Chapter 16

Dumbledore's life had took a turn for the worse, he was not sure what to do. He had just weeks ago had control over everything, including Harry Potter and Severus Snape, the potions master. He had lost control over everything now, Harry was now with his true dad and now had someone to rely on. And Dumbledore could not find a potions master no matter how hard he tried, he needed one, but the Potions masters didn't want to be stuck with a big bunch of dunderheads to teach or they liked just brewing there potions in peace not having to teach it. No matter how good the persons were at potions, most masters didn't want anything to do with them unless they were apprentices or masters.

Severus had only became the potions master so he could tell Dumbledore what Voldemort was up to, without causing suspicion, i mean if he didn't stay in Hogwarts then the Dark Lord would immediately suspect him (After all if he didn't live at Hogwarts what reason does he have for being there? plus there is the fact that Voldemort asked him to spy on the old fool), and it worked, but he had stayed on after, because Dumbledore had asked him too. Severus felt as if he owed the man and had stayed on as the potions master and Dumbledore had used that against him. Of course he only realized that now.

Harry as soon as Severus got him back put the small boy to bed, never having thought he would be able to do that he did it with pride and so much happiness that people would be wondering if he was in sane, after all they would not know that he had lived two lives one in which he never got to see his son after he was taken to live with Potter, his own enemy knew more about his son than he did. But Snape swore not this time, he would be there when he did his first magic, lost his first tooth when he read his first sentence and when he started school, he would be there through everything, and would make sure he lived an old age, even if it meant dying he would do it without so much as a second thought.

Severus knew that He and his son were safe, his trial papers were closed and no one could get into them, meaning that no death eaters knew he was a spy, IKor Kageroff knew but he was obliviated, he no longer remembered telling the court about Severus Snape. Who had went to Drumstrang and became the headmaster after a couple of years. So no one knows he was a spy and he knew he would be left in peace, Malfoy of course thought that Severus was on their Lords side, and pretended to be friends, of course Severus knew Malfoy better than that and knew Malfoy would kill him without a thought if he suspected his true loyalties, that was why he had not questioned Severus when he had asked for clothes that no longer fitted Draco.

Severus knew it was going to be a while before Harry was up and running again, but thank Salazar Slytherin for the potions, or he would still be in a very bad shape. Severus,knowing what he was doing was able to give his son the right amount of potions as well as also knowing which one to give him, for instance there was more than just one nutrition potion, and Severus knew he had to give his son the strongest one, so did Madam Pomfrey, but anyone else would have just given him a normal one, not the one he needed.

For the next couple of weeks, Severus healed his son, so he was running around the manor, when he thought Severus was not looking of course. He knew his son still didn't trust him but was getting there, they had time to know each other better, well it was more like Harry got to know Severus his father better, Harry still getting used to his freedom didn't know what things he liked better, he loved food for starters, he has scrambled egg every morning and a glass of milk, eating it carefully saviouring every bite, as well as drinking the milk slowly, of course in the couple of weeks he ended up plucking up the courage to ask for more, Severus had been waiting for his son to ask him for days and was happy when he had asked, of course he had given him it, never denying his son anything. He didn't think he ever could, not after what he had seen in the pensive, he was going to make sure that his son had the best life he could ever have, he was going to bring him up properly.

It was a happy two weeks for both of them, Harry learning how to be a child and trust someone, Severus learning how to look after a child as well as learning to love his son again.

Once upon a time he had not wanted children, for more than one reason, one he was a spy, two he didn't want children and three he was scared he would be like his father and strike his child. But he loved Lily and she had ended up pregnant, he had been so scared and also very angry, there was a war going on and his wife was pregnant. He had been happy to give those duties over to James Potter, which was until the child kicked, he had been there for the first time the child kicked, and the feeling was more than he could stand. That was when he started becoming fond of having a child, his and Lily's baby; Lily had wanted a girl more than a boy, but she didn't care which she had as long as he or she was healthy.

When his son had entered the world and put in his arms he had instantly fell in love all over again, especially when his son looked at him through those emerald orbs so much like his Lily's he thought to himself ' how am I ever going to let you go?' no one ever saw the tormented and proud tear that ran down the man's face. Only after he composed himself did he put the child in his Lily's arms, Lily had almost cried, Harrison looked exactly like Severus with her eyes and nose. Her love, it was then she decided not to go into hiding, she had proudly announced that she would rather him just disguised only when he went out of course.

Severus had at that moment when she told Dumbledore she was not going into hiding, been more proud of her it meant for him he would get to know his child, who he carried to the Headmasters office, James Potter following them. Lily being a friend of James let him be Uncle James to Harrison. And after that he was calling him that all the time, he did like his uncle James but not as much as he loved him mummy and daddy.

Severus after a while told them to go into hiding; Voldemort was after them and would take no chances. He had cried himself to sleep that night, his wife and son had gone into hiding, and Severus of course had never felt more alone but there was also a lighter feeling in his chest he was happier than ever that his son and Lily would survive this war.

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Harrison didn't understand why his daddy was crying, he had never seen his daddy cry, he was always strong and happy to see him! Why was his daddy sad? He soon fell asleep listening to his daddy saying good bye, why was his daddy saying those things? He was going to come back right? His daddy always says he would be, to his mummy so he will be back! He woke up at Uncle James, and it was his mummy who washed him and put him to bed not his daddy. Harrison didn't understand where was his daddy? He always puts him to sleep and always there. And why were they still at Uncle James? Should his mummy not be at home with daddy?

He didn't see his daddy in the next few days! Why? What had happened to his daddy, Harrison watched the door most of the day waiting for his daddy to come through and pick him up and hear his daddy's silky voice telling him he loved him. But soon he realized his daddy was not coming for him, he thought his daddy didn't want him anymore.

"I want my DADDY!" screamed the little boy as James tried to put him to sleep.

Lily had been on the couch rocking back and fourth, none of them had been able to calm Harrison down, he had eventually cried himself to sleep, even in his sleep he had asked for his daddy, and it had caused Lily to go off again. She had been missing Severus cuddle up to her at night and their love; she was so scared she would never see him again. Not just for her but for her and her son, who had just had the biggest fit that no one could calm, Severus had always been the one to calm the screaming fits at the middle of the night and other times.

James too was heart broken, he had thought himself a father to the child, and here he was screaming for his daddy, was proof that it was not his son. The son he had never had and the son he would never have, he had been frustrating getting him asleep, he had seen how upset Lily had been. All James could think was 'Having a family is harder than it looks'

But he of course hated Severus for that reason, in school he had been popular and wanted Lily, but he had never caught her eye. Severus Snape had, a boy who had always wanted to read his potions and dark arts books. He had the family he had always wanted, he had wanted Lily and still did, He even wanted Severus' son, but he realized that night he could never win there hearts, Lily was too much in love with Severus and Harrison loved his dad. He accepted defeat but loved them both in a way he knew was fine. As a brother to Lily and an uncle to Harrison.

But then something had happened that Severus thought would never happen, the war ended his mark faded till it was almost gone, he had left his quarters in the dungeons and walked from the school, to find Sirius Black and tell him to take him to his family. But when he walked out something was wrong he didn't know what it was for a while, and then he realized his wedding band was not glowing, it only meant one thing, his wife was dead.

He had panicked, running from the Headmasters' office, to find the place empty. He stayed waiting on the headmaster he had cried and cried till he had no more tears to cry, just then the minister came through with Aurors and they arrested him, the last thing he remembered was an Auror telling his fellow Auror Lily and James Potter had died. And that memory came fourth over and over again.

He needed to know if his child was alive, his Lily was dead. Harrison was all he had left, he had never been more grateful than when Dumbledore got him out of there, and when he told him his son was alive. Of course he had been talked into giving him up, and being the fool he was he let himself be talked into it.

And he remembered everything that happened, not having his wife or son he had became bitter, and angry, teaching children, when he could not look after his own. All he had was pictures of his son, that were at the time years old, it had only made him all the more bitter. He had been horrible to his son because Dumbledore had told him to be.

But now, the times and clocks were turned and he was getting a second chance, a chance he had never thought he would get, but he didn't like the fact that his son had to go into Gryffindor or the fact he had to befriend those stupid disgusting Weasels or Granger for that matter. But even that didn't dampen his growing spirits, another thing he knew that the women would be coming to see him and his son when he is eleven and seen the memories, as proof he was the boy who lived two lives.