer as a figure steeped through the door, shutting it behind them and staying in the shadows as they watched the burnet. Sora's face brightened; there could be only one person who'd visit him.
"I knew you'd come!" Sora smiled brightly.
The figure laughed bitterly, the tone amused but at the same time accusative, "Sorry Sora. I don't know who you were expecting, but I can guarantee it wasn't me."
Who is the strange person visiting Sora in the dead of night? How come scary nurses didn't stop them? Who could it be? I don't even know! Lol, don't mind me. Just outta curiousity, silly question really buy, does anyone out there have REALLY bad guy problems? I struggle so hard to just get this guy I like to spend time with me and its depresses me. :( I want him to love me too!!!!
Akaiba xxx