The Open Door
By: KellyCRocker59
Epilogue: Haunted
Here it is! Please read the lyrics, they mean a lot to me. This is a sad chapter, and I cried writing it. But here it is; the end. Please enjoy! The song is Haunted by: Kelly Clarkson
I woke up slowly. It has been several months since your death, and I was still numb, not feeling anything. I laid there for awhile, and the tears came when I was fully awake. I curled up into a ball and cried, wanting you back so badly, and yet I knew I could never have you again. Why?
Louder, louder
The voices in my head
Whispers taunting
All the things you said
Faster the days go by
And I'm still
Stuck in this moment of wanting you here
Time, in the blink of an eye
You held my hand
You held me tight
Now you're gone
And I'm still crying
Shocked, broken, I'm dying inside
I finally got up and walked into the Cullen's kitchen, no one there. I picked up an apple from the counter and ate it silently, walking out of the house and into my truck. I drove to La Push, to your house. I stood there, staring at it before I walked to the door and slid in. The house had gone on sell after you're death, and Carlisle had bought it for me, knowing how much I wanted to be near you.
I sat on the couch inside the living room, and the tears came once more. I stood slowly and walked back to your bedroom, lying on your bed. I laid there, and the tears came once again. Could you see me crying for you? Did you know what this was doing to me?
Where are you
I need you
Don't leave me here on my own
Speak to me
Be near me
I can't survive unless I know you're with me
I could almost hear your voice as I laid there and cried. I screamed your name several times before I cried myself asleep. Would this ever get better? The hole that you left is going to kill me, that I was sure. I no longer had anything to live for, so why live at all?
Shadows linger
Only to my eye
I see you
I feel you
Don't leave my side
It's not fair
Just when I found my world
They took you
They broke you
They tore out your heart
I miss you
You hurt me
You left with a smile
Mistaken your sadness was hiding inside
Now all that's left of the pieces to find
The mystery you kept
The soul behind the guise
I awoke only to scream. To scream your name, as I did every time I remembered your touch. Don't leave me like this, please. Don't leave me alone! Don't let me lose myself! Save me, please! I need to see you. I can't survive without you. Can I just give up, please?
Where are you
I need you
Don't leave me here on my own
Speak to me
Be near me
I can't survive unless I know you're with me
I got in my car and drove to the one place where I could be closer to you than anywhere else. I slowly slid out of my car as I reached my destination. I put my arms around myself as a gust of cool wind flowed through the air. I opened the gate to the cemetery that was hidden from view by trees. There were only nine tombstones. Carlisle had made this a private cemetery, just for all of the people who had left us. Just for you.
I neared your tombstone, and collapsed over it, gripping the stone pedestal that had been erected, the dates of your birth and death lying on it. I heard a bolt of lightening, and then rain began to pelt me, but I didn't move. I clutched the stone, the tears never ending. How could you do this to me? How could you leave me like this? I can't make it. Just let me die. Don't make me suffer anymore! Let me be free!
Why did you go
All these questions run through my mind
I wish couldn't feel at all
Let me be numb
I'm starting to fall
I wouldn't leave you. I couldn't. My body began to feel so cold. I was numb, but only on the outside. It was so cold outside. Where was your warmth? Where were you? Why? Why did I have to continue on like this?
Where are you
I need you
Don't leave me here on my own
Speak to me
Be near me
I can't survive unless I know you're with me
It was freezing now. I knew that if I didn't get into my truck, I would suffer from hypothermia. But I would be with you. That was all that mattered. I would see you soon.
Where are you
I need you
Don't leave me here on my own
Where are you
I can't survive unless I know you're with me
I felt the life slipping from me, slowly. I was going to see you again. I could almost see your face. So close...and then, you were there.
"Bella." You whispered, and held me close.
The last traces of pain were leaving me. I was almost free. I gripped your neck, crying in joy. We were together. But then I felt a warm sensation jolt through me. You're looking at me with sad eyes.
"Bella, it's not your time." You say.
"No! Jake, I just want to be with you!" I cry, tearing welling up in my eyes as I look at you in horror and pain.
All I want is to be with you. But you frown, and lean down, kissing me passionately. How I missed that sensation, that wonderful feeling.
"I love you, Bella." You say, and I feel myself return to Earth before I can respond.
I cough, my throat cold. My whole body feels frozen. I look around, and I am wrapped in a thick blanket in a thick blanket. I am in a car, and Sam is driving. Emily is sitting in the back, holding me.
"B-Bella?" She asks in shock at hearing me cough.
"Y-Yes?" I say.
"Oh, goodness, Bella! You gave us such a scare!" She cried, holding me even closer.
Sam turns to look at me, and the two of them talk. But I can't hear it. All I can hear is your voice. You holding me close. Only you. I would have to live on until my time, and it hurts me so much to have lost you. But I will hold on to the memory of you until that day. And I will live for that day when I can see you once again.
You were smiling
You...were smiling
You...were...smiling