Chapter 18: Losing Soul
Author's Note: I have the feeling that you are going to hate me after the next few chapters.
Mood Song: You Save Me by Kenny Chesney.
Needless to say I didn't return to work that day and Edward stayed with me. He was even kind enough to run down to the drugstore and pick me up some aspirin.
Though he only gave me two and kept the bottle in his coat pocket. I didn't care in the least bit, as long as he was here. With me.
Around dusk, I was starting to grow restless around the house and suggested we go for a walk. It was beginning to grow chilly out so I pulled my coat tighter up around my chin.
And when we passed under a streetlamp that was just flickering on, bathing the sidewalk in pale light, that was when I saw it.
The vacant expression that hung dully in his almond orbs. I stared intently at it, foolishly wishing it would disappear right before my very eyes. Gently, I nudged him in the shoulder and he turned his hawk-like gaze on me and I was hit full-force with the sadness those eyes held.
"Are you alright?" I question softly, wanting so much to cup his face in my hand.
He lets out a short, barking laugh and I notice his fingers clutch as his cloak subconsciously. "I'm fine. Why do you ask?" he smiles.
But the vacant look doesn't leave his eyes, only seeming to cloud his vision further. I shake my head and sigh. "No reason."
No more words are spoken and I end up walking him home. And I catch it one last time before he shuts the door.
The same blank expression and I realize with a gasp on the sidewalk what it was exactly. A biting wind picks up and forces me to walk faster. Back to my apartment. Back to my haven.
For I saw Death. And it mocked me.
Mask of Mirage