Song: "Far Away"
Artist: Nickelback
Album: "All the Right Reasons", released 2006
FAR AWAY...
The burial was over. They had laid the best of the clan to his final resting place. The clan surrounded Elisa silently, watching her. She was weakened by this loss; she lost a piece of her when he died…
Her footsteps were slow, deliberate. Tachia and Brooklyn walked on either side of Elisa, taking her hands, wanting to lead her back into the castle. Still in a daze, she didn't feel them hold her hands until she looked down at them. Almost angrily, she swatted at them slowly.
"Let go. I'm not going into the castle just yet. I need to be alone with him."
Brooklyn and Tachia gave each other meaningful looks and nodded. They let go of her hands, and watched as Elisa walked slowly back towards where he had just been buried moments before. They noticed how she continued to keep her eyes on the stone floor, and how she had joined her hands in front of her, as if in silent prayer.
"Brook, no need to worry. I'll stay here and make sure she's alright. Go inside with the clan, love. It's beginning to get cold." Tachia said, brushing a hand across Brooklyn's cheek softly. He gave a look of worry at the sight of Elisa, but didn't dare contradict his mate, and did as he was told. He knew she had a lot of experience with dealing with grief. Tachia turned back her attention to Elisa, who was now about fifty feet away from her. She decided internally that she would watch Elisa and allow her the time she needed to be alone, until Elisa showed any signs that this time was detrimental to her. Elisa stood right in front of the grave, ignoring the late autumn chill that suddenly fell over the night air.
Elisa regarded the mound of dirt that had been piled over the casket and shook her head.
"Damnit, this isn't right…."
This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know, you know, you know…
"I can't believe you are gone. It sunk in, but now it just feels like some cruel joke…"
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go
Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore...
"God, I wish there were a way to bring you back, but Puck confirmed that was impossible. Fuck, what good is magic if it can't prevent something this senseless. For that matter, what the fuck was the point of that goddamned wish? I would do anything to take back the actions of Halloween night. It was all wrong. All of it just went wrong. I swear upon my very life, Goliath, that I will find Thailog and his associate and kill them both myself. Goddamnit, it was most likely Demona. I'll rip her heart out…no, I can't do that. I would be the biggest hypocrite in the world. But it hurts so bad, Goliath. There is nothing I can do to bring you back to me. What I would give to see you again…"
Elisa dropped to her knees before the grave, causing Tachia to step forward worriedly. She retreated when she saw that Elisa wasn't sobbing, but smoothing some of the newly placed dirt. She continued to speak to the grave…
On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know, you know, you know...
"Why did it take so long for us to find each other, and realize our true feelings for each other? We wasted nearly three years of our lives being stubborn and thinking that our love was wrong. Now I look back and I hate myself for pushing you away those times you wanted to talk about it. Goddamnit, what a fool I was. What a fool I am…"
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go
Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore...
"I wonder where you are right now. I know your body is before me, six feet under the earth atop this building, but I wonder where your spirit is. I've never been overly religious, like Tachia and Eosine, but I've always thought that the spirit lives on, and my dad always taught me the same from the Native teachings. I hope that all of that is true, because at least I would know that you live on somewhere, and that maybe someday we'd meet again…"
So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know...
"But Damnit, Goliath, WHY? Why did you save me? I told you to get out of there. I was prepared to die knowing that you would be safe, the clan would be safe, and my son would be safe. Saving me was exactly what Thailog wanted you to do! He knew you'd act exactly the way you did. He was banking on your sense of duty and loyalty to do you in, and he banked correctly. Damn him…"
I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving
Hold on to me and never let me go...
Tachia finally decided that this was the time to get Elisa from her kneeling position before the grave and bring her into the castle.
"Elisa," Tachia whispered, watching Elisa's reaction to her intently. "Let us go inside? It is getting cold, dear." She leaned down and extended her hand to Elisa. She looked up at the concerned female, and took her hand. Tachia helped her up from the ground and lead her towards the Great Hall so that she could be with her family. Elisa said nothing.