Disclaimer: I don't own Prince of Tennis nor any of its characters.
Author's Notes: Written for the LJ 30Angsts community. Claimed the HiyoGaku pairing, coz I wanted to write more of them. And I wanted to write some angst, too. Don't expect much happy endings. XP
Enjoy the second shot!
Warnings: Angst, of course. X(
Title: Trust-worthy
Theme: 1. Broken
Summary: Hiyoshi thinks of Mukahi and sound systems.
"I promise I won't tell."
Mukahi-san,
I don't think you've realized, but you're not exactly trust-worthy.
Talking to you is like talking to a microphone hooked to the loudest and biggest loudspeakers. Everyone can hear the voice transmitted through the speakers. Everyone knows the secrets.
I thought I could change you. I thought I could unhook those speakers, get rid of the microphone, and replace them with a well-soundproofed room.
But I couldn't.
Instead, I think the mic was replaced by a bigger, even better mic, and the loudspeakers turned up full volume. And the secrets were announced.
My secrets.
I thought we had something. I thought that what we had could at least exempt me from your large sound system. I thought that I could spill out my secrets to you, and you would turn off the microphone and keep my secrets.
"His parents divorced because his dad was cheating on five girls, all at once! He has like, half-siblings everywhere. It's true! He told me so himself."
But maybe it was just me wishing that we had something. Me wishing that I were someone special to you and that you would never hurt me. Me wishing that you loved me.
Those were stupid wishes.
I'm realizing now, that your sound system would never short out. It would keep on growing, and keep getting 'better'. And I can't really live with that.
"We're doubles partners now, right? You can trust me, Hiyoshi."
You were never trust-worthy.
But, somehow, I still love you.
END A.N.G.S.T.