Where has that old friend gone?
Lost in a February song

Elliot stared at Olivia, tears welling in both of their eyes.

"Why Liv?" he asked.

"Why what?" she screamed at him. As soon as the words came out, she felt bad. She knew "what."

Tell her it won't be long
Till she opens her eyes

Opens her eyes

"God, Liv, you just can't do it can you?" Elliot spat. He was so hurt, how could she not trust him, after eight years as partners?

"Do what?"

"Let go of everything and not be afraid of your feelings." Elliot knew he had hurt her feelings, and he felt bad, but she needed to hear it. Sometimes the truth hurts.

Olivia, deep down, knew he was right, but she was still so scared. She'd been hurt too many times. After that, she promised herself she'd never let anyone in. She'd get what she wanted then walk out the door. But now, this man had worked his way into her heart. She knew she loved him more than anything, more than life itself. But if she opened up, she would be giving this man a piece of her heart. She trusted him completely, but what if she was just blinded? She knew that was not true, Elliot loved her, but she wasn't ready. Olivia spun around and walked out of the restaurant.


Where is that simple day
Before colors broke into shades
And how did I ever fade
Into this life, into this life

They had just gone there to celebrate Liv's release from the hospital, but it turned into more. Elliot grabbed his coat laid a twenty on the table and made a mad dash for the door.

"Liv, wait." He ran up behind her and grabbed her shoulder. "Liv, I'm sorry, I never meant—"

"Elliot, I know, I know." She said crying. She turned and faced him. She was let her tears flow freely now. She spontaneously wrapped her arms around waist and laid her head on his chest. "Elliot, I'm sorry too. I know, I'm just, I'm scared."

And I never want to let you down
Forgive me if I slip away
When all that I've known is lost and found
I promise you I, I'll come back to you one day

"Hey, its okay, I'm sorry I shouldn't have said that, but Liv, you can't be afraid. I'll be there, no matter what. Here, I'll walk you home." Elliot wrapped his arm around her waist and began walking with her toward her apartment. Olivia's face was still buried in Elliot's chest. She cried softly and thought to herself that she had never felt so safe, as she felt right now, in his arms. When they reached her apartment, half of her wanted to run up to her apartment and the other half never wanted this walk to end.

"Thanks, El." Olivia pulled away hesitantly. As soon as she did, she longed to be right back next to him, wrapped in his arms, crying on his shoulder.

"See you tomorrow, Liv." Olivia turned and looked as Elliot walked away. She felt terrible. How could she let that man walk away? She went to the elevator and pushed the up button. She got into the elevator and as soon as the door slid closed, she let go. All of her emotions were coming out. She was crying because she was so mad at herself for hurting Elliot by not trusting him. She was crying because she felt so alone and the only person that could ever fix that feeling had just walked away. She went to the door of her apartment, fumbled with her keys, and then let herself in. As soon as she was through the door, she dropped her things on the floor, flung the door shut, and then rushed onto her bed. She lay face down in the pillows and cried. When she regained control, she grabbed a pillow and clung on to it.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry—"She kept repeating it over and over until she drifted off to sleep.