I LIVE! And I'm updating! Sorry, I haven't been very inspired to update :sigh: But it's Spring Break and I'm rearing to go!
Trunks: Finally...
Goten: I agree where the Hell have you been?
G2: None of your buisness! I've been busy :muffled cries for help coming from G2's closet: "HELP!"
Goten: Go-Gohan!
G2: I-I gotta go, bye :runs off:
Goten/Trunks: Get back here!
Disclaimer: I do not own DragonBall/Z/GT OR the song 'Blurry' by Puddle of Mud (Which I love!)
Hunger Point
By: BlackTigerG2
Chapter Seven
"The hatred you're carrying is a live coal in your heart-far more damaging to yourself then to them."
-Lawana Blackwell
OOOOO
I can't believe they...
...my family, did that to me...
They think I'm crazy don't they...? Am I crazy? They ambushed me with that damn shrink, telling me I've got problems... THEY DON'T KNOW ME!
I stopped doing it...I don't hurt myself anymore like I used to do...it hurt too much, but it felt good. All those times I did that...make myself throw up...it wasn't because I...
...didn't like myself, how I looked. Like they think. It was because...
...I'm sorry I can't tell you...my Trunks...
You're so pure, so innocent in all of this, so much better then me. And I love you for that. You rescued me from the clutches of my so called family, saying they cared about me, when really they wanted to hurt me. They wanted to...
...cause me pain...
...make me remember what I've done...
They don't have to do that...my scars do that for them...make me think back...back to then... when all the pain began...the pain you gave to me...
:Flash Back:
"I'm Goten..."
The tall figure pushed aside Krillin and the others and took gigantic steps towards me, I was afraid.
"And I'm Goku...HI!"
>>Everything's so blurry
and every one's so fake
and everybody's empty
and everything is so messed up>>
He smiled like he was waiting. Should I...? He's really my...my...
"DADDY!" I jumped from behind mommy and into the bear hug that this man..no..my daddy offered, he tossed me up in to the air like an airplane, we laughed, we hugged. He told me that I was a strong little guy, just like him. I wanna be like him, wow this is...is...really happening. My daddy! I'll always love him...
Four Years later...
"Come on Dad! Pick me up for the picture!" I thrusted myself into my father's arms and he cradled me, just like when we first met when I was little. He gave a loud laugh, so did I. We bumped heads playfully as Majin Buu took the picture, the click of the camera was our signal that that the photo was taken...but I wanted to be in my father's arms forever...he promised me I'll always will be...
"...You two are like peas in a pod..." Said my mother.
>>Pre-occupied without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl>>
Two Years Later...
"You can do it Pan!" I cheered on my barely a year old niece, "Yea!"
Baby Pan took a few uneasy steps towards me, her uncle Goten, and gave me a big baby smile. Dad was watching, smiling, he's always smiling isn't he?
"Alright Pan, now we can teach you to fly, right Goten!" I knew he was joking but I responded anyway, "RIGHT!" I'm always with my dad since I can't see Trunks anymore, last I heard he was in America to gain some expeirence in buisness stuff like his mom, too bad I miss him.
Without noticing my father dissapeared from where he was standing and IT'd behind me and Pan, who was now in my arms, he picked me up into a big hug as I grasped Pan.
>>You could be my someone
you could be my scene
you know that I'll protect you
from all of the obscene>>
"HAHAHA! I bet she'll be able to beat you up soon, Goten!"
"No way!"
"BE CAREFUL GOKU-SA!"
"Aaw, they're ok, ChiChi..." My mother will probably never change, oh well.
At The World Martial Arts Tournament...
"Why is Goku-sa acting like that?" I heard my mom ask Videl.
"Not sure, he NEVER provokes his opponent like that!"
"He called that boy's mother a cow! That's not like Goku-sa at all!"
"..Dad...?"
>>I wonder what you're doing
imagine where you are
there's oceans in between us
but that's not very far >>
He flew up to the dark skinned boy and spoke to him softly, I could barely hear what they were saying "...Hop on..." The boy was reluctant but my dad gave a beaming smile and took up dad on his offer and got on his back since he couldn't fly.
Where is he going? Dad? And that kid, he's leaving with that kid? WHY?
"Bye guys!" My dad leapt into the air and took off with the strange kid.
"What you're leaving!" Gohan shouted out to my father, bet he didn't even hear him.
"See you later!" He was gone.
He's...gone...just flew away...just like that...like me and mom or Gohan or Videl and Pan didn't exist. How can a father just leave? Sure he has left before when I was younger, but that was just for a week or two to train...he took me with him...sometimes.
But this time, he's really leaving! For good!
Dad?...Dadddy?...Please..don't...
"DAD!" I fell to my knees, Gohan calling to me. Everything is different now, isn't it?
:End Flash Back:
"Chibi?"
Why did you leave like that? You're the reason why I do the things I do! You're why I hurt myself, hurt mom and Gohan...I DON'T WANNA HURT TRUNKS!
"Goten!"
It's because of you! Always you! Always!
>>Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
Well ya' shoved in my face!
This pain you gave to me!>>
"Goten! Goten!" Someone's shaking me, but I don't care.
"GOTEN! WHAT'S THE MATTER!"
...stop yelling at me...stop... please...
"CHIBI!"
...I'm sorry...
"YOU'RE SCARING ME, GOTEN!"
...But...you're always yelling at me...to do better...be smarter when I can't...
"PLEASE!" The voice..it's crying, sobbing against me, I panic. I struggle to get rid of those accusing arms and hands, I'm not good enough, that's why he left. I push up against something and get loose.
"GOTEN!"
...I'm falling..
..I feel like I'm falling...
>>Can you take it all away!
Can you take it all away!
Well ya' shoved it in my face!
This pain you gave to me!>>
I remember what I used to do...
...what he made me do...what I feel like doing now
but can't...
...to hurt myself...
"...Trunks..."
I feel those arms around me again, pulling me closer, but thye seem different, warmer and loving.
I awaited for the ground, but it never came, he has me in his arms, my Trunks, it has to be Trunks. Kami, I'll only hurt him if he stays with me, why does he insist to protect me? To help me? Kami, I don't deserve him. I'll only hurt him, I can't morph who am I, I can't change what is me, what I turned into.
>>Every one is changing
there's no one left that's real
to make up your own ending
and let me know just how you feel>>
"Oh my kami, Goten, why did you do that? You scared the Hell outta me! You're lucky I caught you, but why didn't you fly, Goten!"
I didn't listen...
"Goten-chan?"
...I never listen, it's not like they ever do...
"Please say something!" I shaken 'awake' from my day dreaming, or should I say day-nightmare, 'cuz I sure wasn't dreaming.
"Trunks-kun?"
"Chibi? What happened?" My Trunks had tears brimming his eyes, great, now I've hurt Trunks, I just want to die.
"Why did you let yourself fall like that, Goten?" Trunks cradled me once more in his arms like he did before when we were flying, kami, why do I feel so weak?
>>'Cause I'm lost without you
I cannot live at all
my whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl>>
Trunks was finally able to fly us to my home on Mt. Poaz without me falling again, I don't know why I feel like this again. I promised myself that I wouldn't succumb to those old feelings again, I scared the Hell outta my brother and mom the last time I grew weak.
My lover laid me on the sofa and ruffled my hair and went upstairs. Where is he going?
"Trunks-kun?"
He came back downstairs with an armfull of my clothes, my gi's, jeans, t-shirts, socks, boxers, anything that you would normally take with you when going on a trip or something. What is going on?
"Trunks, what-what are you doin'?"
"We're leaving together, I won't let them take you away. Not again are you leaving me, not when I just got you back, Chibi..."
"They didn't say anything about taking me away Trunks,they just wanted me to take to that doctor and--"
"DON'T BE STUPID!"
"Trunks--"
"From what you've told me, even though how little it was, I know what they do, they say they just wanna help and talk, but the truth of it all is that they put you in an institution or some hospital and poke and prode you like some lab rat. I don't--I don't want that to happen to you, koi," he wiped his phantom tears and went into the kitchen.
Trunks POV:
I walked into the kitchen and opened the fridge to find it stocked with food. Which was strange, as a child I always knew that the fridge was never FULL. I mean, even if ChiChi only has to cook for one demi-saiyan now, which was Goten, food should still be pretty scarce. I remember how me and Goten would alway have contest to see who could eat the most spicy dumplings in under ten minutes.
I reached to the side shelf inside and pulled out an apple. Goten told me that he wasn't doing what he said he used to do--force himself to vomit. So he should be able to eat this little apple no problem right? I have to help him. I have to save him.
>>You could be my someone
you could be my scene
you know that I will save you
from all of the unclean>>
I walk back into the room and Goten is fidgeting with his long white t-shirt that he changed into, guess what he was wearing was wet with his and my tears.
"Here." I hold out the apple.
"I'm not hungry."
"Take it." I said with more force. Goten just stared at the apple like it was some sort of disgusting fungus and gulped loudly. Why won't he take it?
"Goten.."
"I don't want it, Trunks-kun."
"This is all you have to eat, at least take a couple of bites, Goten-chan," I shove the apple into his grasps.
"I said...I...don't...want...it..." He gritted his teeth and shoved it back into my chest.
"Why?"
"Why what?"
"Why won't you eat it Goten?"
"I'm just not hungry, Trunks, you can't force it down my throat.."
"Only if I have to, Chibi."
Goten scoffed and grabbed the apple from me and took three large bites, the apple almost gone, bit down to the core, was tossed behind his shoulder. He sat back down roughly and crossed his arms, reminding me of my father, and said with a full mouth, "There happy, Trunksh."
"Don't talk with your mouth full, Chibi," I smiled, satisfied that he ate the apple at least.
"Stay here." I went back upstairs to finish packing, I better hurry, Gohan and his mother might be here soon.
Normal POV:
Goten sat still on the sofa with his mouth full of apple which was starting to drip from the corners.
>>I wonder what you're doing
I wonder where you are
There's oceans in between us
but that's not really far>>
He checked behind his shoulder and scurried to the kitchen sink, he coughed out the remains of the apple and slushed it down the drain. Wiping his mouth, he tip toed to the drawer next to the stove and opened it. The demi took out a small potato peeler and pocketed it well enough so no to make a bulge in his pants, so Trunks wouldn't notice.
'I don't deserve food. Nourishment. Trunks' love..not after what I've done.'
"Ok everything's in capsule, lets go, I'll we gotta do is head off to the bank, empty my account and get the hell outta here!" Trunks beamed at his younger lover, who smiled weakly back.
"Ok."
The two took to the sky as Goten held on to Trunks, making sure to hide his tears.
>>Nobody told me what you thought
nobody told me what to say
everyone showed you where to turn
told you when to runaway>>
OOOOO
"WHAT!"
"It's true, Trunks just whisked Goten out the window leaving me and Gohan completly embarressed, he is in so much trouble! "
"Don't worry ChiChi, we'll find them..."
"Thanks Bulma..."
Gohan sat in the large recliner as the two mothers discussed about their delinquet sons. He had his own agenda to formulate to find his little brother and lover.
'I warned you Trunks about not hurting Goten...you better pray to kami that I don't find you in the mood I'm in right now...'
OOOOO
Trunks emptied his special bank account from Capsule Corps, all 4.5 million zeni of it that is.
"Trunks...won't you're mom be--"
"Shh, just go back to sleep, I'll wake you when we get there."
>>Nobody told you where to hide
nobody told you what to say
everyone showed you where to turn
showed you when to runaway>>
OOOOO
Goten POV:
"Goten wake up..."
"Whha-aat?"
"We've arrived..."
"Where are we?"
"Kyoto."
"That's almost 2,000 miles away from Mt. Poaz!" We landed in an alley and he set me down.
"That's the point, Chibi, come on!" Trunks tugged on my hand into a very tall building that stood infront of us, it had to be at least as tall as Kami's Lookout, it was huge. He shoved me into the elevator, making sure that no one else but us was in it. He pressed floor '32' and we began our journey upwards.
When it finally stopped and dragged me once more to large white and gold double-doors and took out a card key and swiped it into the silver doo-hickey that opens the door. It was HUGE!
A long soft couch circled the middle of the room with a bar in the back, soft luscious red carpet, bean bags (he knows I love those), heavy gold curtains perfect to block the sun if you wanna sleep in late, plus a huge flat screen tv and acomputer on a desk. And in the master bedroomhad a king sized bed with a red fluffy comforter and golden embroidery.
"Trunks, there's only one bed..."
"And the problem is?"
"Where am I gonna--ooohh..." It dawned on me.
Trunks took me into his arms and gentlylead me to the bed and placed me in the center. He kissed me hard and good and nipped on my ear, I sighed in content, eyes half lidded. He began to hook his fingertips under my shirt to pull it upwards, still sucking on my neck, becoming tender.
"Just make it all go away, Trunks, just make it all go away..."
>>This pain you gave to me
You take it all away
you take it all away
explain again to me
you take it all away
explain again to me
...just take it all away... >>
OOOOO
Ok there you go! Talk about angsty stuff!Hope you enjoyed it! Please review! I might write more! Hee Hee!
:Gives Son Grin:
-BlackTigerG2