Chapter 12

Questioning

Three days later it was the weekend and boy, am I happy that it is. I had freedom from school and I had no more concerts until after graduation. Oh my gosh, I am so happy.

Since my little melt down on Tuesday, I've been having weird nightmares which included Matt. They were all different, but it was all the same, having some sort of physical contact which all ended out the same way; with Matt kissing me with a lustful look on his face. It made me think that maybe Matt is planning up something and my subconscious is telling me to watch out, but I feel like it's just me getting paranoid again.

Anyway, Jake has been busy with his work lately so I hardly see him around so it's always been me being the third wheel with Lilly and Oliver or Luann and Timmy. It feels weird, of course, but I just can't stay home alone. I'd feel so scared and insecure if I'm alone and I always need someone to be with.

Luann, Lilly, and I are going to the mall to buy Lilly's and Luann's dress for Senior Ball. I wasn't going, of course, I don't think anything will make me go. I just want to sit and relax at home and do nothing of course and maybe with Jake if he was up for it.

I still hadn't talked to Jake about our relationship. I remember when we were sophomores; he asked to take the next step in the relationship. I thought it was cute of course and in the end the relationship did turn into something big I just sometimes question it. We've gone through so much in the past few years and he's the best thing that has ever happened to me, but I need to talk about this and soon before I explode. It's all about him and whatever his decision is with where our relationship stands.

I sighed as I sat in the back seat of Lilly's car while Lilly and Luann talk about what they want to choose and what color their looking for. Lilly is looking for a lavender colored dress and Luann a red. I never really cared for what they wore. They're pretty in whatever they chose and I'm just there to give them pointer in what they match in.

We were close to the mall and I sat up from my eat, and moved to the middle in the back of the seat. I moved to the edge of the seat and put my elbows on both of the front seats. I stuck my head between Lilly and Luann and smiled.

"Oh em gee, we are so close to getting both of your prom dresses." I said and shook my head. I could care less about this, but I just wanted to see how they'd react. I need to get my mind off of Jake and Matt. It's just too much for me right now and thinking about that is just so weird.

"I know!" Luann squealed. "I never thought I would change so much compared to how I was back in my 8th grade year. I used to think that if I ever turned this girly, I would rather die. I guess in the end it really worked out." Luann stated.

It was true. Back in the day, Luann was a mess. She wore overalls and she had thick huge glasses. She needed some serious help and her heavy accent really did made a few people a little scared. I used to think she changed just to ruin my life even more, but now it doesn't matter. We're friends and its okay I guess.

"Going to senior ball with my hubby to be. It just sounds so weird." Lilly shook her head as she drove into the parking area of the mall.

Lilly couldn't keep the secret in that Oliver asked her to marry him any longer and she ended up telling Luann that same day she told me. Luann was completely shocked as was I, but she was happy too. It's kind of funny.

"It's cute that you're calling him that. When would you actually marry him? Like, after college or something?" Luann asked as she turned to Lilly.

"Yeah, I wonder the same thing. Would you really wait that long to get married?" I asked and smiled.

"Yes." She sighed. "It really depends if we really love each other I guess you could say and I really love Oliver. I trust him so if he can wait then I'm happy." Lilly replied. "Anyway, enough of me." Lilly said clearly showing that she didn't really want to talk about herself.

"Well, it's still cute. Monday night, Miley and I were talking about her getting married with Jake since apparently he's The One for her." Luann said and I glared while hitting her shoulder.

"Hey! I'm still wondering if he is still The One. I covered my mouth as Lilly pulled in a parking spot. I shouldn't have said that. Seriously, that was stupid of me to say. Now they're going to think something is wrong with our relationship when everything seems perfect. I'm in shit now.

"No way!" Lilly said and turned to me as soon as she hit the break.

"What?" Luann gasped and I sighed.

"I'm just being in denial. I'm stupid right now so don't mind me. I've been-" I lightly tapped Luann and she got the message.

"You know what, let's go already." Luann said and pushed open her door. I opened my door as well and started to walk.

"What was it Miley?" Lilly asked and I shrugged.

"I'm just uncomfortable right now and I have some issues."

"Does it have to do with what you had a hard time telling me the other day?" She asked and I nodded while looking the other way.

"Okay, I'll just wait until you're ready to tell me." Lilly added in quickly and started to walk faster where Luann was skipping toward the mall.

I smiled at my friends and kept my pace at a slow pace. If only she knew what I'm going through then it would be easier but I'm not sure if I tell her then she's going to tell everyone else and I really don't want that.

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I waited on a chair while looking around the store at a few dresses. They were cute, sure and I would buy one if I was going, but I'm not. I haven't even made plans with Jake if he wanted to go, but I know for a fact that he wouldn't go. He's one that would go to stuff like these, but I'm just not in the mood I guess, then again, would he go even if I'm not going? Would he bring someone else? Would he go back to his same egotistical guy just to go to the Senior Ball with someone?

I sighed. I need some fresh air.

I got up from my seat and bit my lip. I'm supposed to be here with Lilly and Luann to help them, but they wouldn't mind if I left early, would they?

I rolled my eyes. I'll go out for a minute. I nodded and started out the store. Once I reached the door, I looked around and saw people just walking around. We were on the second level of the mall and most of the people were usually downstairs at the game shops or something. I went toward the railings and I bent my arms in front of me and leaned my arms against it.

Wind thrust in the air and I lifted my head up sniffing the air. It feels good doing this, it's like a new beginning coming in and it felt good.

I dropped my head down and looked at the people scattered around, hanging things and buying things at the stands. They looked like they were having fun and I'm not really. I should have never agreed to this.

I closed my eyes and planted my chin atop my hands and started to think.

What would happen if I took a break with Jake again? Would it be like how it was when I was in 9th grade? Would everything be so dramatic and traumatizing or something? I just want to see if I could live a life without Jake. I want Jake, in fact, I love him more than I lead on, but I don't want to sound dependant toward Jake. I feel like a burden each time he has to cheer me up or save me and it's just weird. I need a talk with Jake.

I felt to hand on my hips and something on my shoulder. My eyes widened and I thrust my head backward.

"Ah!" I gasped and hit my head against the persons head.

"Ow!" The person said and let go of me.

I whipped around and saw Jake rubbing his forehead. "Jake?!" I said and walked up to him.

He smiled at me dropped his hand from his forehead. "Hey Miley." He said.

I pulled him a hug and he chuckled as he held on to me tightly.

"I hate it when you're busy with work." I said and he pressed lips against my cheek.

"Sorry." He whispered. We held onto each other for a while and it still made me thinking. I need to talk to him about our relationship.

As soon as we parted I bit my lip. We stared at each other for a minute and I held my breath. I need to tell him damn it.

"Jake, lo-" I started, but soon was shut up with his lips.

He kissed me right on the spot and I couldn't resist it. I wanted to be close to Jake, but I want to question him about our relationship. My hands which lay on his chest was ready to push him away, but soon found their way around his neck, pulling him closer to me.

I felt him pulling away, but I didn't want it to end. Instead, I went on my tiptoes and kissed him harder. I didn't care if people were watching us; I just wanted to kiss him.

I finally pulled away, out of breath, and kept my eyes closed. He pressed his forehead against mine and he sighed.

I slowly opened my eyes and found him smiling at me. "Good hello." He grinned and kissed my cheek.

"Only for you." I whispered.

"What are you doing here?" He asked and lifted his head from my own. He let go of me and took a hold of my hand. He pulled me toward the benches and sat down at it. I sat down next to him and he draped his arm around my shoulder. I leaned against him and noticed a few bystanders staring, but I didn't care.

"Jake…" I said and he put his head against mine.

"Yes?" He asked and I shrugged.

"Where are we?" I asked and raised my eyes at him. He had a confused look on his face, as if he didn't know what I was talking about and I sighed.

"Where are we in the relationship?" I finally said and his mouth formed and O.

"What do you mean? You should know, we've done everything, I thought we held a healthy relationship." He said and started to frown as he lifted his head from mine.

I moved my head away from his shoulder and turned my body toward him. "Uhh…" I thought for a second. "Hmm, you know about Oliver and Lilly?" I asked him and he grinned and nodded.

"Of course, Oliver tells me everything." He said.

"If they're ready to get married, then what are we?" I asked him and his eyes widened.

"You want to get married?" He moved forward and put his elbows on his knees and covered his face with his hands. "Wow… umm… Wow I never thought of it, I mean, are we ready? Wow, will we actua-" He said as he started to get flustered.

I took a hold of his arm and he looked at me.

"No Jake, I'm not asking you to marry me, I'm just asking you how close we are in this relationship. Do you love me, how much do I mean to you?" I asked with such a serious tone in my voice. I was desperate to hear what he had to say and I didn't care anymore. I want to hear what he says even if I do get hurt.

"I think…" He said and took my hands in his. "… Our relationship is strong and I really love you, with all my heart. I can never let you go because you mean so much to me Miley. You should already know that." He said and put a hand on my cheek. "Don't think that I don't care about you because you mean everything to me."

"I love you too Jake, but what would happen if we took a break?" I found myself saying without intending it. It just came out of my mouth and the shock look on his face told me what he was thinking about.

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Matt sat on his bed, shaking his head in frustration.

"Damn it, it's not working out." He shouted and stood up from his seat on the bed. He walked around the small room and went to his window. He pushed the curtains open and looked outside of the window. Out he could see streets, cars, people, and buildings.

It got him angry, he was so close to Miley this past week and he could've made his move by then, but he didn't. Instead he just waited and now he's thinking that there may never be another chance.

He was growing restless. He wanted his plan to work soon, he wanted to see Miley now and he wants to do anything to get to her. He doesn't care anymore. He just wants to get over it and gain vengeance of why he was in jail in the first place.

He closed the curtains in frustration and turned around. He started to pace in circles. He just can't get his plan straight. Before his little meeting with Miley, his plan was going well, but that one meeting changes everything. She should know that he wanted to do something to her, which isn't always a good thing. He wanted it to be a surprise, so he had to think about it.

"What is coming up that could get her hopes up and that would most likely be her happiest moment ever which could go crashing down?" He asked himself.

He sat down on his bed and put his fingers on the bridge of his nose. He squeezed it along with his eyes and shook his head. He didn't know what was coming up at all. If only his partner would answer his calls then he would be happy.

Suddenly his phone started to ring and he turned to his nightstand to answer it. He picked up his phone and pressed his phone against his ear.

"Hello?" His gruff voice said and soon realized how it was.

"Matt, it's me." The voice low and soft on the other line.

"Don't call me that name; how many times will I have to say that?" Matt angrily said.

"Sorry." Cole replied softly.

"Whatever, I was just thinking about you Cole; I need to know if there are any good events coming up." He said through the phone.

"The school is holding Miley and Jake's Senior Ball next week." Cole simply replied.

Soon Matt started to smile with a wicked look on his face. "Ah yes, that night sounds very interesting. What day will it be?" He asked and paused.

"Saturday." Cole hissed. "At a hotel not too far from my house."

"I'll have to do more planning, but I'll get back to you when I'm ready." He said and hung up the phone without saying goodbye.

Knowing news about upcoming events that involved the school excited him. Maybe then will he make the move he desired to make for the few weeks he's been out of jail.

A/N Okay sorry if this chapter confused you. I had serious writer's blockage and it irritated me that I didn't know what to write lol. Hope you liked this chapter though and a lot coming up.